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Do today's message.

Hi, I love y'all.

It's good to see you.

So excited that I get the opportunity to be a part of this series.

And to further the.

Dialogue around getting to the epicenter of our crash outs.

This Triggered series has hopefully brought.

Some things to the surface for you.

What you have to understand is that whatever doesn't come up and out of your body through words will come up and out of your body through actions.

And so we're trying to give language to the things that trigger us because because without language, your body and your brain cannot heal.

So my assignment today is very surgical.

You probably won't find many opportunities to shout.

Through this message.

You will find many opportunities to ouch through this message.

But I think it's imperative that we deal with one of the main triggers specifically, and it's anger.

We have to deal with our anger.

And I'm in my Miusman Rod bag today.

I'm in my doctor Mousman Rowbag.

I got slides for days.

I think this message should be over around three pm.

I got power points and slides and bullets, and we have QR code all the notes, so all the notes.

Just put your pen and your paper away and just click and just take pictures of everything we got on the screen.

Because there's too many notes for y'all.

Okay, I see you with your highlighter, sir, and your pen.

Put it back because it's too much.

Huh.

You'll never pick your head up again.

If you go down, it will never come back up.

It's too many bullets and it's too many notes.

I you got a whole laptop out, sir, So go ahead.

You are a court stenographer.

Clickity clackett.

I'm fine with it.

So are you all ready?

Okay?

I want to do some declarations today.

I like to when we have something this labor intensive, I like to open up a declaration.

So if you have your Bible, put it in the air.

If you got your phone, put it in the air.

If you don't have either one of those, just put your hand in the air and repeat after me.

All right, today, now louder.

Today, the Holy Spirit is about to speak to me about my anger.

After today, I.

Will know.

And fully understand that my anger is God given.

It is not something that is bad.

It's actually good.

But it can become bad if I don't know what to do with it.

But after today, though, like for real, after today, I'm gonna be good in my anger.

Let's go, Let's go, let's go.

See.

That's how you open up.

That's how you build an expectation for what God's about to do.

If you're taking notes on this message, please write this down.

The title of this message is anger danger.

If you're taking notes, the title of the message is anger danger.

What you don't know is hurting you, anger danger.

What you don't know about your anger is hurting you by your head.

Let's pray over the word show we Holy Spirit help us.

With our anger.

Amen, y'all know, I'll pray quick.

I'm the one you won over for Thanksgiving dinner.

We'll eat all the food while it's hot.

We'll pray for the nations.

After that really got you over there, didn't it.

I'm doing I'm doing this message in six movements.

Everybody say movements.

I'm doing this message in six movements, and I've purposely used the word movements because our anger actually needs to move.

When anger doesn't move, that's when it starts to erode, hurt us, kill us on the inside.

So this is six movements.

Movement one.

What I want to talk to you about is our Ancher scripture, the Biblical permission and boundary of anger.

I want to talk to you about the Biblical permission and boundary of anger.

First, let me say that God created us in his image.

So all of the emotions that we have God has.

We do not possess an emotion that God doesn't already have.

He gave us the emotions we have because He created us in his image.

Here is the scripture.

I can take you to several but I want to use this one as our case study.

Ephesius, chapter number four, verses twenty six and twenty seven says this be angry.

It says be angry, and then there's a comma commas mean you pause.

So those two words be angry is not a suggestion.

It's a command.

Be angry because there are gonna be some things in your life to be angry about, and when those things.

Come, be angry.

Do not sin.

You can be angry, yet do not sin.

Do not let the sun go down on your anger.

So not only is it saying yes you can be angry, but no, you cannot sin.

Don't hold it too long, don't.

Wake up like this, Go to sleep like this, then wake back up like this.

Whatever anger you find in your body, we're gonna have to quickly put some words to it because we don't want to get through the entire day into the night.

Go to sleep and wake back up with it.

Because anger that starts to brood and fester overnight and over days take roots, and those roots are gonna produce fruit that we don't want in our lives.

Verse twenty seven says, and do not give the devil a foothold.

Somebody ever tried to close your door in your face, and you'll be like, don't give him that, because if he gets that, he gets in.

Chop that foot off, write all of this down.

To take pictures of it.

Anger is not a sin.

There's so many people, especially in the Body of Christ, that think the emotion of anger.

If I even feel anger, then.

I must be unchrist like, I must be ungodly, I must need to kill more of my flesh.

No, anger is an emotion.

It gives us information about things that have gone wrong.

Anger is a God designed emotion.

Anger becomes sin when it becomes expressed destructively, dishonestly, or repressively.

So my anger is not bad.

It only becomes bad when I'm not honest about it.

It only becomes bad when I act on it out of context.

God commands you to feel the emotion, but stewart the response.

I can feel all the anger, but I have to stewart the response.

Yes, you made me mad, but I didn't have to cuss you out.

The anger I feel about what you did.

Is valid, but I didn't have to punch you in the throat though.

I mean, no, what you did really did offend me, but I didn't have to slash your tires.

I was angry with your content online, but I didn't have to make that nasty video about you.

I was just angry.

The problem isn't anger, it's unprocessed anger.

It's the anger that you never take time, thank you, Holy Spirit, to bring before God, let alone anybody else.

We won't even be honest with God about our anger, which.

Brings us to movement to say movement to trauma.

Inform framework what anger actually is let's talk about what anger actually is.

Anger is information.

Before I go any further, give this tech team a hand, because they when I tell you, these are the best notes I ever seen on the LED screen of my entire life.

I'm trying to focus this way, but it's too cute over here.

I like what they've done.

Anger is information.

It signals that something feels wrong.

All of our emotions are information.

I'm happy?

Why am I happy because I got a raise?

I'm sad?

Why am I sad because I got demoted?

But when it comes to anger, A lot of times we don't have words for it.

I'm angry?

Why?

Oh no, it's seems that something is wrong.

It can be information that a boundary was violated, a need was ignored and injustice was perceived, a wound was touched, or an old memory got activated.

Ooh that hit.

Y'all got some old memories that get activated?

You forgot about it until they reminded you of it, and then you like, why am I so mad today?

What did they say?

What did they do?

Anger lives in the body first.

You know you're angry based on what shows up in your body.

It don't hit your head first.

It hits your body first.

Anybody's ears get hot when they get angry.

Bros clapping, He is like, my ears are hot right now.

Feel you tight?

Chest, jaw clinched, that temple, pulsating sheet rising, shallow breathing, racing throats, tunnel vision.

Anybody shake when they're angry.

Anybody ever made you so mad?

You like, you know what everything you've done to me?

The annoycing is all over her.

No it's not.

That's not the anointing.

That's a different shaky hand.

Right there.

You got one more time.

Anger isn't the problem.

Suppression is unprocessed.

Anger becomes unspoken, Anger becomes distance stored, Anger becomes depression ignored, Anger becomes overreaction.

Anybody ever or.

Reacted to a situation because you was angry, but you never actually articulated it.

And then it just all spilled out, and everybody in the room was like, I don't think.

I just asked you what flavor of ice cream?

You wont it?

I did not know that the ice cream was gone.

But you're still mad about something seven years ago you never addressed.

And so now you have a tallly of offenses in your ledger that you never brought up, and then one day you don't bring that up, you bring get all up.

Anger becomes dangerous when it becomes your interpreter.

Ooh, help me with this, Holy Ghost.

When anger becomes the filter by which you read your relationships, anger begins to rewrite motives because you're looking through the lens of your anger.

Now you're rewriting everyone's motives according to the anger that you have unresolved on the inside of your body.

Anger begins rewriting, meaning.

Now this is when people start getting cynical.

Somebody blesses you, you were like, for what.

Do you know?

We live in such a cynical, bitter, angry society that if you bless somebody, they're like, what's the catch, and you like, it's a Starbucks coffee sir, Stop, there's no catch.

It's just a latte.

Receive it, Hey, pay for the pay for the car behind me.

The car pulls up.

Hey, that person in front of you paid for your food for what?

It's just waffle fries, sir.

Just.

Anger begins to rewrite memory.

When anger is unresolved, it is unresolved.

All your memories.

Get revised.

Thank you, Holy Ghost.

Oh, I'm gonna say that again.

When anger is unresolved, all your memories get revised.

So the whole marriage has been bad.

Yeah, yeah, it ain't ever been good.

But you looked very happy at Disney World.

I wasn't even happy then.

He was a fake smile.

But you reduced your vows and your ten year anniversary and you were weeping.

I was mad, but you told them you loved them.

I didn't mad it.

I've gone through.

This has all been in my therapy sessions, my counseling sessions.

I've heard it all.

Anger begins rewriting identity.

Not only do you not see others the same, you can't see yourself the same.

Because let's not get it twisted.

Not everybody in here is mad at somebody out there.

Some of us are mad at who we are in here, which brings us to Movement three.

Everybody say Movement three triggers and dysregulation.

We have to find crime in the crash out, and since most of our triggers center around anger, we have to figure this part out.

First thing I want you to know about this is that a trigger is not a sin.

It's a signal.

Anytime we're triggered, it's not sinful to be triggered.

This entire series is not to get you never to be triggered again.

You gonna be triggered.

But when you're triggered, what do you do with the trigger?

So it's not a trick, it's not a sin to be triggered.

That is a signal, okay, something's gone wrong.

A trigger is the moment your body remembers what your mind forgot.

The body is what keeps the score.

Mentally, you can forget a lot of stuff, your body will not forget a thing.

There's a story told of a little baby whose parents ran the water that they were gonna bathe their baby in a little too hot, and so when they got ready to sit the baby down it it scaled them and they immediately picked up their legs and started crying.

Now, this baby I'm talking is months old when it was getting this bath.

The next time that the water was drawn and they got ready to lower that baby in, that baby put them legs all the way up.

To its ears.

It did yoga mid descent because the body kept the score.

We are in the same environment where there is water running, and I remember.

The last time I got burned.

I don't even have language or words to articulate the pain that I felt the.

Last time you tried to submerge me in this water.

But my body knows that if I'm in this situation again, legs up, You're not about to get get me again.

Put your hand on your chest.

Repeat after me.

I will be kinder to my body's reminders.

Say it again.

I will be kinder to my body's reminders.

Your body is not betraying you, it's informing you.

We've been through this before.

I'm not really trying to spaz out, but this seems familiar.

It's so much Okay, okay, disregulation equals my body feels unsafe.

Get this even if I am safe.

I gotta say that again.

Body dysregulation is my body feels unsafe even if I am safe.

Anybody beside me have environment to a trauma.

Environmental trauma means that you grew up in a home or a neighborhood, or in conditions that were very dangerous or they were very unsafe.

I grew up in the hood.

I grew up where gunshots just.

Those weren't fireworks.

They was shooting.

Okay, helicopters call them the ghetto birds.

Everybody from La understands them ghetto birds flying and flashing lights in the backyard.

To this day, if I go to a restaurant because of my environmental trauma, I will never sit with my back to a door.

If I get to a restaurant late and somebody's already in the chair, I need to be and.

I'm like, hey, man, you good.

And they're like yeah, I'm good.

I'm like, hey, are you against me having that seat?

And they're like, uh, I mean why.

I'm like, do you have a gun?

And they're like no, I'm like I do, Get up.

I need to sit there.

You gonna want me in this seat.

If somebody in the one in three hundred thousand chance wants to come in this cheesecake factory and set it off, you're gonna want me to get off too quick.

You want me here, sir.

You don't want to be there if I because then I gotta.

Turn around and then the alignment.

Okay, let me.

Tim who's coming after you a cheesecake factory.

Nobody but my body says, don't have your back.

To the door.

So even when I'm safe, that this regulation is, I feel unsafe.

Even if I am safe.

When triggered, the nerve system shifts into fights, flight, freeze, or fond Where my fighters at?

When somebody audibly whooo when you're giving a police signal, you're telling us you have priors, your testimony service is valid, ma'am?

Where are my fighters?

Whoopoo?

Are those are my Those are my fighters?

Where are my people that take flight?

You run?

You're like, bye, right, You're like danger dysregulation, baye, hang up the phone, leave the presence, leave the house.

I'm out right, I don't I don't have time for it.

I'm leaving.

Okay, good?

Where are the people that freeze?

You?

Just like.

Your body gets disregulated and you're like you just turn into a possum.

You're like, maybe if I stand real still, they'll.

Won't see me anymore.

How many of us fawn?

Fawn is when you're just like you just try to make the situation better.

You're you're just like, oh.

No, you know, I love you.

No, don't be mad.

I made your sandwich, your sandwiches.

Do you want cereal?

I'll give you cereal?

Will you can?

You not?

I'm just this real stuff.

And I appreciate a church that's honest enough.

And I hope all of us that are watching live and tconation be honest enough to identify where you are, Identify who you are, Identify how your body shows up in these instances.

This is where anger often shows up.

You don't have to calm down to find Christ.

Christ meets you in the moment that you crash out.

He's not He's not like so when you're finished crashing out, come find me.

Said another way, I hope we get to the point where that we can.

Go straight to God in.

The crash out, like we've identified it in our body and we're like God, right now, I am so angry.

I'm ready to spend the block.

Eleven people know, please don't spend the block.

Crisis present in the spike, not after it.

He's present in the shutdown.

He is present in the overwhelmed Thank you Holy Spirit.

The disciples crashed out on the boat when Christ was sleep.

He didn't come out and.

Go calm down to understand what all the shocking awe is about.

It's just win rain.

Me because he couldn't say God, me, oh I am.

He's present in the eruption.

He's present in the eternal collapse, the internal collapse, He's right there.

He wants to be right there, and we have to stop running from him, Thank you, Holy Spirit.

We have to stop being believers that try to go into his presence like we got it all together, when he knows your ways and your thoughts way before, he already knows how you feel, and we'll still come to him and not even be truthful.

Your anger is revealing where your healing is calling.

Your anger is revealing where your healing is calling.

Fine, if you can point to your anger, I can point to where you need to heal.

If you can point to where it hurts, I can give you what you need to heal, which sprains me to movement forward, say movement for art.

There are two types of anger.

There's only two types, exploders and imploders.

There are people that are explosive in their anger, and you have people that are implosive.

In their anger.

There is an anger that acts outwardly and there's an anger that acts.

Inwardly.

I want to give you my two biblical case studies for explosive anger and implosive anger.

The explosive anger, I want to use Moses as the example.

We know that Moses has explosive anger because his narrative after this miraculous saving of his life with his mother putting him into a basket and floating him down on the now river and he is drawn out of the water by Pharaoh's daughter, he is raised in Pharaoh's house.

There is an internal fight that he has had for years and years and years, understanding that his identity is Hebrew, but that his upbringing has been Egyptian, and holding the tension of those two finally overflows to him seeing an Egyptian harming and hurting one of his Hebrew brothers by descent, and he rises up and kills the Egyptian like on site, like no, like hey man, what are you doing over there?

The explosive anger just comes out and he kills bro.

So here is.

What years and years of unaddressed anger does to Moses.

Adam and I spoke to Moses, saying, take the staff and gather the assembly.

You and your brother Aaron speak to the rock before their eyes, and it will give out its water.

Let me stop there.

They had already had in a previous situation, a moment where they were at this same rock.

And they needed water.

To come out of the rock, and the instruction given to Moses was to take his staff and hit the rock.

When he hit the rock, water gushed out enough for everyone in the nation of Israel's thirst to be quenched.

They now come back to this same rock, and God tells Moses this time, do not hit that rock.

You don't need to just speak to it.

Okay, now this is okay.

I'm gonna take my time.

You will bring out water from the rock and give the community something to drink.

So Moses took the staff from adamize what what?

He took the staff from adaized presence as he had commanded him.

Moses and Aaron gathered the assembly in front of the rock.

He said to them, listen, now, you rebels, shall we bring you water from this rock?

Okay?

Can we just stop real quick?

All right?

He's in the presence of the Lord Ada, and I what would you like me to do?

I want you to take this staff, gather the assembly, you and your brother Aaron speak to the rock before their eyes, and it will give out its water.

You will bring out water from the rock and give to the community something to drink.

He's like, Hallelujah, thank you Jesus.

Or not Jesus, but thank you Adae Amen, And in between God's presence and the people's presence, bro crashed out that quick, can we just be honest about our humanity?

You can be in your prayer room for three hours and come out of that.

Holy moment where the glory of God saturated the atmosphere you listen to.

You sustained four times in a row and come out in two minutes, and your kids made you forget all that glory came out of the presence of God.

You sustain, You sustain.

What in the.

What are y'all doing?

Did not die?

Got?

Got?

Why is there water on this car?

But why this?

Why is there chose?

And the table?

I do you get?

Chose?

And the songs still playing in the background.

You sustain.

You used to.

Stay listen, Now you reb house.

Sell every about his anger not only erupted towards the people, it made him forget his identity.

What's you're talking about?

Shall we bring you water on this rock?

Moses?

You ain't bring nobody no water?

Why did you think it.

Was y'all all of a sudden?

This is God?

Then Moses lifted up his hand and struck the rock twice.

With his staff.

Let me tell you how gracious God is.

He did not penalize the people for Moses's anger.

Water came out in abundance because the man of guy's anger does not mean that the people need to be penalized.

And the community in their lives got drink.

But Adam and I said to Moses and Aaron, because you did not trust me, you will not bring this assembly into the promised Land.

Please write this down.

I know, I said, you can't write down everything, but you better write this down.

Anger will disqualify you from the Promised lander.

Will show enough disqualify you from the Promised Land.

God watched what Moses did, and Moses literally, by definition, use God's name in vain because it has more to do with what you than what you say.

It has more to do with what you do when you use God's name in vain.

It has nothing to do with what you say.

Most times it's what you do.

And what he did was misrepresent God to the people, and in that one move, he lost the Promised land.

God said, you can't even no now from God's presence to the people's presence.

This wasn't one moment of anger.

This was forty years of unprocessed anger.

Moses didn't just get bad.

He had been mad and to come out and be like, you want water?

Since I want so much water, Tiger?

Can you imagine the people Moses is angry?

Moses wasn't triggered by that moment.

He was triggered by years of moments.

His explosion at the rock was the overflow of decades of unspoken frustration.

Explode or to store anger as pressure.

I can't even go past that point yet.

Exploders store anger as pressure.

You never know when the volcano is gonna erupt.

People around you stop trusting you because they don't know which you they gonna get.

We don't know if you're going to be Bruce Banner or the Hulk, because we don't know when that pressure valve is gonna break.

You just pop off, and we don't We don't know when it's gonna happen.

We don't know if it's gonna be good morning, hey, good morning, or good morning good morning.

If you that mad at eight am, the sun went down on your anger, and that's how you rose up with it because you went to sleep on it.

It ain't going away because you slept it off, it's gonna actually gain more pressure when it burst.

The reaction is disproportionate to the event.

I talked about this earlier.

When you see people that have explosive anger when they do pop off, it don't even match what we're doing right now.

It's like, hey, man, are we gonna go play golf or we're not gonna I mean.

If y'all gonna play golf.

To say it, I'm tired of all this back and forth.

And it's like, you know what this.

I don't even think you're mad at me.

I don't know.

I think you're mad your dad left and this pressure that you've never processed.

So now we're talking about golf, and golf is your dad that never played with you.

Moses obeyed God with his feet, but disobeyed God with his heart.

I can't tell you how many angry preachers there are.

I had this visual earlier when I was just in the back and just praying about this because I see everything in pictures I saw.

I just had a picture of the preachers that be slamming on the Bible as they're preaching, and the Holy Spirit just said, that's what it's like to strike the rock in twenty twenty five.

Water is ready to come out.

But they're so mad about whoever they mad at.

They had a counseling session Wednesday, and they got a preacher sermon Sunday, But thirty minutes of the forty five minute message is actually about the person they counseled wednesday.

Pressure.

So now give you how many exploders do we have in the room?

Thank you?

Be honest, you explode?

Thank you.

I just the honesty is so refreshing.

Good.

Okay, because again, if you don't know who you are, you're gonna continue to repeat the same behavior until you can at least admit this is who I am.

So let me give you the implosive anger.

The how many imploters do we have in the room?

I'm an imploder?

Okay?

My dad, my older brother, and my younger brother who's in heaven now, and my daddy's in heaven now too.

Wow.

So they were exploders.

I grew up in a family with explosive men, and the Ross temper was a disease within the family that we kind of carried with some pride.

Oh he got that ross temper.

I didn't want the Ross temper, and so I wound up the imploder.

I wasn't explosive with my anger.

I was the imploter.

I kept it in my anger went in.

So let me tell you who else was an imploder in scripture, the older brother of the father that had the two sons, so Luke Chapter number fifteen, twenty five through thirty.

Here's what it says.

Now.

The older son was in the field.

As he came near the house, he heard music and dancing.

He called one of the servants and asked what was going on.

The servant told him, your brother has come.

This was the prodigal son that went out and spent all his money, took his daddy's inherited, tricked it off, did all kind of foolishness with it, and then came back home broke, busted, disgusted, but still a son.

Amen.

So the older son never left.

He asked what was going on vers.

Number twenty seven.

The servant told him, your brother has come, and your father has killed the fatic calf because.

He got him back safe and sound.

But the older brother, the older son, became angry and was unwilling.

To go in.

Because implosive anger does not act out, it turns inward.

We withdraw, we get petty, right, We never gonna pop off at you, and and and and get loud with you.

But we we will.

We will punish you with our silence.

We we will turn our silence into violence because we we can't confront you, we can't articulate our anger like we want to, so so we just we just I ain't going in there.

Oh they over here.

I'm not going in there.

Oh they gonna be.

At the family reunion.

You know what, I have something to do that day.

Who's preaching today?

I don't like him because the last arm men wasn't that good.

So but the older son became angry and was unwilling to go in so as father came outside and pleaded with him.

But he answered his father.

And this is what happens with implosive anger.

When you push it in the corner, it comes out like this.

Look any imploders in the room can relate.

They pushed you, push you, push you, and you fight it like Louck.

Let me tell you, Santing turned into a Dominican.

Let me tell you, Santing, what you're not gonna do.

What you're not gonna do?

This a Dominican Italian Tim calm down.

I didn't get either one of them right.

That just mashed them together.

Look, so many years I've slaved for you, and you never neglected a command of yours.

And I never neglected a command of yours.

Yet you never gave me a young goat.

Revisionist history.

He was waiting for a goat.

He already got.

This boy could have had goat anytime he wanted.

He never left the house.

And also he's the oldest son.

Everything that was that was in his father's house was gonna go directly to him.

It wasn't gonna go to his brother.

But anger will give you revisionist history about the way you see yourself in the family unit.

You never gave me a young coat.

So I can celebrate with my friends.

But when this son of yours, anger will make you distant, It will make you reframe the relationship.

That ain't my mama, that's your mama.

Your child is tripping huh.

But when this son of yours came, the one who squandered your property would prostitute.

See how petty that is you bringing up the past.

This man has been restored, he's been fulfilled.

You oh, oh, you abought to the one that been with all them holes.

You got him over.

Oh you killed a goat for him, the hormonger.

Oh you let the alcoholic come over.

Oh you had a party for the alcoholic.

Oh you got the crackhead here.

They get to come to the thanksgiving.

Oh so the crackhead gets to shit that.

Okay, they get to have ham to petty much the one who's scuding out your property with prostitutes.

Then you killed that fatted calf for helm excamation money.

Hem.

The older brother held anger quietly for years.

He never exploded.

He simmered.

Imploder's store anger as resentment.

They don't burst outward, They collapse inward.

Silent anger eventually becomes relational sabotage.

He followed all.

The rules, but none of the rules healed his heart.

Imploders think, if I do the right thing, then I'll get the right stuff.

But if your heart's not right, you can do all the right things and still not have Okay, thank you, Okay, you'll do all the right things, but you can't enjoy none of the stuff.

This boy has never left the house.

He has all his father's blessings, but he can't enjoy it because he mad at somebody else instead of praying for his brother, joining his father in prayer for his brother.

He mad at his brother and then mad at his daddy for caring for his brother.

Ooh, how many believers are like that?

You mad at when of God's kids, and then mad at God for blessing his kid when that's your brother.

But that's no longer your brother when they're not doing what you want them to do.

So that's them over there, which brings us to movement five.

Say movement five Jesus and anger the redemptive bottle, because a lot of people like to justify their anger with the fact that Jesus got angry.

And when Jesus got angry, he braided a belt and he flipped over tables.

And that's me.

I'm Jesus.

No, you're not.

No, you're not.

He can be in you, but you're not him.

Thank God, I'm not him.

Thank God, you're not him.

We're not him.

So this is Matthew chapter number twenty one, twelve and thirteen.

Then Ya Shua into the temple and drove out all those selling and buying in the temple.

He overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those selling doves, and he said to them, it is written my house shall be called a house of prayer, but you are making it a den of thieves.

We read this and we're like, yeah, I'm Jesus.

I'll flip the tables.

Don't cross me.

You better try Jesus.

Don't try me because I throw these hands.

It's a dope song.

But it's not like our biblical posture.

We should not be throwing hands.

We should be praying for those that despitefully use us.

We should be loving our enemies.

We should be treating our neighbor like ourself.

So Jesus expressed his.

Anger with clarity, not chaos.

His anger was clean.

It was not contaminated by insecurity or ego.

I gotta say that part again.

His anger was clean, It was not contaminated by insecurity or ego.

His anger produced alignment, not a alienation.

His anger protected the vulnerable, not punished the innocent.

Jesus shows us.

Anger can be holy when it is honest and directed.

Well, let me say this, let me say it this way.

Jesus flipped tables, not people.

He only got rid of what was not supposed to be in his father's house.

We should not be selling in the father's house.

I'm breaking this table.

I'm not breaking you.

You can be restored, but what you can't do is pervert this atmosphere.

I'll never forget when I was thinking about this moment, I was thinking about the.

One time.

We couldn't listen to explicit content when we were growing up in our house.

I had a hold in this house my mom and daddy was the Pentecostal Huxtables.

I want you to thank Cliff and Claire, but speaking in tongues, and that was Charles and Maxine Ross.

And so they told us, we don't want you listening to secular music in the house, and we don't want you especially listening to explicit content music.

Well, we had a stash of tapes, cause.

I'm fifty, We had a stash of tapes and my mom found them and she broke them off, and then she took a little pencil and pulled the tape out and just started doing this eating the name of ayad ya ya yah yah yah yah hoole shining dah yah.

I told you not to bring it in here.

Yah.

Yeah, she broke the tape.

She didn't break us.

She took out of our room what we didn't take out of our hearts.

That's a righteous anger.

Again, anger is information.

Who am I actually mad at?

Movement six?

At Movement six, last movement that we've done.

How to deal with anger before it deals with you?

How do we deal with our anger before it deals with us?

Point number one?

You have to name it.

Who or what am I actually angry?

You cannot heal what you refuse to identify.

We have to stop lying to ourselves and telling ourselves that we're not mad at anything.

I got mad at God.

In a nuclear way when my brother got killed in a car accident September seventeenth of twenty of twenty, two thousand and four.

He was killed in an auto accident.

A double tractor trailer put out in front of him.

He struck it blunt force trauma, died instantly.

I was angry with God for four months.

I told him I'm never gonna preach for you again.

I don't like you.

And the language is.

Way more colorful than that.

If you've ever watched my podcast, it it was podcast Timmy.

It was not Preacher Timmy.

Okay, so I went smooth off.

Okay, he's a holy God, and he's sovereign, and you can't.

You gotta approach him a certain way.

He's a dad, he is holy, he is sovereign, and he's a dad.

Everybody in here, most everybody in here, unless you were just in a crazy situation.

In a parental dynamic.

You had that one moment.

Anybody had that one moment where you popped off at your parent.

And look at you.

You still here?

Huh?

You know you should be dead, down in your grave.

Your bed should be your cooling board.

You think about it later, You're like, oh my, how did I I should be dead?

I was not in my right mind.

My anger.

Was valid.

The way that I expressed it was not.

God is so gracious that he let me have my tantrum because I was telling the truth about my pain.

I was bitter losing my brother, and I took it to his presence and he healed me.

Not instantly, but he healed me express it safely.

Anger is energy.

It must move.

That's why we went through these movements, because I want you to understand what it means to move.

Anger is energy.

It must move.

Moses' problem wasn't feeling anger.

It was avoiding expression into eruption.

We were doing counselor one time, my wife and I and and she was like, Timmy and I, you know, we don't we don't argue like we have conversations and and we don't raise our voice.

And I'm like, thank God for grace, because when we first got married, I'm just a naturally loud person and demonstra demonstrative and passionate, and and that would shut her down.

And so I had to get a new voice.

I had to get an FMDJ voice, quiet storm.

Hey babe, I'm angry with you right now but always in forever, this moment with you, it's just like a dream to me, and somehow came true.

Oh but I'm mad though, but come and talk to me.

I really want to know your name.

And it.

Worked, it worked, But.

Then she was like, and we don't call each other out of you know, we don't.

We never call each other out of our names.

And I kind of chuckled, like and she was like, what, You've never called me out of my name?

And I was like, not to your face.

But I got it out of my body in a safe place that didn't permanently damage.

Her perspective of me.

So whether that's in therapy, or getting the phone with one of my friends, and I'm like.

You know what this oh.

This girl?

Ah, I can't stan at her.

But she's so pretty.

Though if she wasn't pretty, I leave her now.

I would leave her right now.

But she's so fine.

But ah.

And walk in the house like, hey, babe, you good.

What are you eating today?

Don't be Moses.

Moses should have been while he was still in God's presence.

He should have been like, I can't standing at people out there.

All they do is complain to get on my nerves.

I went up to get your your your commandments.

That came down.

There was naked.

There was nackad.

Everybody was nackad, having a whole orgy.

I was gone for like seven hours.

How how we had just got the Red Sea and I came back down there was but booty naked?

How is this possible?

And my brother got the nerve to say, you don't know what happened.

It was a golden calf.

You don't just go.

Don't just come out of calf.

Brother's a liar dog.

Then he should have just came out, hey, rock water, That's what should have happened.

It didn't happen.

Bring it to God first.

I just talked about this.

God is not intimidated by honesty.

I just if you don't get nothing else from today, I promise you he does not care.

You can talk as reckless as you want, and when you get done with it, you're like, okay, okay, thank you my God, thank you so much for being a blessed savior, for being I mean, think about it, like Peter looked your shoe with dead and the eye and said, I'll never leave you.

Then deny them three times.

You know what the Lord's response was, breakfast.

That's what I'm saying.

We can't be Jesus.

I'm not coming back for bro.

I bless your fishing business.

You and your daddy's fishing business popped off because of me.

You saw all the miracles.

I blessed you with power to do the same stuff I did.

And then when I get locked up, you denine me three times in front of a little girl.

And then I'm gonna make you my main pre eminent preacher.

No, I'm not where John.

At I mean PD.

I ain't gonna kick you off the set, but what I am gonna say is you not the cap on no more, I where is John?

He's not intimidated.

Communicate before you accumulate.

That's spicy.

Communicate before you accumulate.

The older brother's silence was decades of emotional dishonesty.

Let me tell you what, Let me tell.

You how imploders.

Let me tell you how we rock?

How you doing today?

Fine?

Him?

Are you good?

Yep?

You see I'm a little distant.

I'm good.

I'm good.

Are you sure of?

For sure?

For years I'm good, I'm good.

I'm good, years and years and years ago by.

I'm good, I'm good.

And then one day, look, you said you was good.

Let Christ redirect it.

Anger can become clarity.

Anger can become advocacy.

Anger can become compassionate.

Anger can become purpose.

Anger can become healing.

My sister, my god sister.

I was talking to her last night and she sent me this, and I just thought it was profound.

The inability to regulate the nervous system is at the root of all violence.

If people learn to regulate their nervous systems, homicide, suicide, rape, political unrests and wars would cease.

Couples, families, congregations, communities, and nations would heal if we can recognize our triggers in the moment, disregulate and reregulate.

Ain't nobody going to prison, Ain't nobody being abused, Ain't nobody catching the case, nobody's breaking a relationship, nobody's self sabotaging their career, their marriage.

Because we can actually own it, identify it, and then allow God to heal it, the anger that we refuse to deal with will become the crash out We never saw it coming.

Can I tell you how many people in ministry and out crash out and go.

I don't know how I got here.

It never came out of your mouth, So it came out of actions your body, Thank you, Holy Spirit.

Your body is never gonna let your mouth get away with the lies it's telling on it.

Hear me, your body is.

Your body is never gonna let your mouth get away with the lies you're telling on it.

You are not fine.

Stop saying it.

I'm saying this out of experience, not out of.

Theory.

I got sexually.

Abused when I was eight years old by a neighbor that live across the street from me.

When I came home, my mom said, how was your dad?

I said, eight years old.

I knew I was lying.

I knew in this moment, I felt like I could not tell the truth about the experience that I was having because I was gonna blow my whole family up.

My daddy was gonna kill him, my brother was gonna bury him.

I knew it.

I just knew it.

And I'm eight years old.

I can't know because then and then, Mama, we're gonna be by ourself, and then we probably gonna have to move back to like the hood hood because we just like we got out of you know how you get out the hood hood and you at you like in a better part of a steel hood, but like this hood got us swimming pool like you just okay, it's a little upgrade.

I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.

I lived with that for eleven years of silence between eight and nineteen years old, until my mom caught me watching pornography and I couldn't no longer say I'm fine.

And that night.

I told her the truth about why I was medicating with pornography and masturbation.

And my whole life changed.

My life has not been the same since that day.

There was a progression of freedom and a progression of healing that had to take place.

But in the almost thirty years that I've been a believer in Jesus Christ, I've been in therapy for twenty eight and all I do now is sit on the couch and try to help people open up and tell the.

Truth about what their body has experienced.

Because if you can do that, then you can truly live in freedom.

So message is over anybody whose anger has a hold on you more than you have a hold on it.

This is your auto call.

Come now, don't clap so proud of y'all, like super proud of y'all.

You can live with it.

Don't let it live with you.

You can live with it, Just don't let her live with you.

We've lost too many relationships over it.

It's not cute no more.

Maybe when we were little, oh man, he got a temper.

Bro that's bro and knock you out.

Don't cross him.

That's cool at like fifteen, it's not cool at twenty five.

You look dumb.

At thirty five, you're alone.

At forty five, nobody wants to hang with you no more.

I'm told my dad had a violent temper.

God did such a miraculous work in his life.

I still don't believe him.

When he would tell me, man, I had such a temper, my mom would tell him, oh, daddy had a temper.

He'd break everything, punch holes in walls.

Like when you look at when you come back to yourself and the lamp is broken, it's like you need light.

Though.

When there's a hole in the wall, you gotta patch it.

You break the relationship you got amended, And at some point it's just like, okay, the anger, the anger is a signal.

What is it really telling me?

It really ain't got nothing to do with you.

I keep taking it out on you.

You ain't got nothing to do with it.

I'm mad because I've been alone since I was a child.

I'm mad because I had to teach myself how to be a man.

I'm mad because my mom actually thought I was competing with her for the attention of my dad, who happened to be her husband.

I'm just mad.

An ultra call like this is just meant for you to just tell your body, like to finally confess, all right, you were right?

That is me.

It keeps coming up and I can't keep blaming it on all other stuff that's me.

So I just want to pray with you.

For some of you, you might have like a miraculous moment where you walk away from this and you ain't never mad again.

And for the others of us, it's just gonna be some work.

We're gonna be triggered and then we're gonna have to make the I can't do that.

I can't do that.

I can't meet with them because I'm gonna say something crazy.

But God give me a week.

I know I have to meet him, but I let me get this out in a safe place and so I can meet with this person and engage them in a godly way.

I went through this earlier this year.

I had a situation in a business relationship and I was all the way back in Inglewood.

I was like, I'm gonna get this dude, and the Lord was like, you're gonna get him.

Vengeance is the Lord's He will repay if there's a reason why he's so possessive with the word vengeance is mine.

He can't keep us from emotion, but he keeps us from the action because on our best day, we cannot exact righteous judgment.

On our best day, is still gonna be wicked.

So let's pray.

Shelly, God, I thank you for my brothers and sisters, for your sons and daughters.

I thank you that right now you give us grace in our anger.

God, I pray that whatever roots have grown down.

Because of Oh, thank you, Holy Spirit.

I just want you to the Holy Spirit is just telling me to tell you this, Your anger is valid.

I just want to acknowledge it affirmed that your anger is valid.

What you've been mad about is actually valid the way you've been trying to handle it.

It's not they did hurt you, they did wrong you, they did betray you, they did abuse you, they did lie to you, they did betray you.

You're not wrong fulfilling the anger.

But we cannot allow our reaction to be a mismatch to God's.

So Holy Spirit, I pray that you would take our anger.

We just put it before you right now.

We lay it on the altar, and we say, Holy Spirit, help us to deal with this the way you want us to deal with this.

Help us to process it the way you want us to process it.

Help us to heal the way you want us to heal.

Help us to see ourselves again the way you see us, Help us to see the other person whoever offended us the way you see them.

God heal our hearts from the inside out.

We uproot the roots that keep bringing poison fruit.

We uproot the roots that keep producing poison fruit.

And God we allow the seeds of forgiveness and love and purity and kindness to grow down new roots so that we can produce new fruit in Jesus' name.

Amen, So bow, every eye still closed.

I want to take a moment.

If you're in this room or you're watching online, and you've never accepted Jesus as your Lord and savior, You've never fully given your life to him, not just in an ethereal way, just in a small way, but you've never laid your life down and said I cannot drive anymore.

I do not want control.

I want to give everybody watching online and in this room an opportunity to accept Jesus.

Some of you.

The reason you're so frustrated you've been fighting is because.

You feel like you had nobody to fight for you.

But I am telling you Jesus is the one you have been looking for, and he is the only person that can help you with this.

So here's what I'm gonna do.

If you want to accept Jesus as your Lord and savior.

You want a fresh start with God, you want a new beginning.

I am gonna count the three on an account of three.

You're gonna raise your hand in this room and online.

And what happens when you raise your hand is you're saying, I give up control of my life.

I do not want it my way.

I ultimately want something bigger.

Better and stronger than me to live on the inside of me and to help me actually do and become who I say I want to do and who I want to become.

I'm gonna count to three, and you're gonna raise your hand boldly in this room and online.

You want to accept Jesus.

One, He loves you you.

Two.

Today is the day of salvation.

Three, lift your hand all over this room and online.

Come on you and accept Jesus.

I see you over here.

I got you dog, a whole family over here.

I see both of you.

I'm so proud of you.

I got you, sister.

Oh, come on, y'all, we got people.

I got you right here, my man, right here.

On the front.

So proud of you.

I see you, sister.

I got you hey, as a family, as a community, can everybody pray this prayer out loud?

Repeat after me, say, Dear God, I admit I'm a sinner.

I need a savior, change me, transform me, make me new.

I lay it all down.

I am yours and Jesus say my pray.

Amen.

Can we celebrate people who just made the decision to follow Jesus.

And listen.

If you just made that choice today, it is the best decision you could ever make in your life.

Your life is forever different.

And here's the big thing I want you to know.

One I want you to tell somebody, Tell somebody around you, Text your mama, tell a friend, tell somebody you made the decision.

It's the best decision you could ever make.

And we'd also as a church who love to know about it, if you text the word saved to eight two eight two eight two.

We're here to help you now to follow out and live this life that Jesus has called us to live.

And we're so proud you made that decision.