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Speaker 2Hello, I'm Katelinebrook and welcome to No Filter.
This summer, we've curated a special No Filter playlist which is unmissible conversations with the Australians, our people who make us laugh and think and feel seen.
Speaker 1And if you've had just about enough.
Speaker 2Of all the new Year, New me noise, this one's for you because it's old me.
Ce Les Barber has built an empire on keeping it real.
She's the antidote to perfection, the woman who took Instagram's glossy fantasy and turned it on its head.
And in this conversation she opens up about ADHD, about marriage and fame, and her famous friends and the messy, hilarious business of being human.
It's a brilliant reminder that you don't need to reinvent yourself for January.
Speaker 1You just need to be yourself.
Speaker 3I'm a lot to be with me is a lot.
This is fun.
Speaker 4Day in day out, I get darkness, I go high, I go low.
Of all the things, ce Les Barber is one of the most recognizable and genuinely beloved faces in the country.
Speaker 1She's a comedian, an actor, a writer.
Speaker 2A producer, a global touring, sensation and depending who you ask, a feminist icon, a social media star, a mother, or simply the funny woman in big knickers pulling faces on Instagram.
But behind all of that is someone who's spent years making sense of her own life, the chaos of her childhood, her ADHD diagnosis, the experience of being a wife and mum while the world watches, and what it means to be called real when you're living anything but an ordinary life.
We talk about parenting, body image, social media fatigue, and how she's navigated life with a brain that works a little bit differently.
Also how she's learnt to take a compliment.
It wasn't easy and through it all she's hilarious as always.
But more than that, she's honest.
She's vulnerable and that thing we all love about her she's one hundred percent real.
Speaker 1I know because I touched her.
Speaker 2This is a conversation about success, identity, the beauty and chaos of life, and the woman behind the accidental empire here is Celeste Barber.
Speaker 4Look will either have an amazing career when this comes out, I will both be out.
Speaker 1Of rock canceled and what a rist what a sweet res.
Speaker 3Same can someone cancel me so I can lie down time?
Speaker 1I'm tired.
Speaker 2Celeste Barber, Hi, welcome to No Filter.
It's nice to be Yah, we've already started, have you.
We have started, but I just thought I'll do an introduction, of course, because we will be like, who is she?
Speaker 1I've never seen it?
Speaker 3Exactly, exactly is that Ricky Lee?
What's going on?
Speaker 4You are?
Speaker 1No?
Speaker 4And then I mean, I've always loved Ricky Lee.
Yes, the reason she got voted out of Australian Idol is because I was out of the country and you couldn't be I couldn't nineteen ten Ricky Lee.
Yeah, the pipes on that girl.
Speaker 3She's unbelievable.
Speaker 4And then I'm like, face to face met her a couple of months ago, I did her radio show and it was just like, oh my god, we do look the same.
Photos of people are like, wow, what's going on?
Yeah, we look the same, which I take is a huge compliment.
Speaker 1And how does she take it?
I don't know.
I didn't ask to take every compliment.
Speaker 4Absolutely, I'm just going to pop my pills.
Speaker 2Everyone else pop your pills, all right, and you know your pills are actually a conduit into a conversation about all of you.
Really, because little Saliste tell me about Little Celeste.
Speaker 1Oh, little Celeste, you're more than New South Wales.
Speaker 4Yeah.
Speaker 1Yeah, I live on the border.
Yeah, you're a tween.
Yeah, because I'm from Queensland.
Speaker 3Outrageous.
Speaker 2And so a big night for us was to go to the twin town Services Colas, absolutely on the border.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 3And I grew up in a place called Terranora.
Speaker 4Like a little little well, I was kind of a little bit more in the hills, but yeah, we're right near, right close to ten minutes to the beach.
Speaker 1And so your mum cath your dad Neville, Yeah, and was.
Speaker 4He a nifty nifty He's the ultimate nifty Neville.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4And my sister Olivia, yeahs older sister.
Yeah, just the four of us.
Speaker 2And I like it too now that your sister older sister classic way kind of asserts herself now in the story of who we all know as Celese Barber.
She's, like I said to her, absolutely, you should do the truth about these posts.
Speaker 1Definitely.
Speaker 3She's also the funniest person in any room myself.
Speaker 4Like she's so funny, and she's so brave and so loud, and like you're just in stitches when you're around her.
Speaker 3She's funnier than I am.
Speaker 4One hund and bring and so growing up you had this like You've got a beautiful family who understood you very well.
Yeah, the best they could with someone who a kid who's you know, near a divert adhd all of that and loud and you know, I'm a nineties baby, well eighties baby, you know, greppling the night and we didn't know what it was.
Speaker 1I was just annoying.
I was annoying and ostracized school.
Speaker 2Yeah, yeah, yeah, And this is so brutal, but I think it's not an uncommon experience for people who end up working in the creative arts in some capacity.
Speaker 1That this like what was it the force of your personality or.
Speaker 4Yeah, just the the force of my personality, the energy around me, the energy that I would put out, the ideas that were in.
Speaker 3Me that I just I didn't know what to do.
Speaker 4Ostracize me because as a fifteen year old, like everyone, every teenager is fighting for their lives.
Speaker 1They are true.
Speaker 4They I have a thirteen year old son at the moment, he's fighting for his life.
It's a rough time.
Will be neurodiverse, not and you.
Speaker 2Know what they tend to do, I think is hence there's a uniform There's a uniformity to how you dress, there's a uniformity to like what you listen to and what you do.
Speaker 3What your opinions are on everything.
Speaker 2If you're not in step with the youth army, then it's like your bastard eyes like in the real army, and they pick off the week, which I think is kind of a way of stopping everyone else from looking at you.
Speaker 1Absolutely look at her.
Speaker 4I mean, that's what I mean about everyone fighting for their lives.
Even the people who were a part of that army, they're still freaking Yeah, I don't know what's going on.
And then yeah, you see a week link and you go, absolutely, let's focus over there so that spotlight isn't on me.
I think that is definitely part of what happened.
It's savage and what experience brutal and it's un necessary.
I I know kids can be shit.
You know, kids are brutal with each other, but the level of meanness, the level of like targeted attacks on kids who are different, is out of control.
Like and I'm I'm really big advocate advocate for it.
Now now that I'm older and my older son has ADHD and I see the struggles that he's going through as well, and.
Speaker 3I'm onto the school all the time.
Speaker 1I'm like, just.
Speaker 4They hate they when my son started at school that of course see it now they're like, oh my god, I liked the better when we could just follow you and you not come in and talk.
But I'm like, there has to be a lot, Like if there is a kid sitting alone, you have to interject.
You cannot have one teacher on a school field at lunch times when all of this stuff is going down and these little ones are getting picked.
Speaker 1Off and not acting.
Speaker 4Especially with social media, these kids are just on their phones and the toxic masculinity that's going on that doesn't get policed in any way.
And it's like, oh, well it toughens them up.
I just call absolute bullshit to that, Like we have to we have to interject earlier.
Speaker 2But what were you at an all girls school, no co ed school?
Yeah and so and that was pre social media data?
DA, what form did it take that that?
Speaker 4Like?
Speaker 2How was it exercised against you there?
Speaker 4It was very calculated.
It was two girls in particular popular.
Speaker 1Girls or school.
Speaker 4They decided that I was ship and that no one was to talk to me.
Speaker 1And did it happen like overnight?
Speaker 4Yeah, I got off the bus, right, I remember getting to school, got off the bus, went up, and no one was talking to me.
And it's not as though, you know, you've been texting on We didn't have phones then, we had landlines, so these girls must have put effort into call around.
Speaker 3I don't know what happened.
Speaker 4And I remember talking to a girl who was my friend who got caught up in it.
Speaker 3She then didn't really talk to me either.
Speaker 4But you know, because she got caught up in it, and I just remember her just going, nah, it's and I remember exactly where I was and the feeling and everything just sunk.
When I was crying, she had just gotten off her bus and I ran down.
Speaker 3I was like, what's going on?
Speaker 1What's going on?
Speaker 4And she was like, everyone ate a bitch, and I was like, and just that sinking feeling which you have anyway when you're a teenager, and then when you were a teenager that doesn't produce dopamine, so already goes I'm pretty shit, right, I'm shit that then you usually start your day like that and then the entire year goes Yep, you are.
That was I'll never forget that feeling.
Speaker 1And how did you make yourself go to school?
Like?
Speaker 2What was that process for you when you would wake up in the morning son's dopamine?
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4I just think I'm a really, really resilient person.
This is something I've learned about myself.
And when I look back at little me, I'm like, you're really tough mate.
Speaker 3You did like It's also the nineties.
We all had to go to school.
Speaker 4Remember those days, you know, it's like I think I have pneumonia, and my parents I was like, well just go and see how you go, and see how you go, and if by lunch you don't feel well, go to the sick bay will come.
And you always just had you just had to go to school.
It wasn't parents had to go to work.
You had to go to school.
And then I found drama.
I found you know, the drama room and all.
Speaker 1That, because you were already a dancer.
Speaker 4Yeah.
I danced, yeah, and then found drama and I just I just went in.
Speaker 3I just went into me.
Speaker 4So I got a lots I made sure, you know, you make sure a lot yourself, be quiet, be invisible, and then they'll leave you alone.
But a byproduct of that was I went in and went, what do I What do I like?
If no one else is going to hang with me and I'm just going to hang with myself, what do I like?
Speaker 3So I start writing jokes.
Speaker 4Or I go to the drama room, or start like quoting Friends in my I love the show Friends and playing the characters.
Speaker 1Out in my head in Friends, by the way, Chandler, Yeah, just.
Speaker 4Smart us, just the constant as at all of that.
Speaker 1That's me.
Yeah.
Speaker 4Yeah, So I just I remember just kind of going inward and getting on with it.
But it's interesting whenever I think about it.
Things, you know, we all go through in our lives, and I've had some big things happen, some tragedies and whatnot, as everyone has.
But that's the one thing that sticks with me is that time of feeling so not just low and sad and ostracized, but the energy that went in to making sure I felt like that by an entire school year at school.
And that's why with my my son, for example, I'm like, we aren't this is not a rite of passage, and I think it's sometimes well it did it got treat like that, Well, you just got a tough en up.
Speaker 3You got to get through it.
Speaker 4I mean, my parents did the best they could.
My parents were always like, what's going on?
Speaker 1How did they know?
Your parents?
Speaker 4I would tell you be okay, they would see so you come home come yeah, like everyone.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4And I remember my mum asking one of the girls in a year who was still kind of talking to me.
But it was hard for.
Speaker 1Them as well.
Speaker 4When you two girls tell you not to do something, you do it because then they'll if not, they'll be mad.
And I remember my mum was saying to her quietly going what what did she do?
Has she done something?
What has she done?
Like we can yeah, I know, and Louise go, no, you know this.
Everyone just hates Sally alone.
Good.
Well, you know what I love that there's a redemption arc for you and your beautiful life and your beautiful family and your breadth of the understanding of humanity, which informs actually a lot of your work.
Speaker 2You know.
It's like people always say online comments, you can get a thousand compliments, but that one, you know, nasty comment is the barb that will strike home.
Yeah, and so I think if you've had that formative happening, it stays with you.
Speaker 4It does, it stays with me, and it also is exacerbated sometimes in the way where I will look for that bad comment.
Yeah right, you yeah, made me feel so much better about myself.
Speaker 1I can't believe it.
I knew it.
Speaker 4Yeah, I knew it.
See that's them seeing the real me.
It's weird, isn't it.
I think, what is that need that we have?
I know, Oh yeah, what is that need?
Why?
It's It's masochistic, isn't it.
It's like, why am I trying to hurt myself in this moment?
Why can't I just take the wins.
I'm working very hard and very successfully on that, on celebrating the wins.
I've been talking with my husband about it.
Actually, I'm like, we need to lean in to the joy.
We need to lean into because I just think, you know, especially with the world at the moment, you kind of wake up and you're.
Speaker 1Like, what's the fox happen?
Now?
Speaker 4Like, I'm sure something's happened.
It's like, so when there's a little wine, take it.
I'm going to take those ten I'm going to take those forty thousand good comments, and I'm going to all the five bad ones.
Speaker 3I remember Ellen Degenerous, remember her, I'm saying that.
Speaker 1She took the winds, didn't she though?
Speaker 4And everyone else's no, But I remember when people liked her and she was like, you have to read all the comments.
You've got to take the good and the bad.
And I'm like, I'm not doing that.
Speaker 1I don't.
Speaker 4I actively choose not to do that because I give enough shit to myself.
I've got enough going on in here.
Who I keep myself really grounded.
I keep myself on the right side of things, you know, I really hold myself accountable.
Speaker 3I don't need strangers to.
Speaker 1Do that as well.
Speaker 4I'm like, no, I'm going to take the good.
I'm going to take you all telling me I'm amazing.
I'm going to eat that up.
Speaker 2Well, you know, one of your wins was your mom.
Your mum who went like, who recognized your neurodivergence then that you just weren't formulated the same because this was in the nineties.
Speaker 1Like nobody, like everybody.
Speaker 2I know who's ADHD or whatever has been diagnosed in like the last five years.
Women as well, women and midlife A lot of midlife sort of stuff.
But your mom took you to a doctor.
Yeah, I didn't even know there was rittal in the nineties.
Speaker 3Yeah, oh there was saved my life.
Speaker 4My mom and my parents were at their wits end with me as well.
They didn't know what to do that.
We were looking to change schools because like we don't.
Speaker 1It was a lot.
Speaker 4I was a lot, and AHD in children and in girls in the nineties is a lot because it's just she is loud and annoying and attention seeking and can't listen, and it's it's there's nothing sexy about it.
Speaker 1Nothing sexy about superpower.
Speaker 4There's no Yeah, I envy those people who are like I find it superpower.
Speaker 1I want that type.
I hate it.
Speaker 4But yeah, we got to a point where my parents took me to a doctor and as soon as I walked in, he was like, you have it.
You have got my dad, my dad who was watching a fly fly around the room.
Speaker 1Yeah right.
Speaker 4My mom was like, help me, please, help me, help me help.
Speaker 2So two amazing things, your parents calling it and going I think this could take some medical intervention and a doctor then who was onto it, and in a girl because also I think the prevailing wisdom then was that's a kind of a boy thing.
Speaker 4Yeah, just loudactive boys.
And that was a time where we had family friends who were teachers, and they pulled my parents aside once and said, leave her with us for six months and we'll get it out of her.
That's what they said.
Speaker 2Oh yeah, at that point where your parents tempted.
Speaker 3Just six months, can we let's just do it a whole year?
Speaker 4Wow?
Speaker 2Yeah.
So from that, from then being prescribed ritalin So so you're sixteen.
Speaker 1Yeah, changed my life instantly.
Speaker 4I went home that afternoon, I sat down and we had I think it was ADHD for Dummies or like a book or something was sitting there, and I sat down and I picked it up and I read a paragraph and my parents burst into tears, and I was like, what's wrong with you?
And you've never ever done that, You've never done that, You've never read.
Speaker 1Oh.
Speaker 3I was quintessential.
Speaker 4Set all up a little study area in my room, had a photo Janet Jackson, their caster of friends.
Speaker 1There, Chandler Chandler.
Yeah.
Speaker 4And then I had my timetable of how I was going to study that night.
I'm going to do maths for twenty minutes all stuck.
I got all the cute pens and then went off.
I just couldn't do it.
I had no idea how to do it.
Yeah, and then had written and everything changed.
Speaker 2And so okay, here's the when things change?
Did everything else then change?
Did school change your relationship?
Speaker 1School changed?
Absolutely?
Speaker 4I will say pre diagnosis, and this is I guess one of the symptoms.
I was obsessed with dancing, and I was obsessed with Janet Jackson, and I had been to her concert, and I learnt her concert and I would perform it.
So that's the hyper focus of ADHD, where I would if I loved it, if I had an emotional response to it, I could do it forever and do it better than anyone.
That's a superpower of ADHD.
So I had that.
I think when you're asking before about how did I get up and go to school?
I knew that there were things that I loved outside of the bullshit, which is also very important for a kid to have another world outside.
Absolutely, and I'm so full on about that with my children.
I'm like, find what you love now.
I would get busy.
I'm big believer in get busy now, work now, find what you want to do now and enjoy it later, don't sit around and faff around.
Speaker 2And also so that you're not really just on one world, so the school world, Yeah, so that you've got other places where if you're an outcast here or something happens or you get canceled or whatever, you had these other places plug Yeah.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4And I remember, like with dancing, for example, I'd say to my mom, I just want to go to a different school where Julie goes to my friends from dancing, and Mum was like, no, you're going to stay here.
Speaker 3You're going to stay here.
Speaker 4And I think that was the best thing she did because when school was shit, like we were just saying I had those I had that world to go to and if we combined it all, if it's all shit, then it's all shit.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4Yeah, And I do that with my son.
He's like, oh, do I want to go to school.
I want to go where my footymates are.
I'm like, but you have footy, you have different pockets because when one goes to crap.
Speaker 1Yeah, you've got that.
Yeah, I think that's really passport.
Speaker 4You need a few personalities, different ways to let in.
Speaker 2But then you're obviously very talented, because then after high school you went to study drama.
Speaker 3Yeah fit and apean Yeah right.
Speaker 4I think they were congratulations and we graduated and I got on the first plane out of there.
Speaker 1I was and did you have to audition to get in?
And what was your audition?
Speaker 3I did Lady Macbeth.
Speaker 1Oh did you hands near being out damn Spot?
Speaker 3Oh really I know, I mean maybe.
Speaker 1A good Lady Macbeth.
Thank you.
Speaker 4I talk about resilient.
This is what I mean when I'm like, there's someone who doesn't have any confidence.
It was always told by you know, external that you crap in you all this.
I was like, I know what I'm doing.
I cannot believe it's seventeen.
I decided to get up and you out damp Spot.
The Lady Macbeth monologue for my audition.
Speaker 1Like the monologue in the World of Theater.
Speaker 4Absolutely, It's like it's absurd.
I don't think Dame Judy Dench things just quite nailed it yet.
And I'm like, everyone sit down in this freezing studio in Pe in the middle of the day.
I remember just standing up in bike pants and going and just like getting into it and then and the terry that.
Speaker 1Our head of acting.
Speaker 4When I got accepted and he goes, we just knew if someone has that confidence to get up and try that there's something to play with.
Speaker 1The idea was that?
Was it Terry's idea?
No, it was my idea?
Is your idea?
Speaker 4I remember we studied Macbeth at school and I loved it.
I was really really into it, really into it, and I just thought, yeah, I'll do that.
Speaker 2That's not all of my conversation with the list.
Coming up after the break, we talk about her landing the role of her dreams and how a friend's heavy handed, kind of brutal advice helped her find her niche in comedy.
Obviously you were extremely talented.
So because and there's no point in arguing, I don't even think you bother.
Speaker 1Actually take that, this is what you're doing in your therapy.
Speaker 4No, I'm trying to just take I'm trying to take that.
Speaker 2Yes, obviously for you were, but obviously you were because you auditioned, you laid him bet your way into drama school.
And then this is almost like a casual aside when I've heard you mention this before.
Then you got a role on All Saints.
Yeah, now that is an incredible achievement.
Speaker 4Absolutely absolutely, I completely agree.
I loved that show that I felt like I had when I got that job.
I went, I have just won a foolat, I've won an Emmy, a Tone, a Grammy in oscar I.
Speaker 1I couldn't believe.
Speaker 4And the people on that show it's and that some of them are still my like then my family.
I love that show so much.
I loved working on it.
I was on it for five years, first as a guest, then as a semi regular, and then I got contracted as a regular, and I was like, I am happy for this show and still to this day for this show to go until I am one hundred and seven and I die on it.
Speaker 2I loved it being a patient instead.
Speaker 4Of we're all my funeral on the show would I loved it.
It was that was when TV was so good because it's different actors through each week, actors, actual actors coming through and you get to work with all that.
I loved it so much, couldn't believe it was my first job.
Speaker 1Couldn't believe.
Speaker 2Amazing, amazing, And also from your cohort, I imagine were you one of the first ones who got regular giggle yeah.
Speaker 1It took a bit.
Speaker 4Well, you know, in hindsight, it's like it only took you four years.
Speaker 1But when you're like, I've been doing this de Yeah.
Yeah.
For some actors, the realities that it may never happen.
Speaker 4The most actors, especially now, for most actors, it doesn't happen there.
I know most of my actor friends who aren't working are better actors than I will ever be or anyone will see.
It's just it's just a shitty, shitty industry.
Speaker 1And so and you made one of your dearest friends on the show.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Speaker 2And a girlfriend of mine was a producer on that show from Marianne Carroll, Oh yeah, yeah yeah, and she loved you.
She was like, that was a great there was just something special about you know, you're wrong, it's not that great.
Speaker 1He's not very confident.
Speaker 3That great.
Speaker 1And then you then we lost him.
Speaker 2Yeah, you lost him, and you lost him to his depression.
Yeah that was that was And where was that in the in the trajectory of the show the show.
Speaker 4It was toward the end.
I believe that's why the show ended.
I think when Mark died, the show went with it.
They tried to then pivot.
Yeah, and they for a couple of years.
They did her quite kind of successfully, but the heart, it just wasn't the same.
We were absolutely Davis suddenly killed us like it was just oh, it was horrible.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4He was such a heart, the heart, soul, the smart ass.
Speaker 1And a very dear to you.
Speaker 2Yeah, in the way that he had seen and saw something in you, something about the self effacing nature of you.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4I still believe he's the reason I'm successful one undred percent because of what he said to me.
Speaker 1We were.
Speaker 4He used to come to my place, we were worth living in Balmain in Sydney, and we just write sketches together and we just film them, like hold a little cam quarter up and he'd say his part and then I play and we just kill ourselves laughing.
Speaker 3We always joke we don't need an audience.
Speaker 1We are good.
We're just laughing.
Speaker 4And I remember we were sitting on set once, you know, long days sitting on set doing nothing and we're writing.
Speaker 2You know, that's interesting because a lot of actors go mad on seat.
That's why a lot of like mega Hollywood types are a little bit unhinged, I think because of the enormous Yeah, waiting.
Speaker 4Absolutely, you know, Heath Franklin, the comedian.
He always I worked with him, and he's.
Speaker 3Brilliant, brilliant.
Speaker 2Yeah, a lot of people would know him as Chopper as Chopper.
Speaker 1Yeah, God, he's brilliant.
Speaker 4One of the funniest, smartest minds I've ever worked with.
He says about TV, he says, you pay me to sit around the acting I do for free.
Speaker 2Yeah, yes, yes, yes, waiting around.
Yeah, but you were feeling your waiting around.
Yeah, that's creativity.
Speaker 3And that was thanks to Mark because he was like, he couldn't sit still.
Speaker 1It was awesome.
Speaker 4That energy is so great to have around and but he was great at channeling it.
And I, you know, we were just channeling it and we were writing sketches and scenes and stuff and I said, oh, maybe this light and then oh no, no, Dory, and he went what I went, o, No, no, don't worry and then he just he pulled the paper out of my hand.
He went, stop it.
And I was like, I was my twenties.
What he goes that is very boring to me?
Speaker 1And I was like, what do you mean?
Speaker 4He goes you not knowing how fucking funny you are is very boring to me.
It's not fun.
It's not he goes, No, one's gonna can't be like, come on, you just have to stop it.
It's like and he said to me, you are the funniest person I've ever known in life.
Also in your work that's just boring, so just don't And I stopped right there, and then I stopped.
I remember leaning into the comedy more on All Saints and my role getting bigger and me really going.
Speaker 3And I'm going to find my niche here.
Speaker 4I'm good at this because I always found funny easy.
Yes, but with acting, I thought, no, you need to emot, you need to lead him macbethyr Wasyt through your head free role, or you're not actually not earning you know your craft.
Because I thought funny it was easy and he's like, that's not easy, but you not knowing it is boring and I went, yeah, enough gift and it changed.
Speaker 3It absolutely changed for me.
Speaker 2It's interesting the friends in life who love you enough to have that conversation with you.
Absolutely this is not working.
People that really love you.
Speaker 4Yeah, he loved me and I loved him where he was one of my dearest friends.
And also I was such a fan of his Mark Priestley is one of the greatest actors we've ever had, and beautiful gods, so handsome, those eyes.
He's such a good actor.
We're all just kind of watch him.
He you know, he was so great.
For him to say that to me, it's like, oh my god.
Speaker 1So at this point, have you met Arpi hot husband?
Yes, okay, I'm trying to track in my head.
Yeah you must have woah.
Speaker 3Mate, Yes, yes he had.
Yeah, I meet him when I was twenty one.
Speaker 1Yeah, right, yeah, and this I also find.
Speaker 2Extraordinary.
At twenty one, when you met Arpi he had two little girls, a two year.
Speaker 1Old and a four year old.
Speaker 2A four year Yeah, and so was that not a wrong way turnback signed to you?
Speaker 1Oh?
I didn't care.
Speaker 3I loved it.
Speaker 4I was twenty one and he walked into that bar and I went, I'm done, lock it down.
Wow, And and he was the same, Yeah, well, I guess.
Speaker 1Maybe he's done to actually, who knows.
Speaker 4Twenty two years later, yeah, you know, did twenty one.
Everything's romantic.
I've got daughters.
I was like, oh my god, now beautiful, that's so beautiful.
But the reality of shep but yeah, twenty one.
At twenty one, with big hopes and big dreams.
But my heart just exploded when I saw him, and I went, I can make it all work.
Speaker 3I'll just make all of it work.
Speaker 1It'll be fine.
It's a lot.
It's a lot anyone.
Speaker 2But also you're, like you said, big dreams and whatever, so you're also running your own race and trying to forge a creative life.
Speaker 4Yeah.
I think because I was on All Saints though, and in my mind it was going to be on forever.
Speaker 1Yeah, I'm just saying I'm dune.
Yeah show.
It was all very like a job.
It was lovely, Yeah, because you had the stability.
Speaker 4Yeah, I don't need to be creating work or do all looking for work or trying to find it.
You know.
It was my first job, and so you think it's going to last forever.
I remember when I got to All Saints.
You remember Chris Gabardi, the actor he was.
Speaker 3On All Lovely c.
Speaker 1I must have.
Speaker 4Had that in my eyes, like, guys, this is a family now forever, this is what we do forever.
And I got there and Chris was like, yeah, it's really and he'd been on the show for years and he was like, great to have you on.
I was like, I'm so excited.
He goes, Yeah, save you money, he said to me.
I was like, save you money, Yeah, save you money.
Speaker 1You Yeah.
Speaker 3Always been good at doing yeah, always always been.
Speaker 2And what was he's doing at that time was he's anest Yeah, so tree surgeon.
Speaker 4Yeah, tree surgeon and yes, very much, very nature man and also living on the mid North Coast six hours away in Scott's Head.
So I was in Sydney and you were long distance, long distance for eighteen months.
Yeah, and then the situation changed with his girls, right, yeah, and he came down to me and we moved in together.
Speaker 1Oh.
And then he had to go back up yeah.
Speaker 4Right, and then you went back up with him, and then I went back up for a while and then went on no, yeah, absolutely not, and then came back to Sydney.
Speaker 3We went back to Sydney.
Speaker 4And then when I'm going to go to America and up in night took time off.
Speaker 2Oh So was this after all Saints had Finnish?
Speaker 4Yes, And I was like, I need to make things happen.
I want to be working, I want to be doing things.
I want to try have a go in America.
You and I had done and you don't understand my wants and my needs.
Speaker 1I was leading Macbeth.
Goddamn it, how dare you?
And then he had.
Speaker 4The girls, and you know, it was worlds were kind of going like that, and I said.
Speaker 3I'm going to go to America.
Speaker 1He went fine.
I went to America and went I'm pregnant.
Oh yeah, yeah, best thing.
Oh And then came back.
So this is with your eldest Lulu.
Yeah, holy molly.
How far into America did you find out you were pregnant at the end of it?
Speaker 4And where were you in La driving down to Malibu with my friend and her convertible and I was like, oh, my goodness.
Speaker 3My period in a while, and she was like, you're pregnant.
Speaker 1I was like, how dare you?
Speaker 3I have company?
And then came back and went.
Speaker 1Oh, wow, I'm bad.
Actually I about it when I got back.
Oh, holy Molly.
And how old are you then?
Speaker 4So I was twenty nine when not overly young, but in the scheme of week, I.
Speaker 3Think that's a geriatric pregnancy.
Speaker 1Probably they call everything over.
Speaker 4Sixteen pregnant just because they liked big women are yeah, and so ARPI was the father.
Yes, Well they never know, do they.
Speaker 1Well, well, so my son was like and when you look at the boys, told they.
Speaker 4Dad, it's unbelieved, especially Lou, our oldest.
It's yeah right, it's creat And we named Lou afterpy Arpy was here.
Lou was Arpi's nickname with his family.
It still is because when he was little he lived in Papua New Guinea for a while and he used to walk around a little nappy eighteen months old singing to Sir with Love.
That was his favorite because his dad always played it.
And the singer of that song is called Lulu, so they Lu.
Even now when we get invited to like weddings, it'll be Celestia Lou.
Speaker 1Yeah.
What what sort of name is Rpi?
By the way, it's mari nameh yeah.
Oh and he fell in love with a Pakia Yeah it's yeah, I love.
Speaker 3I would move to New Zealand like that.
I want to relocate over there.
Speaker 1Really, are you on the run from something?
So less?
But they're all following me?
Well, speaking of following, oh yeah, okay, so the.
Speaker 4Next that was your first rocketd but is it?
Speaker 2But so then you had this lull, so you had baby, I imagine, just like such a shift even you know, you'd had that, you'd had the girls.
Speaker 1Yeah, that's very different, very different, very different.
Speaker 4And then had Lou on the mid North Coast and then yeah, no, work, had a new baby.
I was teaching acting and dancing at the local public school for five dollars just to do something like I have to it's in me.
I can't just sit.
And then we moved to the Central Coast and I had my second boy buddy, and then Instagram came about and I was like.
Speaker 1Yes, this could be something, this could be amazing.
Speaker 2Early you were early only do you think that was because of the isolation or are you genuinely a person that's like drawn to something new.
Speaker 1I think both.
Speaker 4I think not necessarily drawn to something new.
I mean I like shiny things, but I needed to do I wanted to do something.
And I saw this new app and I was like, wow, this is a and.
Speaker 3It was just it was a three pronged attack.
Speaker 4For me, was a this is bullshit that's been put out right.
It was all such perfection, absolutely perfection actually being sold as ever, like you know with glossy magazines, you knew that that was a glossy photo and that there was a photo shooting that and that's been photoshopped.
It's a Tiffany's campaign and everyone's photoshopped, and that's what they're selling us with Instagram.
I was like, this isn't you know to be like this is man, I'm just finished breastfeeding.
That what looks like when you finish breastfeeding.
That's not what it looks like at all.
So I kind of wanted to cut through the bullshit of that.
I just thought it was I was gonna say, maybe who did it?
Speaker 1We were sending them?
Speaker 4Was I was sending to Olivia, my sister, each other, and yes, what it looks like.
Speaker 1I just write a challenge accepted.
Speaker 4She's like, you know, just kind of bantering and I was like, I'm going to do some but I remember doing it and going, this is going to be good.
I think people want to say this.
I think people.
Speaker 1And also it's funny.
Speaker 3Yeah, I know funny.
I know what's funny.
Speaker 1So that was your first what was your first one?
Speaker 4First one was a yoga pose off a website.
Then they then put it on Insta.
I later learned that the website was run by one of the girls who bullied me at school.
I know, yeah, I don't fuck around when the woods come to Dunsane.
Yeah, yeah, and I did it.
I remember the caption was I'm starting something.
That's all I wrote.
And then stage less challenge accepted, and then yeah, that was kind of just The first one was just a silly yoga pos and I had Buddy who was then in a little walky in the background of just kind of showing what it's like to be at home trying to do yoga.
Speaker 2Yeah, very SIMPLESO.
You know what I love when the three it's of a story come together.
Everyone loves a redemption arc which you're at the start of you don't even know at that point, but also that all the things that you've done until that point have are going to stand you in such good stead.
Speaker 1You are a magnificent mover.
Yeah, isn't that.
Speaker 4Everything's in my body absolutely, that's just start here.
Speaker 2It's really interesting in your parodying of these perfect posts or whatever, and that you are actually a brilliant mover.
O.
Speaker 4Thanks, That's what I find funny physical comedy.
I love slapstick.
I love so to be able to do that and morph my body in those ways.
Speaker 3I think that's part of the reason it works.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 2But what I'm saying is it looks clumsy.
Speaker 1Yeah, it looks clumsy.
Speaker 4But I think my theory is I think it takes a coordinated person to be to look clumsy.
Yeah, right, because I'm coordinated and I know what I'm doing that I can, you know, sell.
Speaker 1It as clumsy.
Speaker 2Yes, yeah, whereas there's actually a great there's a great physical expertise to it.
Speaker 1Oh thanks, don't you think?
Yeah it's not That's what I'm saying.
Thanks.
Speaker 4Yeah, absolutely, Like I said.
Speaker 1I know, I know what I'm doing.
Speaker 4I know how to take something, flip it and make it funnier, make it, give it a different lens.
And I know my physicality absolutely helped.
And we're not with my stand up.
I went around that stage like an idiot and sure I try, yeah always, sure, Well, because tom Ford said I need to.
Speaker 1Play to my legs.
Yeah, you got great leads.
Speaker 4So I always legs and lashes in between the big old mess.
But I got great fucking legs and great lashes, and.
Speaker 1So tom Ford.
Speaker 2The friendship came as a result of the parodies.
Yeah, and how when did they really start to gather momentum when you really went, oh this is there's been ignition.
Speaker 1I did a post.
Speaker 4It wasn't long after I had started.
I did a post of Kim Ashan if you heard of her?
Oh was that on the dirt pile?
Is she Yeah, she's a lawyer and an actor, that's an activist and I'm pretty sure she invented feminism.
Yeah, yeah, she did it a photo they do.
Speaker 3A pile, and I did it.
Speaker 4I did a period of it, and then I think the ever credible Daily Mail got ahold of it and sent it out and I woke up to fifty thousand followers in twenty fifteen.
Speaker 1Which is a lot a losh.
Speaker 2Yeah, then you got the affirmation of I mean you already had it from yourself.
Speaker 4Oh, but then I got so so I was like, oh my god.
Remember we had friends over at the time, and I was like, everyone just popped fine seven photos I was doing and I just would back up because I also, I was saying before about the three pronged attack.
I also knew that it was funny and that I wanted to work and that this was a good platform to show that I know I'm a comedian, Like, we don't have many comedy clubs here Sydney.
Maybe something Melbourne down here, and you had but I had kids, and I'm not a stand up by trade, acted by trade.
So I was like, this is good, this is smart.
Speaker 3I know, I know this is going to be good.
Speaker 4And then when it started to get traction and people started to see it, I was like, great, and I would Then I got busy.
Speaker 3I would post two three.
Speaker 4Times a day because absolutely, and it's always been the goal is to work.
I've always just want I've just always wanted to work.
And I thought this, and I remember sending it to people who had like followings, like friends of mine, carry it dire, one of my oldest mates.
I was like, can you share this?
I think this is kind of funny.
Can you give me a shout out?
Like just knowing, I wanted to just push it out.
I wanted people to see it like I was because I knew.
I knew it was making women laugh and not hate themselves as much fighting against everything that is pushed on us.
And I also knew it was funny and I wanted producers and directors see it.
Speaker 1A girlfriend of mine said to me.
Speaker 2Years ago, actually she said, I hate Instagram.
It makes me feel bad about my life, and I love my life, and so what you did was kind of reclaim.
It was kind of Emperor's New Clothes in a way, wasn't it, Because it was like we when you've just fed a diet of something, you kind of think that's that's just the only meal that's available.
And something about what you did reset things for women.
Speaker 1And made us.
Speaker 2Go, oh, actually, that's ridiculous.
Speaker 4Absolutely, And that's the you know, people have different opinions on the posts that I do or whatever, but the first thing that people do and what I want is for them to laugh, and then they can go she looks shit, whatever, she doesn't look bad enough, she looks to Yeah, it's the best thing I've seen in my life.
But the first thing is love to be like huh yeah.
Speaker 1And that's what.
Speaker 4Because, like I said before about magazines, you can put them down, but when it's three in the morning and you're trying to breastfeed a baby that will not breastfeed, and you're on your phone and you're scrolling seeing all of this steak, it seeps again.
Social media seeps in through our pores and we're mainlining it absolutely, and I wanted to cut that off.
I wanted there to be a little break in that to try to make us not hate it.
Speaker 2Okay, But so here's the thing, Because you obviously consume a lot of it because you're, you know, looking.
Speaker 1For the next or the thing that resonates with you.
Speaker 2How do you keep your own channel clear so that you don't become consumed by the very thing that you know that you're recognizing on behalf of others?
Speaker 1Well, I delete the app.
Speaker 4Oh, I take it off my phone for a few days, because I'm a victim.
Of course.
Speaker 3Actually now it never used to be.
Speaker 1No, but it's more, isn't it.
What is beast now?
Speaker 4Like I still post on Instagram the same way I did ten years ago.
Yeah, it's just not how.
I have contacts in Instagram and they're like, Hi, can you try doing this?
Or I'll go in and have meetings with them.
They're like, these are your stats and if you wanted to maybe try doing this, you can.
Then they always turn to me and go, well, just keep doing what you're doing because you have the highest engagement of anyone.
And that's great because I just keep doing what I'm doing.
But my god, I get caught up in it.
I've had it last week.
I deleted it for three days because I spiraled.
Speaker 1I looked at it.
Speaker 4I was like, well, I'm not getting that acting job.
I'm not getting that comparison kick in Paris.
It's so brutal.
It is such a brutal device.
Like I said, that seeps in and the only way I can do it is to delete it.
Speaker 1I have to take it off.
Speaker 4I'm actually I just got an assistant and I'm starting to schedule.
Speaker 1Where I go.
Speaker 4I will go on I'll go on Instagram for an hour and I'll look for things.
Then I'll get my assistant to pull them, and then the next day I'll shoot them and then we'll schedule posting three.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 4I even get my kids to say if i'm because I work on my phone, to ask me, Mom.
Speaker 1Are you working?
Speaker 4Yeah?
Speaker 1I feel like, yeah, yes, you're not put my phone down.
It's so addictas.
Speaker 2Yeah, it's well, it's designed to be, but you're right, something's happened in the last.
Speaker 1Couple of years where it really is.
It is a beast.
Speaker 4It's all consuming when you've done that, So at this point you're underway.
Speaker 1You've really got.
Speaker 2Challenge accepted, momentum.
Fuck, they're funny justa just Emrata, you could just have devoted yourself.
Speaker 1I well, I was, I was, and then she blocked me.
Speaker 2Well, I know so because the thing that I've loved is like with Cindy Crawford and you know, Chris Jenna or whatever, those who were smart enough to go this is actually funny.
Yeah, funny, and I'm going to go along with it because this is great for everybody.
Speaker 1But Mrata is not that.
Speaker 3No, she doesn't like it.
Speaker 1Did you have any communication know her?
Never?
No, not from her people, No, no, not at all.
She talks about it.
Speaker 4She has spoken about it, not to me, but podcast I guess like I am now, But no, there's been no communication.
Speaker 1It is.
It's not a shock to me that she's not led by humor.
Speaker 4Yes, a bikini model doesn't like being made fun of by a middle aged woman.
It's not it's not like breaking news.
Consumers come out and humor.
It's I think we're a particular woman who was used to walking down the street and the sea's parting for her.
All of a sudden, someone goes, that's crazy that you're lying naked on the floor hugging your dog, and no one's I would try It's not lost to me that she's like, no, I don't like it, so I stopped doing it.
Speaker 1I'm not a monster, No, I'm not a bully.
No.
Speaker 4I make fun of an industry that makes women hate themselves, takes billions of dollars of us hating ourselves.
She doesn't like it, so I don't do it, which makes me sad.
Speaker 1Make she's the.
Speaker 2Greatest, greater she puts out, but also fair.
Speaker 1I know that you're not allowed to.
Speaker 4Usual friends as well, and some of them are like, hum well, so this is interesting.
I haven't banging us son.
Speaker 1But so the tom.
Speaker 2Ford thing, that was an astounding thing, because fashion generally.
Speaker 1Is not known for its humor.
Speaker 2No, they're very po faced, and they kind of to me, it seems like they come from intimidation.
Speaker 4And I'm hungry, hungry, sham shaming, yeah, hungry, but grateful those models shoes whatever.
Yeah, And he tapped into that.
He knew that that's.
Speaker 1What we spoke about.
And then how did he contact you?
Speaker 4I've got an email from his right hand woman and the subject was Tom Ford loves Celeste Barber.
I was sitting in a car park at Woolworth's at the entrance on the central host.
Speaker 1Of course you were.
Speaker 4And I just bought all of the you know, the red red spot discounted sales, chicken and a biscuit in the back of the car and I was like, what them what And it said I've printed the email habit from of course said he loves you, he wants he would love to work with you, if, if that would ever be a possibility.
He thinks you're hilarious.
And you know the sound an email makes when it comes in.
Yes, yes, I hadn't finished, and I'd responded and see seed every bit you bullied me in school.
I was like, when where how, I'm ready, let's go.
Yes, And then we were meant to work that year.
He wanted me to go to blame me to Fashion Week, but his partner was unwell, so.
Speaker 1It got postponed.
Speaker 4So I was over there anyway, and I met with him in his office and it was just he got down on his knees and crawled across the floor to me and was like, oh my god, oh.
Speaker 3My god, you're a queen.
Speaker 1And I was like, get up, and he was like no.
Speaker 3I bowed down.
Speaker 4He was like, seriously, you're in a ten thousand old suit get up and it's just become a very lovely Oh it was, Oh it was Apart from me, it's too much.
It's just the greatest creative experience of my money.
Speaker 1You walked Fashion Week twenty.
Speaker 4Well twenty nineteen.
Then he flew me out and we collaborated.
We did some insta together, some parodies.
He had a whole little studio set up out the back where he was doing Fashion Week.
Speaker 3And then I walked.
Speaker 1I didn't walk in the show.
Speaker 4I did the rehearsal at the beginning, and then I sat front row next to Russell Westbrook and Cardi B and Tom Hanks and oh my God and Anna Winter like stop it was too much.
Watch the show by the world, Tom Hanks, Hang, it gets better.
Can I tell you another story.
Speaker 1About this please?
Speaker 3And then at the end of the show, the end of.
Speaker 4The catwalk, the doors opened up and the after party was out the back.
And as the doors opened up, the video that we had just shot was on a massive screen that dropped down and everyone I'd see it so before that.
I'm sitting there and I think people Cardi B particular, like, who's this bitch?
People are getting shuffled down for me to sit in, and I was the one that ran in lake because I was filming with Tom Ford and I have a chance to get here in time.
So I run in and sit down and they're like, who's this chick?
And then that screen came up and I was like, I screamed.
Speaker 1I was like like.
Speaker 4Just no chill at all, like stood.
I remember Elizabeth DEBICKI came up to me and she was like Elizabeth, Oh my god, like it was so nice.
And then we went to that party and then there was like a little secret room where only fancy fancies it's like half the size of this studio went into and it was Tom Hanks and Tom Ford and Anna Wintour and I got brought in and tom Ford didn't know I was there, and how he was talking about me to Tom Hanks.
Speaker 1Now I'm gonna cry.
Speaker 4It's like she's an absolute genius, Like she has a comedy brain like I haven't seen, Like she's so hilarious.
And I was like, hello, why did you interrupt that conversation?
Speaker 3I know, well I tried it because a small room and I think I was.
Speaker 4Like around the back, like how was how was Anna wind I didn't really talk to her.
Speaker 1She kind of scary.
Speaker 3No, I love Anna Win.
Speaker 4She looks busy, she kind of and she I think she gave me a smile.
Maybe she didn't, but let's pretend she did.
But no, we didn't have any interaction.
I don't think she hangs around.
What she didn't hang around for that?
Speaker 1She left.
Speaker 4But then I was talking with Tom Hanks after and we were talking about having what the best way to have a cup of tea.
Speaker 1That's what we're about.
Speaker 3Yeah, it was lovely.
He was going home to have a martini.
I said, I'm going to go home.
Speaker 4I was going home to have a martini at home.
Speaker 1Yeah, back time.
Speaker 4And I said, I'm going to go have a cup of teen.
He went, oh, a cup of tea and I said, yeah.
We talked about the best way to have a cup of tea.
Milk for honey, Milk and honey.
Speaker 1Yeah, milk and honey.
Yeah.
Speaker 2After this short breather, we talk about how Celeste and hot husband Aarpi have made their marriage work through the highs and the lows don't go anywhere.
Speaker 1So you have now navigated I think, just such a change in terrain in your life.
But many times.
Speaker 3Yeah, yeah, that's the way of looking at it.
Speaker 4Arpie is always your surpa.
Yeah, he's my king.
Yeah, yeah, he's my guy.
Speaker 1And so how what's changed in that?
Speaker 2Like, so you've gone from rags to riches and from you know, the isolation to the whole world.
Like, what's changed or what's been the constant with you guys?
Speaker 4The constant for us, and I know this sounds cliche or annoying, is love.
We have such a desperate love for each other.
Arpi and I, even when we tried to break up the elevety billion times that you try to break up over a time, twenty two year relationship, we just we cannot Like he I love him on a cellular level and I've never known anything like that, and it terrifies me and it infuriates me.
Speaker 3Sometimes I'm like, let me be fright.
You know, I'm a runner, you.
Speaker 4Know, the fight or flight, I'm out And if something gets tricky, especially not coming into.
Speaker 3Perimenopause, that's fine.
Speaker 1And he is just.
Speaker 3Isn't it though?
Speaker 4But I seen out warning shots as well, like just see you know the JITs And he's like, oh great, But I think as well, we are growing together like that is something that I've noticed that we can't it can't just lock it off.
And I think, you know, he's fifty two.
I think he may have thought that you can.
Speaker 3Just lock it off.
I think a lot of men do that.
Speaker 4They're like, great, well we've done this, We've got this marriage, and we've got the thing, and she's doing the stuff that she wants to do, and I'm pretty happy.
Speaker 1We're redne it good?
How good is that?
Speaker 3And I'm like, I need a little bit more so learning that.
Speaker 1About how do each other?
Speaker 2How do you I'm asking this from self interest, by the way, how do you get a partner who's got that that those beautiful like his strength is also his weakness sometimes like even absolutely that stability, that groundedness, that whatever.
Speaker 4But there's also a rock don't move I have for well, this is obviously just for Arpi and I.
But one thing that I'm really trying to do with him more and more is empower him more.
I want him to know that no, and he does know that, but I work on that.
That's something you know, I'm in therapy, were in couples therapy that I want it.
I want him to know how valued he is that I could do this on my own.
Speaker 1I have no interest in doing it on my own.
Speaker 4I don't want to have the biggest house on the tallest hill and live on it alone.
I want it to be with him.
And how important it is is that he feels valued and nourished and loved and.
Speaker 1The king that he is.
Speaker 3I'm a lot to be with me is a lot.
Speaker 4This is fun.
You know I'll leave soon and you're like, oh, that was fun.
Speaker 1Day in day out.
Speaker 4I get darkness, I go high, I go low, have all the things.
Speaker 1And why does he love you?
Speaker 4Oh?
Speaker 1I don't know.
Speaker 3You'd have to ask him.
Speaker 1No, you must know.
Speaker 3I think he really sees me.
I do think he.
Speaker 4Sees, you know, this little girl who's going to have a little cry now, or this little I think he loves my vulnerabilities.
It's all of that quiet stuff about me that only he kind of gets, and a handful of obviously, you know my friends and my gaze they get that.
But he's the one that just gets me.
And I think that's what he loves about me.
He also I think loves that I go, come on, we've got a big life.
Let's lean in, ure saying before about celebrating the joy and leaning into the winds.
Speaker 1Yeah, like we don't have to do any of this.
Speaker 4We don't have to go to Europe for six weeks while I tour and we take our children.
Speaker 1What a fucking life.
Speaker 4But also are we going to be doing I could be the regional manager for Witchy at Pacific Fair.
Speaker 3I'd love it.
I love that job.
Speaker 1But he don't love it too.
Speaker 4Actually he would love it, but that's not who I am.
But I really lean into what he wants to do as well, and that can be tricky with men.
I find that it's like, well, what do you want to do?
And he's like, okay, yeah, we need to figure that out.
Honey, sitting on the couch all day, not that he sits on the couch every day, but just locking it off that is not That is not joyful for me, and it's not joyful for you.
Speaker 1I know that.
Speaker 4So yeah, I try and champion him as much as I can.
Speaker 2When you who started therapy first, you started me first?
Speaker 1How long ago did you start?
Speaker 4On?
Speaker 1And off?
For years?
Speaker 4I came off Ritland for a while after Mark died and went on andy depressants, and I mean I overlapped those and that was bad.
So I went off written because also I was told when I was diagnosed with ADHD, you grow out of it, you don't have it.
Speaker 1As an adult.
Speaker 3Yeah, adult ADHD is different.
Speaker 1Yeah, isn't that the doctor not that good?
Speaker 4No?
Speaker 1Actually he was fine, he was lovely.
Speaker 4It was later on that I think when I saw a psychologist later that were like, well, you probably come off Ritlan because it's not really a thing in adults.
Speaker 1I was like, of it like the genes and how lovely and not the case.
Speaker 4So I went on andy depressants for a bit and started seeing a psychologist and then I was on antidepressants for a really long time and I kind of had forgotten why, I mean Mark, and then I had other friends who died, which is very annoying.
So I came off those and went back on to Ritland.
And so I've been doing therapy on and but like anything with my brain will, I'll do therapy every week six weeks and I and it'll be great, and then I'm like, I don't want to talk anymore.
Speaker 1What I do on a Tuesday?
Yeah exactly.
Speaker 2And then when you said to RP, let's go together, let's do this together.
Speaker 3He jumped it.
Speaker 4He's fantastic, and he goes to therapy on his own all the time.
Speaker 1More than imagine those sessions.
Speaker 4Well, the amount of times, the amount of times I've gone in.
Speaker 3I wanted to talk to his therapy and do you talk about me?
Speaker 4Because I don't know what the etiquette is because I have a list of ship that I want him to talk about in therapy, but I'm not allowed to.
Speaker 1He doesn't take your list.
Speaker 3No, it doesn't take my list.
Speaker 2It's interesting though, I think in many ways they're more forgiving than we are.
I think more forgiving of you know, the imperfections that so consume us.
Yeah, sometimes they don't even see them.
Speaker 3No, because sometimes are not as smart as us either.
Speaker 1I don't think.
Speaker 4Yeah, I think that, you know.
I mean I've spoken with that many women.
They're like, he doesn't do this.
Speaker 1I'm so annoyed.
Speaker 4Our relationships bad.
We haven't spoken for we haven't had sex in months.
Speaker 3It's terrible.
Then I speak to the husband.
He's like, we're tracking really well, it's great.
Speaker 1She doesn't annoy me.
Speaker 4I don't need to going really well, Yeah, I know so.
Speaker 3Many women who have left men and the men are Yeah.
Speaker 4I had an idea, and everyone's like, oh, we saw that coming miles away.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Yeah.
Speaker 2You have had every experience that I think it's possible to have in the in the public eye, other than attending your own funeral.
But you've been you've been praised, celebrated, criticized, you've been too big, you're too hot to be comedic anymore.
You're like everything, and sometimes it's all in the same week.
Speaker 1Yeah, So how do you manage that roller coaster?
Speaker 4I think I probably just write it.
I think I just go through it.
I take it for what it is and move on.
I've learnt that you can't please everyone, so I ignore a lot of it.
When it comes to how I look.
I understand why people would say something because of the nature of what I do.
Sure, so I'm you know, I'm not an idiot in that sense, But at the same time, I don't.
It's not all I do.
It's like putting my body out there is not all I do.
Sure, maybe that's how people knew me early on, But since then, I've really earned my keys.
Speaker 1I really have.
Speaker 4Like the second I got success through Instagram, I booked a show to get on stage.
I've always wanted to get offline always and earn my keep.
I think being in this industry talking before about acting, everyone is an entertainer now, and I don't subscribe to that.
I want to earn my keep.
I want to earn people's time.
I want to earn people's money.
I want to not just be like, Ah, I'm that girl that you follow and I can do whatever I want and you'll love it.
I want to earn what I do.
So I think i've kind of I'd like to think I've proved myself in that sense, but when it comes to how I look, people always want to talk to me about it.
And I always think you're not talking to Gghidid about how she looks, or Belahadid or Kendle Jenna or name all the model right, yeah, because that's just what's expected.
That's expected how women look.
That's a normal way for women to look.
That's what we are taught.
That's part of what I do to cut through people.
Speaker 1When you say people want to talk to you about how you look, well, that is how brave I am.
Speaker 4That's brave, how you get your body out there, how brave and look.
Sometimes I will do a post and look at it and be like, you got to buy what you're selling here, mate, body positivity.
Speaker 3Just put it out and just gonna make people for good.
Do it you know, can be a bit of a tough pill to swallow.
Speaker 4But I you always hear about Lizzo.
People talk to Lizo about her body, or you talk to Ashley Graham about her body.
To me about our body.
Speaker 3We don't talk to.
Speaker 4Models or people who look the way that women are supposed to look about their bodies.
Speaker 3So I always have a little bit of a thing about it going on.
It's not as though.
Speaker 4That's all I do.
I do a plethora of other things.
Speaker 2And the body positivity thing is so interesting anyway, because Lizo, for example, who was just so refreshing, so great.
I'm so refreshing, and I remember, you know, going to see a show in Melbourne just before lockdown and it was just the most joyous thing.
And in fact, she inspired me to turn up at my one of my children's birthday party in a green bikini.
Speaker 1Great birthday party.
Speaker 2Yeah, I know, No, until I saw the fighter, I don't look at the just it wasn't but whatever.
Speaker 1I just loved her.
Speaker 2But then now that o zimpics come along, what's happened to body positivity?
Speaker 3Well, body negativity?
Speaker 2Yeah, and it's kind of like I I feel like, and this is just a superficial reading of it, that we were all like, body positivity and however we're packaged is beautiful and you know, this is us.
And then as soon as those people who kind of were like our leaders into that uncharted territory, as soon as o Zempic came along, they were like, but great, So yeah, I.
Speaker 4Think it happened before Ozempic came along.
I think the body positivity movement was like pushing shit up a hill with a sharp stick.
Speaker 3Sure we can.
Speaker 4Let's say there's ten thousand women in the entertainment industry, sixteen of us were celebrated for body positivity.
It was a hard thing to push.
It was seen as a fad.
It was a hashtag like me too.
They're like, great, now Hardy Weinstein's gone, please.
Speaker 3Be client women it's annoying.
Speaker 4Or yeah, great, we've got Lizzo, We've got actually Gray and that Celeste lady.
She's also and now we've got Melissa McCarthy, she's leads of films.
Speaker 1That's enough.
Speaker 4Girl, Stop go Away.
It really feels like a fad.
And then no zemp it came along, and I think everyone was like, oh, okay, cool, Well, I don't want to be one of those people that have to be loud about being pushing my body out there.
Speaker 3It's just easier.
Speaker 4If you fought, you will work more.
If you are thinner, you will work more in the industry.
If you are thinner, you just fucking will, even if you're funny devastating.
Speaker 1Yeah, well see that's a tricky one.
Yeah.
Speaker 4Rolls aren't really written unless they're writing them, unless we're riding the mouthsetell.
Speaker 1Yes, yeah, yeah, but there's.
Speaker 4Still a quota for that.
There's a quota for we've got enough funny ladies.
We've done We've done that quote and now let's get back into the rom coms and the Sydney Sweeneys and the Kristen Bells and the gorgeous, young, thin, gorgeous girls.
So I just think it was a fad.
And now ozen Pic has come along, which I think is great for some people zempic, but I think it's we're back to the heroine chic idea.
Yeah, people who are already size for now a size zero.
Speaker 1What the fuck?
Speaker 3It's so dangerous.
Speaker 1It's so dangerous.
Speaker 2But not only that, it's kind of a it's like what fashion does, do you know what I mean?
They're always shifting the parameters, so nothing that you do will ever be good enough.
Speaker 1No.
Speaker 2So it's like you've got I've got thick eyebrows.
I've always had thick eyebrows, thin eyebrows.
Absolutely, you've got no ass.
Guess what big ass is?
Speaker 1It?
Going to be?
Speaker 2Absolutely actual body types and apes in and out of fashion trends.
Speaker 4They're absolute trends, but just that idea of small little women because they've got to be up against the Hollywood men who are Tom Cruise and the little guys.
Speaker 1Little guy.
Speaker 4Yeah, it really is seen as a fad, which is really upsetting because people get sick of it.
Speaker 1Yeah, a fashion banging on about.
Speaker 2It, any fashion people want to move on from.
Yeah, Celeste Barber, you're just adorable of you, Kate, It's adorable.
Thanks selling I see you.
Speaker 1She took us for your tour.
Wow.
Speaker 2Celeste has become many things to a lot of us.
She's kind of a mirror, she's kind of a truth mirror, and she's also a guiding light in terms of finding your own pathway and emerging from sometimes what feels like the rubble of your own life, so that you can plant a flag and claim your life for what you want it to be.
She shows us the absurdity, the beauty, the mess of what it means to live in a body, in a family, and she does all of that in the public eye.
Through all of it, she's the first to admit that she's still finding her way, one little win at a time.
Speaker 1Just like the rest of us.
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The executive producer of No Filter is Naima Brown and the senior producer is Breplayer.
Audio production is by Jacob Brown and I am your host, Kate lane Brook.
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