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“I've been using spirituality and other means to reject myself and repress who I am, and I was just finally ready to ask for help,” says Speaker A, an emerging artist whose struggle with insomnia, pornography addiction, and the fear of intimacy leads to a powerfully vulnerable session on Mental Health in a Modern World. In a riveting conversation with holistic practitioner Speaker C, Speaker A unpacks his journey: four nights without sleep, waves of shame, and the realization that his deepest wounds stemmed not from simply bad habits, but from a lifelong impulse to hide the truest parts of himself.

Today, Speaker A shares how archetypal and parts work unlocked the protective, sabotaging patterns within him and the childhood pain beneath—a territory rarely explored so openly by men. He courageously details the process of breaking his unconscious contract with pornography, the visceral chaos of inner transformation, and how somatic dance (and finally, authentic creative expression) helped him find safety in his body and connection with others.

Tune in to this episode of Mental Health in a Modern World for a raw, hope-filled look at healing addiction, shame, and the path to genuine intimacy—starting with the courage to be seen.

5 Key Takeaways

Healing deep wounds and reclaiming intimacy requires courage, self-inquiry, and compassion—here’s how you can start:

1. Identify and compassionately engage with your inner protector parts to understand what they’re guarding and what they truly need.
2. Give yourself permission to express difficult truths and vulnerabilities, especially the ones you’ve been ashamed to share.
3. Replace self-destructive coping mechanisms, such as pornography or media binging, with embodied practices like somatic dance and creative expression.
4. Release unconscious contracts and old patterns by consciously naming them, honoring their original purpose, and inviting in healthier replacements.
5. Regularly create safe spaces for authentic self-expression and supportive community connection—your healing can inspire others to share and heal as well.

Start today: embrace your inner work, express your truth, and reconnect with your authentic self.

Memorable Quotes

"I was cracking up the other day because here I am, 30 years old, living with my parents, dealing with porn addiction, compulsive masturbation, insomnia— all these things going on. As I'm healing, it's like my parents are out of town, and I feel like Kevin McAllister in Home Alone, stepping outside going, 'I'm not afraid anymore.' But then, of course, that guy down the street shows up and I realize, okay, I'm still afraid. That's what these past weeks have been like."

"I knew that the deeper need of pornography was me looking to be held, for intimacy, and I confused it with sex. I took on the programming of pornography—so when that moment arises where you feel lonely and want to be held, it means that you want to have sex or consume sexual content. But what I actually needed was intimacy, to be held."

"For so many years, I was sharing things I thought were cool designs so people would accept me. Now I'm excited to finally share the things that move me, not the things that keep me safe."

Connect with Kevin

Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/kev.net_

Resources Mentioned

King, Warrior, Magician, Lover: Rediscovering Masculinity Through the Lens of Archetypal Psychology - A Journey into the Male Psyche and Its Four Essential Aspects - https://amzn.to/4nGVN3R

Connect with Greg

Website - https://www.healing4d.com/

Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/4d_healing/

YouTube - https://www.youtube.com/@gregschmaus

LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/greg-schmaus-22929589/

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