[SPEAKER_00]: Hello, hello, everybody.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm Lexi Lombardos, the Lexi podcast.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm feeling mentally stable.

[SPEAKER_00]: I feel a lot more relief than I have in several weeks.

[SPEAKER_00]: I had a hard June.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was a weird and funky June.

[SPEAKER_00]: And July, I was sort of crawling out of it where I had [SPEAKER_00]: an amazing spring.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was traveling.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was on full adventure mode, which is my favorite mode to be in.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then when that came to an end, I was feeling so inspired.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me clean out my life.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me do some massive deep cleaning, some massive amounts of decluttering, which is why I had an episode and a YouTube video all about how to declutter if you're sentimental.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was ready to get myself [SPEAKER_00]: To the amount of belongings I could live with and nothing more so that way if I wanted to move to Australia I wanted to move to New Zealand I wanted to move to Europe I could be good to go and then I sort of had the post travel blues for June and my roommate I lived with one of my best friends She was gone traveling and I think it just made me feel really lonely because I had come off this [SPEAKER_00]: long trip where I was with people, twenty four seven and with quality people, twenty four seven.

[SPEAKER_00]: You know, the type of people that energize you and there was not a single energy vampire that I was spending any time with.

[SPEAKER_00]: So my cup was feeling incredibly full and I wanted to pour that cup into [SPEAKER_00]: everything and all of a sudden it felt like the cup was just taken away.

[SPEAKER_00]: And suddenly I was like, I thought I had so much to give.

[SPEAKER_00]: Now I feel depleted.

[SPEAKER_00]: I feel scared and I feel lonely.

[SPEAKER_00]: Where's my cup?

[SPEAKER_00]: Not like I need help, but like I'm lost.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm so confused.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I also made an episode.

[SPEAKER_00]: I believe recently.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like when you're doing everything right, but still feel lost.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was grieving.

[SPEAKER_00]: The whole, I don't know the political shift that has happened.

[SPEAKER_00]: LA has also had a really hard year.

[SPEAKER_00]: It began the year catching on fire.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then we had the ice rate.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's just been a hard time.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then there was this tsunami morning, which are going to, of how that mildly affected me.

[SPEAKER_00]: Um, it where I hated how that sounded.

[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't, I didn't mean it like that.

[SPEAKER_00]: It'll make sense in a second.

[SPEAKER_00]: Not like, oh, poor me.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, I was also sort of impacted by that.

[SPEAKER_00]: My point is that I'm feeling nice.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just came back from a week vacation and it was my first vacation of the summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: It felt really nice to take some time away from home again and now I'm back in LA and I feel pretty good.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm going to take off again.

[SPEAKER_00]: I got the travel bug as soon as I can get on a flight and land and realize that I can be so comfortable and exist just out of a suitcase, at least for a short period of time.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm so ready to get back into it.

[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't seen my family.

[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't been to the East Coast.

[SPEAKER_00]: I haven't been to New York.

[SPEAKER_00]: I want to do that.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just spent the last week in Hawaii.

[SPEAKER_00]: And this was for a friend's birthday.

[SPEAKER_00]: She was starting there on a work trip and then it overlapped with her birthday.

[SPEAKER_00]: So she invited there were five of us that went.

[SPEAKER_00]: So it was a group of six of us in a while who had a resort relaxing and it was girls.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just I love girls.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love girls so much coming off of a week of just spending time with girls.

[SPEAKER_00]: Heels me in such a way.

[SPEAKER_00]: that only women can.

[SPEAKER_00]: This energy only comes only exists when you're surrounded by a ton of women and it's so special and it's so sexy and it's so girly and it's totally and it's glittery and it's sparkly and it's I love femininity I love it so much and I feel relaxed I think whenever I'm in a spot feeling lost [SPEAKER_00]: I feel a massive over-correction.

[SPEAKER_00]: I, how I'm becoming a millionaire in two years, not about idea, like, more power to me, but it was no, no accident that I'm feeling so adventurous and then I come back and I'm feeling sentimental and I feel the need to start a new chapter.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm clearing things out and then I'm trying to learn and I started taking up just a little bit of some introduction to learning AI and how this is all going to exist because it's here.

[SPEAKER_00]: so that I had the is chat embarrassing or is it justified America is not acting very sexy how I'm becoming a millionaire in two years how to quit doom scrolling that was because my dopamine was probably so depleted and when you're spending more time alone than usual I think it's so easy for someone like me that [SPEAKER_00]: thrives on socialization to seek it more quickly if I'm not in person with anyone over my phone and my screen time went up and whatever.

[SPEAKER_00]: Then when you're doing everything right and still feel lost, I can see it in the titles I was scrolling through my Patreon.

[SPEAKER_00]: like having a midlife crisis at the park or a quarter of life crisis, I should say.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not, knock on glass, say my ass.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not in my midlife.

[SPEAKER_00]: I also had the future is scaring me.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can scroll through and you can see.

[SPEAKER_00]: And it's been fine.

[SPEAKER_00]: I wasn't in.

[SPEAKER_00]: I wouldn't say like my mental health was even really affected.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was just a general, a little bit of a gloom, a little bit of a lost feeling.

[SPEAKER_00]: And this week, I can't even lie when I was getting ready for the vacation.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was so excited, but I was a little nervous.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was like, what is?

[SPEAKER_00]: What if I just still feel this way?

[SPEAKER_00]: When I'm there, which no, I don't even know if that's fully true.

[SPEAKER_00]: But God's so why?

[SPEAKER_00]: And I shared my room with two girlies, and it was so fun to wake up.

[SPEAKER_00]: and have like four outfit changes in a day and share jewelry and shoes and I don't know, dresses, the whole thing, it's so fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so much fun to go on a big girls trip and it's made, I don't know, I've also been feeling incredibly magical on a quick switch right now.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think I have a direct line with God at the moment.

[SPEAKER_00]: He, she, they, beyond human, obviously, [SPEAKER_00]: You know, pronouns are just easier for communication purposes.

[SPEAKER_00]: I digress.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have a direct line with God.

[SPEAKER_00]: Every prayer I've prayed answered almost instantaneously recently.

[SPEAKER_00]: So the point of, okay, who else has a prayer?

[SPEAKER_00]: Because I feel like my prayers have been answered so quickly that it's getting to the point where I'm asking friends, do you have something you want me to pray on?

[SPEAKER_00]: Because I have a direct line to God and I think I can get this sorted out pretty quickly.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's been miracle after miracle after miracle.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm just looking up consistently saying thank you what the heck thank you that was amazing that was more than I could have ever dreamed of over and over and over again to the point of as I said I'm out sourcing who needs a prayer send me your prayer.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'll pray on it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, that's been where I'm at [SPEAKER_00]: I just had a really good workout.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've decreased my alcohol intake.

[SPEAKER_00]: And let me tell you, I don't know if it's visually, I feel more appealing.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like I feel prettier in the mirror when I'm not drinking alcohol.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't know what that's because, and also I haven't cut out alcohol.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm still drinking alcohol, but I'm drinking considerably less, like maybe a beer once a week.

[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe, even in Hawaii.

[SPEAKER_00]: We had a lounge that had free alcohol.

[SPEAKER_00]: I had maybe three steps of an espresso martini, maybe half a glass of wine, the entire trip.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was just not what I was interested in, which surprised me, but I left that trip feeling really good.

[SPEAKER_00]: I feel healthier.

[SPEAKER_00]: I feel visually healthier and I feel physically healthier.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I've been back in my workout grind.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know why, but I randomly have been getting ten thousand steps almost every single day, which I'm always a walker, but oh my god, if I'm ever walking with someone else, then it's twenty thousand.

[SPEAKER_00]: I can walk forever.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like nothing will stop me when it was in New York, when I was in New York.

[SPEAKER_00]: When I was saying it, I met my walking habit.

[SPEAKER_00]: Eighty five blocks, who cares?

[SPEAKER_00]: Upper West Side to Lower East Side.

[SPEAKER_00]: Okay.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've got nothing on the docket today.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's a Sunday.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let's do it.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me walk through the park.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me walk through Midtown.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me walk.

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh my god, the Midtown shooting.

[SPEAKER_00]: What is tragedy?

[SPEAKER_00]: How scary is that?

[SPEAKER_00]: I think I may have been on there's it's always weird if you're not in your regular routine when tragedy strikes because you almost feel like it.

[SPEAKER_00]: You miss it and then you have to come back and [SPEAKER_00]: ask people like what what what what what what was going on what's happening with all of that there was something else that was similar to that that I'm missing but while I was in Hawaii there was a tsunami warning everyone just started to get these amber alert sounds on their phone that night [SPEAKER_00]: a tsunami warning was put in place because there was an eight point seven level earthquake in Russia and it was going to push the waves to us and then when I got back to LA which another miracle I was on the same flight or I was supposed to be on the same flight as my friends but Hawaiian Airlines ended up sponsoring my flight which was incredible and so exciting but my friends got stuck in Hawaii I was on the last flight out [SPEAKER_00]: And that's only because I would have been on their flight otherwise.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm, I'm at the airport knowing this morning is happening.

[SPEAKER_00]: We're probably boarding late afternoon.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm just like, right, people, let's pick up the pigs to be got to get an air.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let's, let's put our bags up quickly.

[SPEAKER_00]: Come on, Chuck, Chuck, we have a tsunami to miss because Hurricane, you don't want to be in the air, tornado, you don't want to be in the air.

[SPEAKER_00]: So tsunami, let's get as high as possible.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let's take off now, but by the time I landed in LA, there was also a tsunami warning in place, but my friends that got stuck are fine.

[SPEAKER_00]: They eventually made it back.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was a long journey for them, but it was also scary to wake up and they're still there.

[SPEAKER_00]: I hope they're okay because their flights were canceled.

[SPEAKER_00]: And so now I'm back home feeling good.

[SPEAKER_00]: I want to go to New York.

[SPEAKER_00]: My friends throwing this amazing event.

[SPEAKER_00]: She started throwing murder mystery parties, but she is beyond a jack of all trades.

[SPEAKER_00]: I would say she's a master of all trades.

[SPEAKER_00]: She can write, she can sing, she can model, she can take photo, she's a visionary, she's a true creative in all forms, and she's been writing plays, and then performing them as murder mystery parties.

[SPEAKER_00]: And she's having one on Friday, so I have to go.

[SPEAKER_00]: She was begging me to go to the one a couple weeks ago, but I couldn't make it.

[SPEAKER_00]: So this time I said, okay, I'll come.

[SPEAKER_00]: I miss Helen Ann.

[SPEAKER_00]: I miss Jesus.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm really excited to see them.

[SPEAKER_00]: Thankfully, John now lives.

[SPEAKER_00]: in my neighborhood.

[SPEAKER_00]: John lives down the street for me.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so nice.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I get to see him in Josh and Madzie all the time.

[SPEAKER_00]: I still have my home girls in New York that and born as I don't think I said that but she's the one hosting the party.

[SPEAKER_00]: So it should be [SPEAKER_00]: Really nice and Ella lives in New York now.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have so many friends that are there right now.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I haven't gone to have my summer nights in New York.

[SPEAKER_00]: I want to be feeling a little sticky, a little sweaty, a little humid coming out of dinner.

[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe go out dancing.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's what I'm looking forward to.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's what I want.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then if I'm feeling quite off for it, I might make my way down south and go see family.

[SPEAKER_00]: We shall see.

[SPEAKER_00]: I had a meeting with my podcast network yesterday and they're insist, no, insisting that's so not fair and that takes any sort of accountability away from me as if I don't have autonomy over these decisions.

[SPEAKER_00]: But they're helping me come up with a three-month plan just to sharpen sharpening the edges of the show, just to get it a little bit more out there.

[SPEAKER_00]: grow in a positive direction because I have a skeleton crew.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have OGs.

[SPEAKER_00]: You guys have been here in the whole time and I posted on my story yesterday that I was feeling a little overwhelmed after this meeting because I'm a one-man show.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just recently took up an editor.

[SPEAKER_00]: So outsourcing is completely new for me and is scary, you know, but at the same time I'm not capable of [SPEAKER_00]: doing every job so it's great to outsource but I had this meeting and they were brainstorming different ideas with me and some of them just seemed way too big for me to do as a single person but I want to do them and I left the meeting feeling a bit overwhelmed so I got on my story and just said do you ever feel like you don't want to make decisions for yourself because it's so great to be the leader of your own life and I'm so glad that I was born in [SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes I do wish that someone could just take my hand and say, don't worry, I'll lead you right now.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can follow.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can follow with me as long as you want.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then when you're ready, you can go your own way.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's what I wanted.

[SPEAKER_00]: And someone responded that it was relevant to some journal entry that I had nearly seven years ago.

[SPEAKER_00]: is sometimes in twenty eighteen so very well could have been more than seven years ago actually and I read it and other people started sending me messages about old things I've said old journal entries I posted and there was something so sweet I haven't had that much fun in the DMs in ages [SPEAKER_00]: And I don't know why I don't bring back the past more.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm always thinking in the present moment.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not a very nostalgic person, but I really have been on the internet for so long.

[SPEAKER_00]: And to me, twenty eighteen is is like newer internet.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like that doesn't even feel that long ago.

[SPEAKER_00]: So the fact that that seven years ago when I have some people that have known me for fifteen years I ran into a girl in Hawaii that worked for Cirque du Soleil invited me to a show she's like I grew up watching you and he's like when I was I don't know probably a tween or something and that's oh it's so special it's so special it like tickles my heart it makes my heart feel warm and melty but also really strong and full and [SPEAKER_00]: Oh, it's sweet.

[SPEAKER_00]: As I said, I haven't had that much fun in the DMs.

[SPEAKER_00]: Way more fun than having a reply guy, having girls, reference something I said years ago that helped them, exceeds, even though don't get me wrong.

[SPEAKER_00]: Having a crush, nothing better.

[SPEAKER_00]: Now that the crush is necessarily the reply guy, oftentimes it's not.

[SPEAKER_00]: Ugh, I saw some video.

[SPEAKER_00]: I need to find it of this girl talking about if we women could channel the obsessive energy that we get from having a crush into a creative project.

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, imagine.

[SPEAKER_00]: Imagine if you could be that obsessed checking your project constantly, brainstorming ideas constantly, going to sleep thinking about your project.

[SPEAKER_00]: what a beautiful artistic piece that would be.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'd love to do that.

[SPEAKER_00]: Need to marinate on it a bit more.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah.

[SPEAKER_00]: I also saw another girl in the internet that started following her creativity in a way that it didn't need to be for anything, which is a reminder, especially in the the day of side hustles where we're always just trying to be like, maybe this could be something that I do on the side, but [SPEAKER_00]: Following desires, creative desires, for nothing other than why not.

[SPEAKER_00]: She felt like making little digital stickers of cartoons that she liked.

[SPEAKER_00]: Did that.

[SPEAKER_00]: She wanted to paint a door.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think did that.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't remember this specific examples, but I think of those things for myself where I would love to make this little wooden.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's not even a side table.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's something.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's like a chunk of wood.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think Floyd makes it.

[SPEAKER_00]: that you can set on your bed and you can use as a, it's bigger than a coaster and smaller than the side table.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's almost like an enormous coaster.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think magazine sized coaster, but it's wood and it's thicker.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, I think coffee table book size actually made of wood.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've wanted to make something like that.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was painting magnets for a while, that was fun, but then I painted them all.

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, I always write my journal, but I'm thinking even more, I'd love to get air clay and make a little spoon holder for my kitchen.

[SPEAKER_00]: I actually had a friend, Jenny, who made me a couple spoon holders while she was doing pottery.

[SPEAKER_00]: Entire a broke one of them.

[SPEAKER_00]: I know I was an accent, but that was homemade.

[SPEAKER_00]: Thank God she made too.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know why she made me too, but thankfully she did almost felt like that feels like a little.

[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know what incentivized turn to make too, but now I'm so glad that if one broke I still still have it because it's not like you can just ask someone, hey, could you do that again?

[SPEAKER_00]: Could you do that again?

[SPEAKER_00]: I've really been enjoying making people birthday cards with my acrylic markers and decorating bags and decorating birthday gifts.

[SPEAKER_00]: I got stamps and wrapping paper and like craft brown wrapping paper to just make the gift experience fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was feeling really fun about videos last summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: Just making videos outside of YouTube and I started posting them on Patreon, which is not necessarily like just for myself, but it was because [SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes if a video didn't feel worthy of you too, we're a felt like a little random where it wouldn't have a proper title.

[SPEAKER_00]: I remember to this day, I regret not even looking through the footage.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was finding so many interesting pieces of trash on ninth street, which was an old street that you still live on.

[SPEAKER_00]: in New York and I had video clips of all these different pieces of trash and I so badly wanted to have a short video of trash on ninth street and I thought no one's gonna watch that don't do that and I think I just deleted all the clips [SPEAKER_00]: I have faith that maybe one memory card one day I'll find them because I can't imagine I actually deleted them.

[SPEAKER_00]: There's a fifty fifty shot but two cares of no one watches it.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's for me.

[SPEAKER_00]: But especially in the age of social media to make something.

[SPEAKER_00]: as accessible as a video and not posted somewhere, feels like what's the point?

[SPEAKER_00]: What's the point?

[SPEAKER_00]: But that's also probably my brain being warped by being on YouTube for over a decade and a half.

[SPEAKER_00]: So that's just something.

[SPEAKER_00]: But feeling creative, feeling calm, feeling feminine, feeling bubbly, excited, and I'm happy with that.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have a lot of gratitude for feeling like this right now because [SPEAKER_00]: I was searching for it and you can't search for it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Unfortunately, well, can you?

[SPEAKER_00]: It's a good question.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yes and no.

[SPEAKER_00]: Sorry, I'm really thinking I paused to think, can you?

[SPEAKER_00]: You can do things to help yourself, but sometimes time is all that will really bring you to where you want to be.

[SPEAKER_00]: So, yes and no.

[SPEAKER_00]: Anyway, on that note, I'm going to get into your questions.

[SPEAKER_00]: See what you guys are thinking about talking about.

[SPEAKER_00]: I ask on Instagram every single week, my handle is Lexi, LXIE.

[SPEAKER_00]: So we'll get into them, but first, a word from today's sponsors.

[SPEAKER_00]: Hannah wants to know, thoughts on the summer fling, worth it, how to know if it's anything more than a fling.

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, love a summer fling.

[SPEAKER_00]: Why not?

[SPEAKER_00]: It's summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's hot, people are traveling.

[SPEAKER_00]: I often feel like that's why there are summer flings because people are often out of town.

[SPEAKER_00]: You know, my friend being in Europe and having a little boyfriend, that might just be a summer fling because she doesn't actually live in Europe.

[SPEAKER_00]: She's just subletting for a couple months.

[SPEAKER_00]: it's so fun or you're even on like a short little week vacation and you you make I don't know friends of someone who becomes flirty and romantic why not I I say I'm absolutely all for it and then how to know if it's more than a fling I mean you guys can have that conversation when when the time comes for [SPEAKER_00]: I don't know if you're interested in more speak up, but it's fine to let it be whatever it is.

[SPEAKER_00]: And if that's just a fling, that's fine if it's more, more power to you.

[SPEAKER_00]: L.C.

[SPEAKER_00]: Valdea, that's totally not what your dream is.

[SPEAKER_00]: L.C.

[SPEAKER_00]: Valdevia?

[SPEAKER_00]: Do you care about how you're perceived?

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm, yeah, totally.

[SPEAKER_00]: But if I think about it, that'll make me [SPEAKER_00]: go crazy.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I can't think about it.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just have to block that out.

[SPEAKER_00]: I also feel I probably err on the side of saying more easily accepted things less controversial things because I don't want to have to deal with massive amounts of perception.

[SPEAKER_00]: The less controversial you are.

[SPEAKER_00]: the less attention you will have, the less attention you have, the less people will see it and you don't need to be criticized as much.

[SPEAKER_00]: I know some people love to rage bait and love to stir the pot just to get a rise out of people, but I err on the side of caution because I probably do care about how I'm perceived.

[SPEAKER_00]: Sam wants to know how to not let the job hunt crush your spirit.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think the way to not let the job hunt crush your spirit is to look for jobs you actually want.

[SPEAKER_00]: Something that would excite you.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think a lot of people are just desperate to get anything that they possibly can, but I would argue that there's a range of jobs with a range of income levels that could scratch an inch for you, whether that's being a corporate, body, or being a park ranger, you know, working, [SPEAKER_00]: There's so many fun summer jobs to working in a beach town, a lake town, just even as extra money because why not?

[SPEAKER_00]: It might be nice just to be outside being the sun.

[SPEAKER_00]: Sometimes we want just, it's so sad to me when people are like, oh, this take whatever marketing job I can get.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's like, oh, that's hard.

[SPEAKER_00]: Unless you love marketing, then that's awesome.

[SPEAKER_00]: Congratulations.

[SPEAKER_00]: But try to think of a variety of things that you would be interested in and work from there and also it doesn't have to be a traditional job.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like you could be a dog walker.

[SPEAKER_00]: You could be a hang on.

[SPEAKER_00]: Speaking of dogs, Spirin has been chilling outside in the sun, and I think he's hot and wants to come inside.

[SPEAKER_00]: Get creative with it, get creative with it, get your hopes up, get excited, but don't put all of your eggs in one basket.

[SPEAKER_00]: Shuntau wants new shows to watch any recommendations.

[SPEAKER_00]: If you have no watch hacks, [SPEAKER_00]: I love hacks.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love the dynamic between multi-generations, especially women.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love it.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's such sharp writing.

[SPEAKER_00]: The character development's great.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's funny.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's on HBO.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love it.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've been recommended, flea bag season two.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't even think I knew that there was a flea bag season two.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let's see if it's [SPEAKER_00]: actually new or if it's something that I just missed somewhere along the lines.

[SPEAKER_00]: We bag season two.

[SPEAKER_00]: Do you have to go party?

[SPEAKER_00]: All right.

[SPEAKER_00]: One second, guys, one moment.

[SPEAKER_00]: And we're back, ladies and gentlemen, girls, gays, thays.

[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, where was I?

[SPEAKER_00]: Questions.

[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, Shantel also wants to know, cheap ways to follow.

[SPEAKER_00]: Did I finish the question about shows to watch?

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, did I love hacks?

[SPEAKER_00]: I loved.

[SPEAKER_00]: I loved Love Island season seven, USA.

[SPEAKER_00]: Really took my life from me for several weeks.

[SPEAKER_00]: Show, they know what they're doing because that show is like drugs.

[SPEAKER_00]: The drama, the neon colors, the bright lights, it sucks you in.

[SPEAKER_00]: But at the same time, it's great human psyche evaluation.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's a crazy social experiment.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know.

[SPEAKER_00]: with that many eyes on you to talk about perception.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm sure there's a lot of very average people, just normal people that go on that show that are painted to be so much better or so much worse than they are, that would be incredibly hard.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've gotten some insights to go about it too, apparently they fly out a ton of people.

[SPEAKER_00]: In this case, it was in Fiji.

[SPEAKER_00]: and they just have them sitting in hotel rooms.

[SPEAKER_00]: And the bombshells that they pick and the cost some more girls like you don't know if you're even going to get selected.

[SPEAKER_00]: You don't know if you're going in as no G and you're just waiting in the hotel to be picked and you might not get picked and you might fly home or they might bring you in.

[SPEAKER_00]: They don't have clocks, so they don't know what time it is, they don't know what day it is, their phones, I think just give you access to getting the text from the show and then taking photos.

[SPEAKER_00]: Apparently also the challenges happen early in the morning.

[SPEAKER_00]: They're happening like four in the morning.

[SPEAKER_00]: Two in the morning, sometimes the night challenges will happen just because of, I don't exactly know why, but that also has to play into how exhausted you are, like no wonder people are [SPEAKER_00]: Acting crazy.

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, how could you not?

[SPEAKER_00]: But that show.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm like, if you, at this point, it's no longer showing.

[SPEAKER_00]: We already have the finale, but let's say you have a surgery.

[SPEAKER_00]: You have to be on bed rest for something that will hold your attention that show.

[SPEAKER_00]: I've never thought that way about it before.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was scary.

[SPEAKER_00]: how addicted to it I was.

[SPEAKER_00]: I would be out to dinner with friends and then notice that it was, you know, or maybe not out to dinner, but I'd be out with friends and I would see that it was almost six o'clock and I'd be like, okay, I have to go home or I'd be out to dinner with friends and haven't been home to watch the episode and I would be thinking about if they were thinking of going to the next place.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like, hmm, I think I'd rather go home and watch love island.

[SPEAKER_00]: Scary, scary.

[SPEAKER_00]: I can't watch too much TV though.

[SPEAKER_00]: TV kind of makes me depressed.

[SPEAKER_00]: I always watch YouTube, but hacks was great.

[SPEAKER_00]: Fleabags season one was great.

[SPEAKER_00]: What other shows I watch?

[SPEAKER_00]: I watch severance.

[SPEAKER_00]: I watch the white lotus.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm an HBO girl, I think.

[SPEAKER_00]: Except for love islands on peacock.

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh my god, imagine all the money that peacock made from that show.

[SPEAKER_00]: Because I certainly got a peacock account just for that show.

[SPEAKER_00]: But now, into the next question, Shantel also asked for cheap ways to frolic.

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, frolicing is nearly always free.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can fall like in any field.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can fall like on any hike.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can fall like in your room.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can fall like there's never a time and there's never a place that you wouldn't you could fall like in New York City.

[SPEAKER_00]: But I hear you.

[SPEAKER_00]: I hear you.

[SPEAKER_00]: Do I hear you?

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm like, what do you mean cheap ways to fall like?

[SPEAKER_00]: What are expensive ways to fall like?

[SPEAKER_00]: I mean, I guess if you want to go to task any or something, that could be a pretty expensive [SPEAKER_00]: You're probably also just generally asking for ways to make life feel more magical, life to feel more romantic.

[SPEAKER_00]: And to that, I say, slow your pace down.

[SPEAKER_00]: It is so easy.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't remember if I made this point fully in the beginning of this episode.

[SPEAKER_00]: But when I feel a tad lost, I feel a tad lonely.

[SPEAKER_00]: Instead of continuing to slow down, I tried to amp it up, like, let's drink.

[SPEAKER_00]: I was drinking crazy energy drinks, crazy amounts of caffeine just to get myself going.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like, let's get it done.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let's do this as an over-correction instead of just allowing myself to have a season.

[SPEAKER_00]: Whether it's summer or not, even summer girls get the blues to allow myself to be slow.

[SPEAKER_00]: Even normally I think we're going too fast.

[SPEAKER_00]: We are rushing things that don't need to be rushed.

[SPEAKER_00]: You shouldn't have to be rushing.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so much nicer when you're not when you can slowly open your corridor and you don't have to swing it open when you can class the leash on your dog gingerly and you can take your time on dog walks.

[SPEAKER_00]: And even with audiobooks, I've noticed that I'll start increasing the speed.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I mean, I always increase the speed a little bit because the default setting for audiobooks is quite slow, but sometimes they'll have it on two times speed.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I have to have a moment by myself, why?

[SPEAKER_00]: Why are we listening to this person?

[SPEAKER_00]: Talk at two times their normal speed for what?

[SPEAKER_00]: Why do I need to get this book finished so quickly?

[SPEAKER_00]: Who cares?

[SPEAKER_00]: Who cares?

[SPEAKER_00]: But I will say as a little side note, if you do want to increase the speed and you are very well aware of it, let's say you're listening at one point two.

[SPEAKER_00]: and you want to kick it up to one point five speed.

[SPEAKER_00]: A trick to make one point five not feel so fast is to go from one point two to like a higher speed like two times and then slowly bring it down, just tap the button and it tricks your ear and then one point five doesn't seem very fast at all.

[SPEAKER_00]: But besides that point.

[SPEAKER_00]: There's no reason I need to be listening to a book that fast.

[SPEAKER_00]: I also find, oh my Kindle, it will tell me how much time has left in the book.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm, like, subconsciously trying to make the time go lower and trying to make my speed, I don't know why I'm so competitive about it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like, let's get it done faster.

[SPEAKER_00]: You know what?

[SPEAKER_00]: No need.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's nice to just read a book at your normal pace.

[SPEAKER_00]: Instead of having to speed read through it, this is not a test.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm reading this book for fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: I am listening to this book for fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: I am taking Spoon on a walk for fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I understand there are certain times in life where it is go time.

[SPEAKER_00]: But if you're looking for ways for things to just feel a little bit more magical, I don't know that there also can be magic and go time.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling a little bit of a devil's advocate today for everything that I'm saying because two things can be true at the same time, two opposites can be true.

[SPEAKER_00]: But I do think it's more feminine to be slow, but it is fun to go fast.

[SPEAKER_00]: She waits to fall like though.

[SPEAKER_00]: Find your local park and you go their girl and instead of wearing athlete's shirt wear a dress, feels so much better.

[SPEAKER_00]: Life is so much better when you're not wearing athlete's shirt.

[SPEAKER_00]: Trinity wants to know exclusive versus dating.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have no, oh, okay.

[SPEAKER_00]: I thought you're going to say exclusive versus official.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know what the difference is.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think that's stupid.

[SPEAKER_00]: The only time that's maybe even slightly applicable is Love Island.

[SPEAKER_00]: But if someone asked me to be exclusive, I would assume that meant they want me to be their girlfriend.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know why there would be a second step.

[SPEAKER_00]: What would be the difference?

[SPEAKER_00]: Like dating, that's not exclusive.

[SPEAKER_00]: Dating, you're just going out with people, you're chatting, you're flirting, you're, you know, maybe you're seeing multiple other people, maybe you're not, but you could if you wanted to.

[SPEAKER_00]: You don't owe that person your exclusivity, but I don't know what the difference between me being someone's girlfriend and me just being exclusive to me.

[SPEAKER_00]: That would be synonymous.

[SPEAKER_00]: Today, you also want to know, can you be friends with an ex?

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know how to do that.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have friends that are in such good terms with their exes.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just simply haven't had a relationship in which we could be so close and then taking a step back would be enough for me.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think I would, I just would rather wish them well and keep our future live separated.

[SPEAKER_00]: But I know there's a slew of different relationships that's just never been me.

[SPEAKER_00]: So, can you maybe, can I?

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't think so.

[SPEAKER_00]: Neurish wants to know, favorite summer snack and drink combo.

[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know what a combo, but if you're in LA on Dante has this iced habiscus plum tea.

[SPEAKER_00]: It is so good.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's the perfect little summer treat when you're hot and you're on a walk and you just, you don't like caffeine, but you want to treat it's so good.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so good.

[SPEAKER_00]: Then treats, I mean, I especially enjoy, oh my god.

[SPEAKER_00]: I, I won't maybe be a little bit too heavy here on this, but I was having wine and cheese and tin fish and olives and a baguette multiple times a week.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love bread and butter and cheese and olives and tin fish.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just love it and I would accompany it with a glass of wine.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's the summer snack in drink combo.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's it.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so good.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's addictive.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's perfect.

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, I'm all here's once asked what's the Lexi summer outfit for the beginning of the summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: It was definitely tank top baggy long shorts and a boot, but then sometimes it's tank top booty shorts and a boot.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's normally a tank top shorts and a boot.

[SPEAKER_00]: Yeah, but I also love a mini skirt and kitten heels.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I also love a sweat pant and leather loafers.

[SPEAKER_00]: So honorable mentions to those.

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, Neon wants to know how to shake the funkiest funk.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's so annoying, especially in summer because, you know, I'm a summer girl.

[SPEAKER_00]: This is my time.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I weigh all year for summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm so excited for summer.

[SPEAKER_00]: So when I'm having the blues in summer, like, no, no, no, no, actually a lot of times I get the August blues.

[SPEAKER_00]: And June is normally my favorite month of summer, but, which I guess is he wanna get a technical summer isn't even most of June it's spring, but not in my head because I treat summer the way that summer existed in the school system, okay?

[SPEAKER_00]: And it's just been that way ever since.

[SPEAKER_00]: But June is normally [SPEAKER_00]: peak happiness for me.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm thriving.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm so excited.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's finally warm.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have energy.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have free time.

[SPEAKER_00]: I can go outside as much as possible.

[SPEAKER_00]: But I just had such a good spring.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then I was just lonely during June.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then July really kicked up.

[SPEAKER_00]: I had a lot of fun in July.

[SPEAKER_00]: I feel like Tyron, I really were.

[SPEAKER_00]: We made July a good one.

[SPEAKER_00]: And now I'm traveling for August.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm excited for that.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I don't think I'll have the same August blues that I had last year.

[SPEAKER_00]: But getting out of the funky as funk, I hear you, and this is why I was going back to it earlier of other things you can do to help yourself.

[SPEAKER_00]: Of course, I think it is a matter of doing you need to slow down or do you need to speed up and no judgment to yourself.

[SPEAKER_00]: Like no judgment to me and June, just thinking I needed to have a selfie as to exist because I'm like, [SPEAKER_00]: We got to do something.

[SPEAKER_00]: I need to feel amped.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have to feel excited and instead I would just feel anxious and scared.

[SPEAKER_00]: But you can do things like call your friends.

[SPEAKER_00]: Whenever I remember that I have a support system and I have a good chat with a friend.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love a FaceTime.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love a phone call if I can't see them in person.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then I remember that life is worth living every single time.

[SPEAKER_00]: It never gets old.

[SPEAKER_00]: So I would say how to get out of the funky as fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: Talk to some friends and change your scenery if you can.

[SPEAKER_00]: I relate to you.

[SPEAKER_00]: So as I said, I wait hang on.

[SPEAKER_00]: It's a three part question.

[SPEAKER_00]: Let me start from the beginning.

[SPEAKER_00]: Do you ever just feel like you can't sleep at night because you just want to be awake and experience life or am I crazy tips on how to stop this?

[SPEAKER_00]: I know my body needs to enjoy good moments, but sometimes I just want to be awake.

[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, I definitely have had errors of my life like this where I'm just having so much fun.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just want to be alive.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just want, why don't I have to stop?

[SPEAKER_00]: Why don't I have to slow down?

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm just so excited.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm on such a high level of love and then other times where I'm like, I think I need ten hours to sleep, please.

[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe a nap too, and because I've experienced both, I don't judge either one for existing because I know that both will happen again, and it's just the natural Emma flow of my body.

[SPEAKER_00]: It also has to do with hormones too, where you are just sometimes.

[SPEAKER_00]: a lot more energized.

[SPEAKER_00]: But I think that's not only not a problem, I think that's adorable.

[SPEAKER_00]: Favorite fashion designer, you know, I'm having a real appreciation for Ralph Lauren.

[SPEAKER_00]: I watched very Ralph on the plane the other day and I always forget that I really come [SPEAKER_00]: from Ralph Lauren roots.

[SPEAKER_00]: I come from a Ralph Lauren family.

[SPEAKER_00]: I have some country folks in my family, but I also have some Ralph Lauren folks in my family.

[SPEAKER_00]: And when I say country, I mean like country, not like like the countryside, but I also have some preppy Ralph Lauren folks and [SPEAKER_00]: watching that dog reminded me of just like my aunts and uncles and my dad and their different outfits and lullas house and it was something so sweet and so simple and so romantic and I'm having a really appreciation for Ralph Lauren right now.

[SPEAKER_00]: I think I wanted cooler things, you know, like when I was trying to escape my upbringing it's like [SPEAKER_00]: I'm not a Balenciaga girl, but I was like, I want Balenciaga.

[SPEAKER_00]: I want Rick Owens.

[SPEAKER_00]: That's not who I am.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just wanted to be different, you know?

[SPEAKER_00]: Little nuns, funny username, peaches and mangoes, mangoes.

[SPEAKER_00]: Grace wants to know ways to channel your divine feminine.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'll say it again.

[SPEAKER_00]: Speed.

[SPEAKER_00]: Slow down.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't just mean like generally do less in the day.

[SPEAKER_00]: You can do the same amount in the day.

[SPEAKER_00]: I just mean don't rush the experience.

[SPEAKER_00]: Pour the water into your tea slowly.

[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't just intake.

[SPEAKER_00]: No, it's sorry, sir.

[UNKNOWN]: Sorry.

[SPEAKER_00]: I slammed my hand on the couch out of emphasis and he was sleeping on my leg.

[SPEAKER_00]: Where was I?

[SPEAKER_00]: Like notice time because that's when time slows down.

[SPEAKER_00]: And you can still [SPEAKER_00]: Do all the things that you want to do in the day, but if you're aware of what you're doing as they're happening, time stretches.

[SPEAKER_00]: When you're noticing yourself brushing your teeth, don't just wish it away, like feel the toothbrush on your teeth.

[SPEAKER_00]: It makes the experience way more romantic.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then if you want more on the nose answers, of course, like wear pretty dresses and wear jewelry and wear pretty clothes and I don't know, do pretty things.

[SPEAKER_00]: I always feel like that makes me feel really feminine.

[SPEAKER_00]: I felt so feminine and why also just being more naked at summer, which just it feels so good to be in less close personally.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'm like, yes, I don't have to layer up.

[SPEAKER_00]: I love [SPEAKER_00]: a chance to layer for fashion purposes.

[SPEAKER_00]: But my soul is like, wow, we can just be in a key field so good.

[SPEAKER_00]: One of my cartoon characters for sure would be in a bikini with maybe a towel on her head.

[SPEAKER_00]: And another one of my cartoon character outfits would be a hotel bathroom with a towel on her head.

[SPEAKER_00]: And then another one would for sure be in a tank top mini shorts and boots and outside somewhere.

[SPEAKER_00]: Ugh, love.

[SPEAKER_00]: Sloan wants to know how to find hobbies.

[SPEAKER_00]: To entertain your curiosity, a hobby can be anything.

[SPEAKER_00]: The world is your oyster, baby, come touch the pearl, and entertain your curiosity.

[SPEAKER_00]: If you even have a slight interest in learning a cord on the guitar, go on Facebook, marketplace, see if anyone's getting ready to play.

[SPEAKER_00]: This recipe you think looks good that you saved on Instagram that you feel like you'll never try.

[SPEAKER_00]: Try it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Why not?

[SPEAKER_00]: You want to make a candle?

[SPEAKER_00]: Go for it.

[SPEAKER_00]: You want to paint a door?

[SPEAKER_00]: Go for it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Just entertain yourself.

[SPEAKER_00]: You feel like running as fast as you possibly can just to see how it feels.

[SPEAKER_00]: Go outside and do it.

[SPEAKER_00]: Honor them.

[SPEAKER_00]: And on that note, I feel like that's a fun note to finish the episode on.

[SPEAKER_00]: I do want to go into the details like the celebrity that I was hanging out with and [SPEAKER_00]: Hawaii, like some of the more juicy your stories, and I'll get to that for Patreon, but I did want to thank you all for listening if this is where I leave you.

[SPEAKER_00]: Patreon will start in a second, but for everyone else.

[SPEAKER_00]: Thank you so much.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'll have a wide vlog going up on my YouTube channel.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'll have that link down below.

[SPEAKER_00]: I'll have the Patreon link down below.

[SPEAKER_00]: And I'll be here talking to you on this show next week.

[SPEAKER_00]: Take care.

[SPEAKER_00]: Xoxo.

[SPEAKER_00]: Lexi.