Episode Transcript
Previously on deep Cover.
Speaker 2I liked her.
I liked her a lot.
Speaker 1She worked really hard and she was really humble.
Sarah says that she's going to have to have her leg amputated, and I was blown away.
Speaker 3She tells me that, like, she just got diagnosed with stage four lung cancer.
Speaker 4Could you help me understand why it says that you're a corporal here, and she's like, I was sexually assaulted on ship by the commanding officer.
The DoD ID number for this D two fourteen belongs to a corporal so and so, and it's a guy.
Then fifty percent of this document is altered.
Speaker 5Long before Sarah ever traveled out to Montana, long before she met dex or Tom or Natalie, she had a life in Rhode Island.
That's where she grew up, where she went to high school, where she had made a home for herself.
Rhode Island is tiny.
It's the small estate in the nation.
People like to say, in Rhode Island, you can't go anywhere without bumping into someone you know.
Now, in such a small place, it seems like it'd be hard for anyone to keep secrets, But that didn't seem to stop Sarah Kavanaugh.
Speaker 1Sarah passed herself off as a veteran, specifically a former US Marine who'd served in Iraq and Afghanistan, who'd been injured, a decorated war hero.
But none of this was true.
The story she told about herself, the sprawling lie she lived for six whole years.
You might think that to pull this off, she played safe, avoid attention, like not advertise the lie, because that'd be a great way to get caught.
Seems logical, right, Instead she did this.
Speaker 6Rhode Island is celebrating a national Purple Heart Day, and there will be a heartfelt tribute for the brave women and men who have been awarded this special medal.
Here to tell us all about it is a Purple Heart veteran Sarah Kavanaugh.
Sarah, if you can tell us a little bit about yourself, and you were awarded a purple Heart.
Speaker 7Yes, so, I served in the Marine Corps for about eleven years that was given a purple Heart for action to Afghanistan.
Speaker 1This is Sarah giving an interview on the local news.
She's speaking about the state's new Purple Heart Trail, a network of roads dedicated to veterans who were injured or killed in service.
Speaker 2Yeah, really is an honor to be a part of this.
Speaker 3Being able to recognize it and be the voice for other Purple Heart veterans who may not be comfortable.
Speaker 2Is really an honor.
Speaker 5Just a few days after this interview aired, Sarah attended a dedication ceremony for the new Purple Heart Trail.
I've seen a photo of this event.
Sarah wore a Marine Corps uniform, pressed neat, immaculate metals gleaming.
A sharp white cap framed her face, her eyes kind of hidden under the visor.
She stood alongside the governor and made a speech about patriotism and sacrifice.
Sarah told the assembled crowd, no one earns a purple heart alone.
I earned mine amongst eleven other Marines.
She added, I have long been one of those veterans, the ones who wished to fly under the radar, who merely did what was asked.
Speaker 1So yes, Sarah really did this.
She stood next to the governor and talked about the meaning of the purple heart, A purple heart, by the way, that she bought online.
Part of me wonders, if you're Sarah, why agree to do this?
Because Sarah grew up in Rhode Island and still had family there, classmates from high school, people who knew full well that she was no war hero.
And if any of them had seen her making this speech or watched her on the local news, they could have started asking questions, and Sarah's lives could have unraveled so easily.
Speaker 5But Sarah's lies survived, thrived in fact, even as she took risks, reckless risks, risks that seemed destined to backfire, especially within the tiny context of Rhode Island.
But Sarah she navigated well in small spaces, and as the walls closed in, they just keep getting smaller.
I'm Jake Calburn and I'm Jess McHugh and this is Deep Cover Season six, The Truth About Sarah, Episode two, The Poster Child.
Sarah's lies didn't just happen overnight, but slowly, over the course of many years, she gradually won people over, won their trust, won their admiration, and far as we can tell, all of this really started back in twenty sixteen with this guy.
Speaker 8So people may forget my name, but though, oh hey, do you know Dave Dave Oh the guy with a handlebar mustache.
Oh, yeah, I know him.
Speaker 5That's Dave Ainslie.
He's an Army vet served over twenty years, including time in Iraq, where he earned a purple Heart and a bronze star.
In the Army, Dave always had to keep a close shave, so when he finally got out, he returned home to Rhode Island.
Speaker 8And I was like, I'm gonna try this facial hair thing.
So I had everything from mutton chops to a goatee to well, let's try a handlebar mustache.
Speaker 5And that look worked for him.
Came like his calling card, as he put it, so that if you lived anywhere near his town in Rhode Island, you knew that Dave, the guy with the handlebar mustache.
He was the dude in charge of the local VFW Post one fifty two.
Speaker 1VFW, by the way, stands for Veterans of Foreign Wars.
It's kind of like a club for veterans where they can kick back, swap stories, and support each other.
Dave was the commander of this post and his ongoing goal was to modernize the place.
He says, when he first arrived in twenty ten, the vibe was kind of like what you might expect, as he put it, smokey bar, bunch of old guys, Dave loved those old guys, but he also wanted to open up the doors create an environment where any and all veterans would feel welcome, especially the younger generation.
So he upped their game on social media, focused on doing community service, and he set the tone with his welcoming personality.
Then in twenty sixteen, he meets Sarah Kabanaugh and apparently she was struggling.
Speaker 8She explained to me that she just got out of the Marine Corps and she needed help with some car payments because she was waiting for VA disability to kick in.
Speaker 1In other words, Sarah said there'd been some kind of delay that she was supposed to be ginning financial support from the VA, the Department of Veterans Affairs, but there was a hold up.
Indeed, he understood this kind of thing.
Speaker 8So we've all been there before.
The VA is great organization, but not always perfect.
We wanted to help her.
Speaker 5So many of the charities that help veterans in the US operate just like this.
They try to compensate for all the government's inefficiencies and shortcomings, and they do this by jumping in and helping veterans right away when they need it most.
And here was Dave trying to do exactly that.
Speaker 8So I said, hey, we're getting ready for the Veterans State Parade meet over there.
Speaker 5They were gathering in a parking lot when Sarah shows up to join them.
It's all pretty informal except for one bit of paperwork.
Speaker 8I said, I need to verify that you're a veteran.
So she showed me what every service member gets when they leave the service, add Form two fourteen.
Speaker 5A d D two fourteen.
It's actually a very important document in this story.
You may recall us talking about it in the last episode.
It's the official military discharge paper explaining how and when someone left the service, and it's what proves that Sarah is apparently a veteran.
Speaker 8I looked at it.
I said, yep, okay, you're a veteran, Thank you very much.
And I was actually excited to have her because here is a younger veteran and she seemed very genuine and she's like, Okay, I'm going to, you know, be a part of this organization.
I'm going to be a part of this now.
Speaker 5So right there on the spot in the parking lot, with Sarah standing there, Dave calls for a vote.
Speaker 8It was a voice vote.
Okay, here's this veteran.
Here's her proof.
She wants to become a member of our post.
She needs help, here's her story.
Can we give her the eight hundred and whatever dollars it was that she needed all in favor?
Say I eyes have it.
Okay, Hey, we're in the parade.
You want to march with us?
Sure?
Speaker 5And like that, Sarah was marching in the annual Veterans Day parade.
I've seen a video of this parade from a different year, but the mood is timeless.
People are waving flags, The members of a local high school band are playing their drums and trombones.
Veterans are walking down West Main Street together waving.
The boy Scouts are there too, marching past the package store and the antique dealer and the quilting shop.
It's classic America, and right there in the middle of it all was Sarah Kavanaugh, the newest member of Post one fifty two.
Speaker 1As far as Dave was concerned, the day was a win.
Win got to help vet need and he also got a new member, a fresh face and a woman too.
Speaker 8I was excited to have a female veteran be part of our organization.
Because that helps open us our organization up to another demographic.
Speaker 1And it wasn't just that Sarah was a woman.
She had a great energy about her.
She seemed to embody the new, younger VFW that Dave wanted to build.
Speaker 8She was the post a child because she was pretty blonde.
Um, she was openly lesbian, and again that is an aspect of people who have served that doesn't get represented.
Well you know what I mean.
So she was the post a child for lack of a better term.
Speaker 1Not to mention, she was also a wounded combat veteran.
This didn't come out right away or in a super public manner.
She would make references to her injuries and later to the medals that she'd won.
Eventually she showed up to VFW meetings with purple heart license plates, and she seemed remarkably resilient.
Speaker 8I liked her story that she was a survivor and that she served as a beacon of hope for other veterans who could have been in that same place.
Speaker 1When folks actually talked to Sarah, she was relatable, even to the other veterans, the old school guys.
Speaker 8She could talk to these other veterans and the other veterans were like, Okay, yeah, I'm going to put aside all these other aspects that I may not agree with about her sexual preference, but I'm going to recognize that she served.
Speaker 5A few months after she joined the VFW, Sarah got engaged to a woman named Nicole.
Nicole was originally from New Mexico.
She was very sporty and avid hiker, played softball, love the beach.
The two of them seemed like a great match, and of course Sarah's veteran buddies rally to celebrate.
Speaker 8I think she asked me to organize the bachelorette party.
To be honest with you, sometimes I can be a little gregarious.
So it goes with the Yeah, it goes with a hand of all mastas.
So what we did was we first met at a German American club up in Battucket.
Had a couple of beers there.
Speaker 5Dave invited a bunch of VFW members, including an old Vietnam vet.
They all enjoyed a few bruskies together.
Speaker 8And then we went down to Providence.
We got a hotel suite, we did some shots, and then we all put two twos on.
Speaker 5Just because you added toude two on.
Speaker 8Yes I did, because you're just sort of you're a big dude.
Yes I am.
Speaker 5And for the record, these were rainbow colored two twos.
Once they were all two tuned up, it was picture time.
Speaker 8So outside of the hotel, we all posed like army men, you know, like one person's on their knees and one person's like pointing and everything else.
So we all pose like army green men.
Then we went to a hollo at the moon type bar where the dueling pianos and we were all singing songs.
And then we all went uh to a gay bar.
Speaker 5And there it was a modern day VFW celebrating in two twos.
It was the sort of VFW that Dave had envisioned, and it seemed that Sarah had played a key role in making it happen.
And the real proof of this, the crowning proof, was that a few years later, when Dave stepped down as commander of the post, it was Sarah who took over.
She became the next commander, and then she really was the poster child of Post one fifty two.
Speaker 1Inside the VFW, there was an understanding that the awards Sarah had won, the sacrifices she'd made were fundamentally about service, about doing her job, about having the backs of her fellow marines.
But in the civilian world, her acts of valor made her something of a hero for people who'd never seen a battlefield.
Heroes were the stuff of Hollywood movies.
People you praised and admired the certainly weren't people whose credentials you questioned, And in the absence of that kind of scrutiny, Sarah could truly be that storybook hero, the perfect blend of valor, tragedy, and triumph.
MAT's who Sarah was at her gym place called Training for Warriors in Rhode Island.
We're going to take a deep dive here into the world of her gym because if you've been wondering why would Sarah do any of this, why would she take such risks?
What was in it for her?
Well, the story of her JIM offers some very interesting answers.
One afternoon last fall, I sat down with one of the jim's most passionate members.
Speaker 3My name is Michelle and from East Greenwich, Rhode Island, and I teach fitness class.
Speaker 1Do you have a favorite class to teach?
Speaker 9Oh?
Speaker 3Yeah, the boot camps by far, slam the rope, slam the balls.
Get that aggression out.
Speaker 8Yeah.
Speaker 1Michelle is in her early sixties with spiky blonde hair.
She reminds me a lot of the moms from where I grew up outside of Boston.
When you first meet her, her attitude is kind of, what the hell do you want?
Then she'll invite you into her home and make you a peanut butter ball and you're in.
Speaker 5Michelle and Sarah met at the gym.
Sarah presented herself as a veteran, unemployed and struggling with some injuries.
There were even a few times that Sarah wore these clunky hearing aids that looked like they were from the nineteen eighties because she was partially deaf, or so she claimed to Michelle.
One day, Sarah was getting ready to start her workout, Michelle noticed that Sarah's sneakers were untied.
Speaker 3And I was like, oh, your shoes are untied, and so She's like, oh, I can't.
I'm not able to tie them, and I uncle, sit down.
We're tying those bad boys up.
Speaker 5So Michelle's words, she became the primary shoe tire.
On many occasions, Michelle got down on her hands and knees just tied Sarah's shoes because Sarah didn't have the dexterity in her fingers to do it herself.
Speaker 3I just looked at her and said, well, just because you ask for help doesn't mean you're helpless.
Like ask for someone to help you don't be silly.
And that's sort of the way I live my life.
You just do you.
If you want help, ask for it.
If you don't want help, don't ask for it.
And if you tell me to keep a secret, I'm going to keep a secret.
Speaker 5Sarah would eventually tell Michelle a great many secrets about herself and her tragic past, secrets that would draw Michelle deep into Sarah's world.
Speaker 1Michelle, along with other members of the gym, came to believe that Sarah was suffering from PTSD.
Some days, out of nowhere, she'd drop into the fetal position.
Once, when someone was taking pictures, Sarah was triggered.
She told Michelle, you see a camera, I see a gun.
Michelle stepped in and asked the person taking the pictures to move.
This kind of thing.
It became a habit for Michelle.
Speaker 3We would kind of quietly make sure that when she was in our environment at the gym, she was protected.
Speaker 1Sarah had other triggers too.
Any surprises or loud noises could make her jump literally, which is a real symptom of PTSD for vets and for Sarah.
Kids were also a problem.
Yeah, kids.
She told Michelle that she avoided them, and there was a reason.
Speaker 3She had told me that she had shot and killed a twelve year old boy that was the enemy, and she felt she had a lot of guilt related to that and a lot of trauma related to that, where she would wake up picturing herself shooting that young man and just reliving that episode over and over again.
Speaker 1At this point in the interview with Michelle, my jaw was on the floor because, of course, this isn't true.
It's another fictional story Sarah told.
But of all the lies I'd heard Sarah tell, that one stands out.
If Sarah was going to make something up about killing someone in combat, why say it was a child.
It just seems so bizarre, the kind of thing that would actually put people off from her.
But maybe it's because it's the kind of story that really does not invite questions.
Michelle grew attached to Sarah and their friendship really deepened as they started spending time together outside of the gym.
They'd go for weekly walks in the woods and meet for crapes.
In those moments, Sarah opened up even more about her past.
She said she'd been hit by an ied blast in Iraq, that she developed a traumatic brain injury and damaged her lungs.
All of this came out piece by piece, one walk at a time, and despite all she was facing, Sarah remained resilient, upbeat.
Even her nickname at the gym was actually Sunshine.
Speaker 3She was very likable, she was very charismatic, and then on top of it, she was a veteran and badass and had these injuries and she was coming back from them.
Speaker 1But a few years into Sarah and Michelle's friendship, Sarah's health took a decisive turn for the worse.
During their walks in the woods, she couldn't catch her breath.
Sometimes she'd need to stop altogether, and one day Sarah tell Michelle why.
Speaker 3She's like, well, I found out why I'm short of breath.
I have terminal cancer.
I have burn pit cancer, lung cancer.
So now I'm thinking, shoot, she has no depth perception.
She's deaf in one ear, she has tactile deficiencies, she has steel plates in her shoulders, she's got a rod in her leg, she's got PTSD, and now she's got burn pit cancer.
I'm like, how much more can one person handle in their life?
Speaker 1The jim rallied to help Sarah.
They raised thousands of dollars.
They cooked her meals and peanut butter balls.
One couple even got her brand new hearing aids.
Whatever Sarah said she needed, the gym community tried to give it to her.
Speaker 5And all of this was more than just a pet charity.
Was a moment that seemed to clarify what this community was all about.
It wasn't just someplace where you did burn bees and crunches.
It was a place where people showed up each day with and for one another, a place where when someone was struggling a hero, someone who'd served and suffered and still mustered a little bit of sunshine, then damn it, you did something about it.
You rallied, not just because it was the right thing to do, but because it was an affirmation of who this community was.
It almost seemed like Sarah, with her needs, provided something that the gym itself needed to.
Speaker 1The gym buddies showered Sarah with many gifts, and perhaps the greatest of these was a wedding.
Here's how it went down.
Sarah toraal people at the gym that she was engaged to Nicole, and their main problem was that they couldn't find a wedding venue.
But there was this couple from the gym, Kate and Mark Feudy.
They're in their mid fifties.
Both had worked at Duncan Donuts headquarters where they met and fell in love.
That's a New Englander's dream, if you ask me.
They often took Sarah out for dinner, let her use their pool as part of her physical therapy.
It became really close, almost like a set of surrogate parents.
Kate and Mark also have a place up in Vermont.
Kate told us that one day Sarah just kind of dropped the hint, told them, well.
Speaker 9We want to get married.
We just we can't afford it, but we really want.
And she almost like it's almost like she.
Speaker 2Knew that we had.
Speaker 9We said, well, you know, if you're willing to go to the Northeast Kingdom, we could see what we could do.
You know, if you wanted to have a wedding, a backyard wedding, you know, a small backyard wedding.
Speaker 2We have a place up there.
Speaker 1They're underselling it, but it's Orgi's farmhouse, originally built in eighteen fifty one, kind of classic Vermont charm.
Speaker 2I said to them, I'm like, we have so much like farmhouse.
Speaker 9To core, I go, you should just don't waste money on anything for the wedding.
Speaker 2Just use stuff from around the house.
You know.
Speaker 1So problem solved, right, Sarah Nicole now had a picture perfect venue for free.
But for Sarah, there was actually a potential for disaster still lurking.
In an act of true boldness, Sarah had created a guest list that included both people who believed her to be a war hero and people who knew damn well that she wasn't one.
You had her buddies from the gym and the VFW, and then you had people like her own parents who knew she'd never served a day in her life.
And if people started mingling and chatting, as wedding guests tend to do, Sarah's lie would quickly be Sarah's saving grace.
Her insurance policy if you will, hinged on yet another lie, which she'd set in motion months before.
Speaker 5It all started.
One night, when Sarah arrived unannounced at Kate and Mark's house.
Speaker 9She showed up in a panic at our house, you know, knocked on the door.
Speaker 2I let her in.
I was like, what's up, Oh my gosh, what are you doing?
Speaker 9You know I needed to just stop by because I just bought my paperwork in the mail.
Speaker 2Do you guys want to read it?
Speaker 5The paperwork, which she hands to them, looks like an official military document with Sarah's account of a sexual assault that Sarah claimed happened while she was in the military.
According to Sarah, the military had covered up the whole thing and punished Sarah for it.
Now she had the paperwork detailing the whole ordeal, and it was clear that Sarah wanted them to read it right then and there.
Kate didn't know what to say.
Speaker 9I said, I go, oh, Sarah, I'm like, that's really private, you know, I'm not I don't know, and she goes, well, you know, I can't talk to my mom about any of this stuff because she can't handle it.
She just can't handle any of this stuff.
Kate and I know you guys can handle it.
Speaker 5Mark and Kate thought it was odd that Sarah was sharing this paperwork with them.
They hadn't asked for corroboration, but they felt Sarah's need to have someone be with her in this moment.
So Kate sits with Sarah on the couch as Mark reads the report.
Here's Mark, I couldn't believe what I was reading.
What this guy did to her and how he beat her to the point where she was passed out, crushed her face, her cheekbones.
I mean, it was it was horrific.
And did I believe it?
Of course I believed.
Speaker 10I was reading it, and she's sharing this with me, so of course I believed it.
Speaker 8You know.
Speaker 10It was just it was very emotional to know that this woman who's sitting right here has gone through this horrific event in her life.
I could cry thinking about it right now.
Speaker 5As the wedding date approached, Sarah pulled Mark and Kate aside and asked them for a favor.
Speaker 9Would you guys mind not mention mention anything about the military at all to my parents?
She was very specific, I don't want it to ruin ruin my day.
Speaker 5Mark and Kate they understood why Sarah had made this request.
They both remembered so vividly that night when Sarah showed up at their door when she showed them the paperwork with all the details about the sexual assault and how she was sharing it with them because her own family couldn't deal with it.
According to Sarah, that whole incident was still extremely traumatic for her parents, so much so that any mention of the military at all would upset them.
Speaker 9Sarah explained, they don't like to talk about it, and if you don't mind, please don't mention anything.
Speaker 5Sarah quietly made a similar request to others as well.
She both decided Dave her buddy from the VFW, the guy with the handlebar mustache.
She mentioned that her father was a former general, and then she warned.
Speaker 8Whatever you do, don't talk to my dad about my service because it's a source object.
And I want to have the wedding nice and go well.
I don't want any drama.
Speaker 1They have their wedding.
Mark and Kate played the role of wedding coordinators.
Basically, Mark actually cut down a birch tree so he could build a pergola for Sarah and Nicole to get married under.
They set up the benches in the backyard and draped tool over the pergola as an altar.
The wedding colors were blue and gold, the Marine Corps colors.
The veterans might appreciate this understated touch, but it wouldn't tip off anyone else.
And there were sunflowers Sarah's favorite in maple syrup buckets along the else And sure, people talked and chatted and joked and laughed like they do at weddings when things start to get rowdy.
But somehow Sarah's world stayed separate, or just separate enough that her lives held.
And if this seems hard to believe, it is this moment, this wedding was something that Jake and I were both obsessed with.
How was it that no one's drunk uncle asked Sarah about her time in Iraq, That no cousins started chatting too much to the VFW guys and figured out Sarah's charade?
But none of this happened.
It was a pretty perfect summer wedding.
Sarah emerged from it unscathed.
She lived those two lives for another three and a half years until January up twenty twenty two.
That's when charity started getting suspicious of Sarah's claims and reached out to the authorities to investigate.
Rumors started circulating that Sarah was an impostor.
Word quickly got back to Dave that the commander of his VFW post might be a fraud, and right away Dave picks up the phone.
Speaker 8I contacted Sarah and I said, Hey, what's going on, Like I'm hearing this and she says, yes, some people are coming after me.
And then she started crying and she's like, whatever you do, don't believe them that they're trying to mar or you know, disparage me or do whatever.
I'm like, well, okay, is there anything you need, Like can we help out?
And she says no, just uh, don't worry about it.
I'm dealing with it.
Speaker 1But the rumors kept going online.
There was chatter people speculating questioning Sarah's credentials started to snowball.
Speaker 5As all of this was unfolding.
Initially, Dave wasn't too worried because.
Speaker 8I have the proof that says she's a service member.
Speaker 5And that proof was the DD two fourteen, Sarah's discharge papers from the military, the document that Sarah first presented to Dave.
At the parade six years earlier when she first joined his VFW post, and now after hearing these rumors in this story from Sarah, Dave is like.
Speaker 8Hmm, I don't know what's going on, so I'm going to get this proof.
And then so I call up the person a records keeper, and I say, hey, I need a copy of her DD form two fourteen.
He said, oh, she just left my house two hours ago.
She came here to the house to come get it.
Speaker 5What's your reaction When he says that to you.
Speaker 8That's when I start thinking something's not right here.
Speaker 5Definitely not right.
And Dave's proof had just vanished because apparently Sarah was one step ahead of him.
Speaker 7Next time on Deep Cover, I've always been told I'm a really good listener, right, and I maximized that while I was lying right people, when you create space, people fill that space.
Speaker 5Deep Cover The Truth About Sarah was produced by Amy Gaines McQuaid and Tolly Emlin, additional production support by Sonya Gerwood.
Speaker 1Our show is edited by Karen Chakerjee.
Our executive producer is Jacob Smith, mastering by Jake Gorsky.
Speaker 5Original scoring in our theme were composed by Luis Gara.
Our show art was designed by Sean Carney, fact checking by Anica Robbins.
Speaker 1Special thanks to Sarah Nix, Izzy Carter, Daphne Chen, Jake Flanagan and Greta Cohne.
Additional thanks to Vicky Merrick, I'm Jess McHugh and I'm Jake Halpern
