Hi everyone, and welcome back to another podcast episode.

My name is Alicia Gogin, the host of the Globe Secrets podcast.

Why help you expand your mind and become more self aware so that you can glow up into the best version of yourself.

Okay, I'm just gonna say right off the writ right off, that this is gonna be a chatty episode, Okay, for many reasons, one being this is my last day my twenties, so we're gonna be talking about life lessons essentially.

But there's also a few updates.

Okay that have been going on, Like I just need to kind of bring back a on topic, off topic episode for today, and one of you guys actually requested that I do more of the off topic episodes again because they were like fun and it's nice to just listen to an episode where it's just like more chatty.

We can talk about that, but let's just do the updates.

But first the lessons, because, like I just said, today is my last day my twenties.

Okay, we've been waiting a while for this one.

I'm super excited to turn thirty.

I've always like had a good view on turning thirty, but I can definitely feel the wisdom that I have as a thirty year old.

Now.

I feel like I've always thought of myself as pretty wise, Like i feel like I'm just like always a pretty wise person.

But something definitely started to change this past year until now that makes me really feel like, yeah, okay, we are here.

Okay, Sorry, I lost my train of thought because I'm trying to get THEO to not sleep on me when I am podcasting because the dog is just too big now and it is so uncomfortable.

We just can't do it anymore.

Theo's like he's getting old.

Anyways, I can see some of the things that I really needed to learn in my twenties now that I'm like looking over my twenties, and I wanted to talk about a few of those things now.

Another thing which is also so cool, because today's episode is two two two, which what does that even mean?

Actually, I feel like I need to look that up.

But I have two hundred and twenty two podcast episodes on life lessons.

Honestly, Okay, everything I talk about is the lessons that I've learned or the things that I'm going through, So like it's not going to just be what's in this episode because life is an entire journey in a lesson, and mind you, we have THEO in the back with both of his ears flipped back because who knows why, and yeah, this is him, guys.

He is going through another growth spurt, like how much bigger?

I don't know.

He's ten and a half ish months or ten months telling Greyhounds, I feel like I've been saying ten months for so long, but he kind of is.

His birthday's on Boxing Day, which is December twenty sixth for those who don't have that day, because I'm pretty sure not everyone has that day.

Anyways, let's get onto my list.

I'm going to try and.

Get through these quickly.

These could all honestly be episodes in itself, Like I could end off the year banging out all these episodes because there's so much.

Okay, so the first one, everything that you say that you can't.

Do, you can actually do it.

And I talked about this in a past video on my main channel about comfort zones and how if we want to be people who are confident and people who get things done, you have to be willing and okay to get out of your comfort zone.

It's the only way you're ever going to feel confident and comfortable doing something that you currently aren't allowing yourself to do or too scared to do.

And also you will be somebody who gets more things done because you're willing to just do them.

But you can't get out of your comfort zone if you keep telling yourself that you can't do it.

And so one thing I said in that video is start making a list of all the things that you know you're staying small in.

Whether it's like you just not being so independent and always needing somebody to go to this store or that thing, or you simply just push off things that might involve human connection or like just getting out of your comfort zone in some way, or you say you want to be this person who has community or friendship or all these things, but like your doors are closed, like you're not really somebody who's moving.

Like that's what you would be getting in your life, whatever it is, Put it on a list and start to work on them.

And that's what I talked about in that video.

So I'm not gonna go too much into it, but you can do way more things than you even think, which actually leads me to the next thing, which is you will always fall off of something.

And I just am so ready to let go of this idea that I shouldn't be falling off of something because it is so draining in It genuinely drained me in my twenties, just the constant rumination of the fact that I feel constantly like a failure because I've fallen off of things, when it's just in reality life like you go through different seasons of your life, and sometimes you cope in good or not the most healthy ways, but every phase that you go through is almost important.

Whether you don't want to be there, that means maybe there's a thing you need to work yourself out of, like a lesson to learn.

I'm not saying it's all fun, but I feel like, no matter what, falling off just doesn't need to be this big thing.

And I think that that is a huge reason I talk about this all the time.

I know it's a huge reason why I've stayed in so many cycles before, because it's the idea that you did something like you shouldn't.

You're falling off, you're not being perfect with things, and so you have to restart, and you just like constantly feel like you're restarting like we don't need to do that.

That is something I'm really working on, is like not feeling like I'm going like in and out of something.

I'm not going in and out of anything.

I'm just flowing.

I'm just being my I'm just living life and growing like a plant almost.

Okay, a plant is attached to the root.

It has all different like forms and shapes and things like that.

But like we're together, Okay, we're not in and out of something.

I don't like that.

It's definitely something that I'm working on and something to really just remember.

Okay, this is huge, probably for the ones that are genuinely younger than me, and even people my age, anyone obviously, is that the answer to your anxiety is probably somewhere that lies within human connection.

You need to be around regulated, healthy people, community life, and for so many of us, we don't have that.

We don't have proper relationships, even if we have not that many relationships, but they're not the best quality, they're not healthy, they're very dysfunctional, and on top of that, you having a dysfunctional relationship with yourself.

Like the way out of that, in my personal opinion, is genuinely having good people in your life.

And this doesn't mean if people don't have their own shit, and like people need to be perfect, nobody is even perfect, but you need to work on building community.

There's that trend going around where they say, like, if you want a village, you have to be a villager, and you have to kind of be okay with inconveniencing yourself and putting effort into people and doing things and showing up for them.

Like it's true for a lot of.

Us, community and connection is not something that we know is not that comfortable, but we need to learn how to be more comfortable with engaging in community because that is the thing that will heal us, and especially those who have done so much self development, and like you're you're on the path and you're working, you're a good person.

You know you're working on yourself constantly.

This that sometimes the missing piece is honestly just human connection in some form, and it doesn't have to be crazy big, but just being somebody who starts to look people in the eyes when you go out and smile or say hi to the person in your elevator, I know you don't know them, I know.

It feels like cringy and weird or whatever.

But if you keep doing that, like that does something for you, and you don't have to be friends with anyone.

That you're saying, hi, I do.

It doesn't need to be like that, but you need some sense of like knowing what it feels like to not move through life so afraid and when you're not talking to people, when you're avoiding things, when you're not having proper friendships or relationships, like you are in survival mode and it's.

Just not a way to live.

So we need to push ourselves out of those comfort zones.

That is something like I said that I have to listen.

This is like baby steps for me, but it's important.

And I think a lot of the things that I stress about in my twenties, like for so many reasons, human connection would have helped so much, having like proper family dynamics of course, and consistency, reliability on parents and things like that, because obviously that's kind of where those things stem from, along with a home that was safe and consistent, Like those are very important things that you need to feel safe in this world.

But now that we're adults, like we have to start creating that life like that's what we need.

Okay.

Next one, you are going to process.

Your shit in healthy and unhealthy ways, and you just need to be okay with that, and you need to understand that everyone else is also not perfect.

We've kind of already talked about perfectionism and everything like that, but I think we get so hard on ourselves when we are not in our minds doing the healing correctly, or we are currently battling a vice of some sort or a habit or something that we're just constantly always telling ourselves like we shouldn't be doing.

The thing that I've learned with that is it's better to try and understand why you are even having that relationship to that thing, versus just feeling like you're failure because you do that thing and that it's so wrong and bad.

It's usually information, but also not everything needs to be demonized.

There's a lot of things to.

Escape from in this world externally but also internally with our own personal traumas and things like that, and it's a lot.

And so if you fuck up sometimes.

Like it's okay, it's actually going to be okay.

And I think that if we move more through life with that, we're just gonna be happier, And I guess that's the next thing.

Let yourself be happy as much as you can.

And it's hard, Like I have to practice being happy because I've lived my life very scared and then just always expecting the worst.

And when you're like that, you can't be happy.

You can't be happy.

So you have to really work on that releasing the control thing and really pushing yourself out of your comfort zone to be okay with things, even being messy.

There's so many things to be happy about, even when things are not perfect.

But you're also just allowed to decide today that you're not going to constantly tell yourself that you need to worry about things.

It's okay to let go of that worry.

But I know there's a part of you who's convinced that, like, no, we have to worry, we have to worry about life because that's what we've experienced in the past.

And listen, she ain't wrong.

But it's the practice of like having a conversation with that part consistently when it comes up to say, Babe, we don't have to worry today.

It's okay.

I know you want to worry, but we can also be happy.

But that's a practice because you've always operated out of that person that always worries, But that part of you is just trying to keep you safe, honestly, So always remind yourself of that when you find yourself in those like stuck habits.

There's a part of me that just wants to protect me, but also how can I work with it.

That's also going to be.

A practice in my journal series, which I don't know exactly when it's coming yet, but we're working on it.

It will definitely come out, and I think you guys will really like it.

Definitely make sure to sign up to my newsletter, which will be in the description, so you'll get notifications and stuff.

Something else that I learned in my twenties is your life path is not going to be the same as everyone else's, especially if you came from an unhealthy environment.

It's just probably not.

So you might have to do things differently in your life.

But don't think that you're doing the wrong thing just because you have to do that thing on your timeline and that it's not the same as how other people are doing it, because that will really weigh you down.

I feel like I definitely struggled with feeling like I was behind and I wasn't on the same path and not there yet with everyone else.

Like I felt very behind in many ways in my life, whether it was school, like when I was young, I just didn't have the help that I needed, and I always just felt behind, like I was less than which didn't help my confidence.

But how I started to reverse that was just thinking about how I honestly just needed that extra support and I didn't get that.

And so I'm gonna need to be loving to myself and give myself time and grace and like not be so mad at myself for being like this, Like in general, why am I going to be mad at myself?

Because I'm learning lessons that came from a line of trauma, like.

I'm undoing those.

Like the same thing goes with relationships, Like don't get mad at yourself if you were in something that clearly didn't serve you, because you were probably just like learning how to exit all of that generational trauma.

In some way, we need to be nicer to ourselves and also not so hard on ourselves.

And I think about that when it comes to money or even career paths, like I feel like I didn't have the most triad college to like proper job to like knowing what I wanted to do type of thing, and like having money and stuff like that.

Like I worked at a corporate job for a bit and I was a really good server and this that, but like it felt very like alternative and like different, which I didn't at that point.

I didn't really care because like, you're just trying to survive and make money and do whatever you need to do.

But when I wanted to pursue YouTube and podcasting and things like that, it was very like non traditional.

But a lot of people will just say, like that's not a stable job and this that, or if you want to do something on your own, to have six months of savings before you leave or six to.

Like ten months.

I don't know what they're saying now, whatever the case is, and like have a safety net and this that, and like totally agree with that.

Like advice, it is good advice, but what I will say about that is that is not the advice that works for me.

Okay, sorry I had to put down my blind but I have constantly lived my life with no safety net, and sometimes people have to make decisions without having a safety net like that is just the reality of a lot of things.

And no shade to the people who say those things, because I do think that it's good advice and if you can, I think you should.

But I think that some of those people I don't think are talking to people like me because that wasn't really my situation.

And of course, like you don't want to tell people to just take really risky risks in their lives, I get why you wouldn't want to tell people that, but I just think in general, just sharing your story is good enough for people to really figure out what they want to do with their own life, and not from a place of convincing you to do one thing or another, but just like being real so people know, Like I feel like a lot of people are not real, but like I didn't have any savings.

I was taking risk after risk.

I was moving quickly because I knew that I had to.

And I always come back to the feeling of I have myself no matter what, like I'll figure it out.

But that got me a far away, like I might as well take this.

Risk because worst case, I'll figure it out, because what am I gonna do not figure it out?

Of course not, so I might as well do the thing that I really want to do then to sit here and suffer, basically because I feel like if you're not living out the things that you truly want to do, it can feel like genuine suffering.

And one thing about me is I don't like the feeling of suffering.

I have been around it for a long time in my life, and I've also had to feel the side effects of parents who were suffering and doing the best they could, but like there was a lot of suffering around and so I if I can like do my absolute best, I'm trying not to like have a hard, hard life.

But if that's what you want, you have to work for that, and that means you also have to take risks.

So anyways, I say all that to say, it's okay if your timeline looks different, if you have to take time doing things, if you are not making moves the same way everyone else is around you.

At this age, it is what it is.

As long as you know that you're being a good person and you're putting in the work and you're working on yourself, like that's gonna I promise you will fare very well in your life.

Okay, the next one, and this is where I could probably like, I definitely need to make an entire episode on this, but that is you really need to work on and do your best to forgive and let go of the things that you hold on towards your parents and also learn how they affected you in your life and work on undoing those things, but taking responsibility of those things instead of just getting mad and blaming them.

And listen, there is room for feeling your feelings towards parents specifically or just unfortunately how the way that they maybe raised you kind of affected you now in your adult life.

Like they might be great people and you might love them and stuff like that, and that's it's honestly how I feel with my parents.

But you know, there's still those underlying things and a lot of the times it can be anger and that's something that I've had to work through.

I don't even necessarily think that it's over yet when it comes to my mom.

I think for my dad, like maybe not even like who knows.

It always comes up every time I work on therapy stuff.

It's just like a thing that like lives with you in a way that you can also work with it though, But I have felt more peace in my life when I do my best to forgive my parents and understand all the ways in which they showed up, And a lot of it was they just didn't know.

Like they also came from a line of trauma.

They were all surviving, like seriously, And I think that a lot of us really complain in this generation about like how things are hard and trauma this and that, and like, I get it, but we have it really easy, and I just don't want to argue with that.

Like, I know, life is super hard.

I get it, and like what's happening, Everything is hard, but I just don't think that we would even survive half the things that our parents went through.

Okay, like they went through it.

And when you start to remind yourself of that, it's not about excusing.

I know some people know what they're doing.

There's exceptions, I know that, but genuinely, they were doing the best that they could.

And regardless, you can't change anything that happened in the past, so you might as well do your best to release yourself from the generational line that will affect you if you don't let go some of that anger and frustration.

Okay, sorry, my camera died, so I don't even know if I cut myself off or not.

But before I tell you the next thing, I'm so happy right now because THEO is laying in his bed behind the camera, not on me, and he is like asleep and he is fine there and that makes me so happy because I feel like I'm in this dog mom stage of having slowly like not have him leeched to me.

The dog is much bigger now, but I just think in general, like we do need to grow up a little bit, and I'm like trying to push him to do like little independent things like Okay, you can go lay on your bed over there now, like I'm gonna be here.

You can do it.

I know you can.

You do not need to be on me all the time.

Is this what it's like having a kid?

Oh my lord?

Hey, So I found this quote on Pinterest, and every time I see it I see all the time, I'm like, yeah, no, literally yes.

And it says half the game is getting yourself out of environments that aren't serving you, and I genuinely think that that is your twenties.

It really is all about getting out of those relational patterns that don't serve you, and removing yourself from toxic people, places, and things, and breaking those harsh patterns that you have with self sabotage.

But listen, you don't have to be perfect with that.

You don't have to live in the perfect environment and have the perfect relationships and be perfect with your habits and just be this perfect person.

You do not.

You just need to honestly inch yourself just a few inches away from the things that are not serving you, because that will make the biggest impact.

Like, all you need to do is shut the door on one person energetically.

Obviously, like if you are with them, then breaking up, yes, and like going to no contact, but like actually energetically let that person go and see how things just easily change in your life.

It's almost like you jump timelines or you push yourself for the first time to finally do the thing that you've been like putting off, and you feel like a weight is lifted off your shoulders and you just feel so much more clear.

Like those are not necessarily big things, but they make a very big impact.

And I guess this is probably going to be my last one, and this is something that I'm taking right in to the thirties, and that is it's okay to be in a season of your life where you do not know and everything feels new and it feels very unknown.

You don't know what you want to do with your career, you don't know what you want to do with your love life, you don't know what you want to do with your future.

You're seeing yourself in patterns, and you just don't know what to do anymore.

Like whatever it.

Is that is part of the process of figuring things out in life.

We think those phases are the worst, when really that is the thing that changes things for us.

But we're so obsessed with trying to figure out what the answer is when all we need to do is be more in the present, in the messiness, in the I don't know what's happening, but here we are.

I'm going to do my best to accept it.

When you do that, that's when the thing comes to you.

That's when your life starts to change.

That's where the answer starts to come from.

Like that's kind of what happened.

So anyways, those are some of the lessons that I have learned and of course will continue to learn.

And on that note, I'm actually going to be doing a little bit of a rebrand for the podcast.

I always thought about wanting to do something around my thirtieth birthday, mainly because I knew it was going to be pretty impactful in some way, because it's like a big thing, not even just like me turning thirty.

But I just knew after the year and a half or two, honestly, like a few years that I've had, I was like, something's brewing.

Okay, something's brewing.

But with that said, I am going to be doing a photoshoot.

I actually don't, like I have a mood board of what I want, but it's not set in stone.

But I also am trying to let myself just be in this phase of my life I've turning thirty and learning lessons and things like that into the creative process of like what the end result will be and what I mean by like photoshoot for the podcast.

That's for my podcast art work like the cover what you see on like Spotify, Apple or whatever, but also you'll see it on the profile if you're watching on YouTube as well, and I'll probably have it somewhere behind me eventually at one point.

Anyways, I'm really excited for that because I do think that I'm outgrowing the pink cover with like the butterflies and things like that.

Although we might still have butterflies because I love a good butterfly, but it will definitely be a different vibe and aesthetic.

My hair is gonna be different.

It's gonna be good.

But I was thinking, like I definitely want to enter not anything drastic.

I'm not changing anything about my content really, it will always just be like a natural evolution.

But I do think that I'm entering a season where there's a lot of things that I don't know.

I feel like I built this podcast off of talking to the younger version of myself essentially, or anyone who's obviously going through the things that I went through.

But I went through those things when I was like fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, even like of course moving into the early twenties and all that, Like everything that I'm constantly talking about is from honestly, like starting from like ten years ago.

So I just have a lot of wisdom and things that I can talk about on those things.

But of course, like the wisdom that I can give myself even in present day, I've just had a lot of experience with it, but I haven't had a lot of experience with stepping into a you know, new, actual like big chapter of my life like relate reationship and even like losing my mom.

And the way that my life is going to start going is just gonna be different, and that means I'm going to learn a lot of things, and I want to have episodes where.

That's more reflected.

And I know that I am very reflective already and I do share a lot of what I'm learning and stuff, but I would like to share more things that I'm still figuring out in every aspect of my life.

So I want that to be kind of our next phase.

So that's happening my birthday.

I am going out for dinner on my actual birthday to this nice Italian restaurant with my boyfriend.

We've been there before.

It's called seven a Teca.

I think I'm saying that right in Oakville, and it is nice.

I love the food there.

It is so good.

I'm gonna see a few friends, I think during the day.

I'm actually going to massage after this because I feel like my birthday starts today because every year on my birthday it is so sunny, it is like beautiful crisp November like sunny day, and tomorrow's actually going to rain all day and it's gonna be like gloomy all day apparently.

And so the day before my birthday, like, I woke up today and I was like, no, today feels exactly how it would feel like to be my birthday.

And I had class pass credits that I needed to use up before the fifth so I wanted to book a massage like on my birthday because that's what I usually do, but I couldn't because I was gonna lose so many credits if I didn't use them up.

So I was like, Okay, what's the next available time and it was today, and so I feel like today's my birthday as well.

Anyways, I also have a dinner party with my friends on Saturday.

This will be at Piano Piano, which is also another good Italian restaurant, so good, So hopefully all those things go well.

Also I'm getting my hair done on Friday, so there's a lot of things.

And then guys, I'm moving in like two weeks and this is like such a long story time, but I don't know if I even said that I'm moving, like I know that I said that in the vlog, but essentially I'll have to give you the rundown.

Sorry, guys, this is gonna be a really long episode.

But like late.

Summer, I really realized that for so many reasons, I've been outgrowing this place.

It's been a while since I've been here.

This whole chapter, you guys know, the whole theme of this episode is like chapters and new beginnings and things like that, and considering what I went through losing my mom and being sick and just a lot of things, and like friendships are changing a little bit, and my life is just different.

And I've always not really been a city girl.

But I got a place near the water where it worked for the past three years.

Also getting a dog.

It's such a big reason why I really started to feel like, oh I got it, Like I feel like I need to leave.

And so obviously spending so much time at my boyfriends in the summertime, I got really acclimated to his area, and I was like, I knew about this area, but I didn't really know how much it was going to heal my soul.

It is so beautiful.

It's exactly what I would want where my area is now to be.

There's so many trails, there's water, you can see the sea and tower like skyline.

People are just slower there.

There's still an area where you can go out and you can have dinner.

There's coffee shops, there's the plot studios, there's just like everything.

It's still close to the city.

I just loved it, and honestly, a huge thing was theo, like just being able to walk him so much more and also like bring him to dog parks and stuff like that.

I'm like, I need to move for my son if anything, Okay, Like I gotta go, Which is so funny because I really didn't think it'd be that crazy because there's still trails and stuff around my place.

But honestly, guys, it's been packed here the past like year.

Like everyone in the summertime down by the water.

It's like I don't want to go outside.

I really don't because there's so many people like visitors and things like that near the water and love to see it, but it's just like not my cup of tea, especially when I have a puppy.

Also, they've been doing construction for a very long time around my building, but they are getting down like into it, and it is a construction zone the minute I leave my place, and it's just not good and I don't like it.

And I don't even like why my balcony.

My balcony is very loud and it's super windy all the things, and I know that I'm complaining and stuff, but let's just let me have it for a second, outgrowing the space, okay.

And so by the end of summer, like I just had something in me that was like, honestly, I need to just move down here, like where my boyfriend lives.

And in my head, I was just thinking, I am just here all the time, like I actually like this place and I would consider living here, like even we're not going to break up, but you know, even if we broke up, we're like things didn't work out, like this is definitely my aria for sure.

And mind you, my boyfriend and I are so good, like we are just we're so good, and we both knew that eventually we are going to move in together.

But we were kind of thinking, like I was thinking, in my head, probably not till like maybe I don't know, April, next spring or summer, doesn't really matter.

I'm not somebody who's like super like you need to like date this.

Person for this long.

I don't.

The wisdom in me knows that, like things are not black and white, and it's also depending on like how you are in your relationship.

Like there's just good healthy relationships and no relationship is perfect, but there's definitely really good ones.

But anyways, at the end of summer, I was like, okay in my head because we probably weren' gonna get a place maybe till like next year sometime.

I'm literally just going to get a one bedroom down by the water because it is around.

Five to six hundred dollars cheaper.

In rent, and you get more, you get more, you get a parking spot over there.

And I don't even have a car, but it's like you get a parking spot, you get one bedroom plus den.

It's nice, there's layouts everywhere, and it's just like nearby the water.

Why am I not moved?

Why is actually not smart at all?

Like literally at all.

And so I thought about it, and I talked to my boyfriend about it.

I talked to my best friend about it.

I talked to a few of my other friends about it.

Just like you know, I feel like this just is a logical next step type of thing.

And my boyfriend was like, you can do that, or you could just live at my place until we're ready sometime in like the spring or summer to get a place.

And as soon as he said that.

Like no, part to me felt like, oh my gosh, no, like that's too soon, like I don't know, second guessing it.

But I also wasn't feeling like this rush of like anything like I don't know, like I just felt like very calm about it, and I'm like, no, that actually like makes logical sense.

And I even knew when I was thinking, oh, I'll just get a one bedroom by myself, like it almost just felt like kind of weird, like why would I do that?

I doesn't feel like a logical next step.

But anyways, I'm just explaining I know I don't have to, but things have been actually happening so quick that I feel like I want to mention that I feel very at home there, and I wanted to feel that before thinking about moving in, just because like I want to be with my boyfriend sooner, like personally for me, like I feel like that is something to look into a little bit.

If that's what you really want.

I'm not saying that it's like bad to want to be living with your boyfriend, but I feel like it's important to have like other things about the move that are your own, or there's other reasons why not just like being side by side with that person.

And I'm not saying that it's bad to like want to be around your partner again anyways.

I'm just saying that that's how I really felt, and that was my call to move.

And then I realized, like, realistically, he is not home majority of the times.

We work really well together, like obviously we've been staying with each other for so long.

I also just think it is really just helpful to be around a regulated nervous system like that is so underrated, especially if you live.

Alone or you've done a lot of things alone.

I also was a single child, like in my household, I had half siblings, but it was just me and my household.

So if my mom was working and my dad was home, I was afraid of my dad, and so I was like never around a regulated nervous system, and that will heal you to be around someone that you feel safe with that you can just like be in the next room with or you can spend time with or talk to.

You don't need to be doing like elaborate things, but just being around some but it can do a lot for you.

And I feel like that has been very healing for me because I haven't been around that and so so so long.

But then also I think the past year specifically like just how important that is to me.

And so that's another thing that I think about too.

It's like, I just want to be around things that are going to help me feel better in life.

And I'm not really gonna sit on it and wait, because why I have free will, like coming back to making risky decisions, even though I don't think this is like risky at all, but whatever, like maybe like the non traditional decision I should say to me, I'm just like it's either I go in the direction of what I know feels good or I continue to suffer.

And I'm not actually saying like I'm suffering, but I am outgrowing like all of this.

So if you're outgrowing.

Something, just move or make that decision or even leave that relationship, like sometimes you have to make those decisions.

So anyways, that has been the plan to move at the end of November, even though I've been staying there for so long.

Like the reason why I like that area so much and I have literally a whole routine now is because I've just constantly even spent like my days there.

Unless I have to come back to record, I'm usually there.

And now I'm not going to go into details of basically what happened, because I don't know if I even am like allowed to.

I'm sure like doesn't really matter.

Let's just say I agree to moving out earlier, and honestly it actually benefits me in like every single way and financially, it's a great decision.

Like, Yeah, So anyways, I am moving literally in like two weeks, and then right after that, my boyfriend is taking me to Miami for my birthday.

That's kind of like a little trip that we've had planned for a while.

So I have a lot of things going on in November, but the main thing is moving.

So if you see, like, I don't know how many more episodes I'm gonna get from this background, but if we start to change the background, just know like we're in the process of moving and things like I'll give you guys updates and stuff, but yeah, things are going to be all over the place.

But you know what, I feel like I've been preparing myself for this in terms of going back and forth and stuff and being okay with you know what.

This is life, and it's gonna make for a great life if you just let yourself ride the wave of things.

So anyways, I think that's all the things I want to say.

We talked about the lessons I'm doing the photoshoot, I am having obviously my birthday celebrations very soon, and going to Miami, entering a new era.

It's gonna be a good one.

Now.

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I'll post clips of the podcast and stuff like that on there, and then of course just on my Instagram, you can keep up with my life and see what's happening.

See the Miami trip that I'll definitely post, and birthday celebrations and stuff like that.

Of course, let me know in the comments anything that you would want me to expand on and talk about.

I feel like there's just endless things.

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And with that said, I will see you guys in the next one.

Bye.