On the morning of October twenty eighth, twenty eighteen, Saskia woke up in the same bed she always did.

It was the bed she'd shared with her husband for years.

She felt her regular cotton sheets around her, and she opened her eyes to the same white ceiling.

But this morning was different because the night before, Saskia had seen something.

I told myself, this is really important, and I need to remember anything that I can.

In the middle of the night, she awoke in a haze to find her husband on his laptop.

His face was a glow in the light of his screen.

What was on that screen, she knew would change her life forever.

I was so out of it.

It was like I was in a dream, but I also knew that this was really serious.

I told myself, you have to remember this.

I just knew, and I passed back out.

In the morning, she could still picture it.

Flashes of one image ran through her mind.

It was a window into a life her husband never planned for her to see.

And so I woke up feeling so scared, like petrified.

I didn't know what I was looking at, but I knew that he was doing something in secret.

It felt like I was in danger.

And I knew that I had to confirm him and find out what was going on.

That morning marked the end of a marriage of a family, but with that ending came a new dawn.

Saskia didn't know it at the time, but in climbing out of bed that morning, she was finally climbing out of the dark.

I told him I needed to talk to him.

I had his laptop and I told him what I had seen the night before.

I said, I need you to tell.

Me exactly what you're doing and I'm not going to tell the police if you totally come clean.

And immediately the mask came off.

I'm Andrea Gunning and this is Betrayal, Season five, Episode one in the Dark.

This season is about a crime our team had never heard of before, that is until we heard about it from a listener.

She was a woman in the Midwest, a mom.

Over the course of a few months and many phone calls, she told us the story of what happened to her and the crime she described horrified us.

We couldn't imagine how anyone could do something so cruel to someone they loved.

But then we heard from another listener, and another and another that mom in the Midwest wasn't alone.

Dozens of women were discovering the same thing.

The husbands they knew in the light of day were different people when the lights went out.

One of these women was Saskia Inwood.

That's a quick ride.

After getting to know Saskia over the last year, we drove down to visit her in Maryland.

She welcomed us into her home.

Today, Saskia has a full, beautiful life.

She's got a great job too, thriving kids, a house full of pets, friends who'd do anything for her.

But it was a long road to get here.

For a while, it was difficult to even leave her.

House, being around people that just had normal lives or happy relationships, or we're talking about I don't know what they bought at the store.

It just wasn't where I was at.

So it was easier for me to isolate and everything went dark for me.

Since that morning seven years ago, sask has overcome something unimaginable, a betrayal that threatened everything.

It was clear to me that miss Enwood was comatose, not asleep, but comatose, unconscious.

It was a betrayal that altered her sense of reality.

It shattered her ability to feel safe in her own home and even in her own body.

You pretended to support me through my uption.

Down Number one is putting on that.

You were using me by signing her marriage certificate.

Saskia had no idea all that she was signing away and that the man she was marrying would try to break her.

You're a dangerous person who prays on vulnerable and trusting people.

You reprivate or micro loving good.

On our trip down to Maryland, we spent a lot of time with Saskia's friends.

She's had the same group since elementary school.

For the most part, they haven't ventured far from home, which is Montgomery County, Maryland, about an hour outside of DC.

This group around Saskia, they are her people.

They've been there since day one.

When we asked her friends what they love most about Saskia, so many of them pointed to one thing.

Wow, you a laugh.

That is the most genuine, heartfelt laugh.

Her laugh alone cracks me up.

That's Melissa.

And here's another friend, Carrie.

She has this.

It's like not a cackle because it's beautiful.

She'll be like, I can't even do it, but I think I was close.

Though Saskia's got a great sense of humor, and when it comes to dating, she's always looked for the same in other people.

Here's Saskia.

I always liked someone, you know, just making jokes, someone fun, silly, goofy, don't like to talk about work when I'm not at work, that kind of stuff.

In her twenties, she liked guys with big laughs, big personalities, Guys who didn't take themselves too seriously.

But yeah, usually that came with not being the most responsible people in life.

Some of the men she dated were unemployed.

Others had a habit of getting into trouble.

I remember I had one boyfriend who was shoplifting when I was with him, and we both got in trouble, even though it wasn't childlifting.

He feelt terrible.

Was like, let her go home, and they were like no.

When she was twenty eight, she met the man who'd become the father of her kids.

We'll call him Chris.

We met at a jaw Works concert.

It's a reggae band.

Chris seemed a little more responsible.

He'd served in the army, but he was also the life of the party, just like the other guys from Saskia's past.

I thought he was really good looking and funny and silly, so we started dating and things went pretty.

Fast after that.

Within a year they decided to move in together.

And then literally two weeks after that, I found out that I was pregnant.

Saskia was thrilled.

At the time, she was a social worker in child welfare and she always knew that she wanted children of her own.

They had a girl, Alyssa.

Alyssa was the cutest baby in the world.

I'll have to show you, guys pictures.

You'll die.

She was so just chunky and so cute.

She and Chris wanted to make their little family official, and.

We took her a little stroller to the Justice of the Peace and we got married.

After that, they had another baby, a boy.

We were ecstatic.

We high fived in the sonogram room because it was the first boy on his side of the family.

And Alyssa loved her little brother.

She was always holding his hand and pulling in places.

Being a mom was a dream, But Saskia felt alone in her marriage after five years.

Chris just didn't feel like her person.

I felt like he didn't care about any of my needs or my wants.

I've always wanted love, and that wasn't it.

So she asked Chris for a divorce and.

He basically told me, you can leave.

He didn't fight for her, even though she had asked for the separation.

It wasn't easy.

They had a year's long custody battle.

It was a very, very painful, difficult divorce.

I felt very unsteady and scared during that period.

During this time, she leaned on her older sister Marisa.

Of all the women surrounding Saskia, all the people you'll hear from this season, Marisa is Saska's rock.

She drove Saskia to every one of our interviews and she sat in the next room while we talked, just so Saskia could feel her support.

Saska is my best friend over my lifetime.

She's been the one person that I can be myself around and say anything too.

And I feel like that's mutual.

When Saskia first moved out with Marisa, Marisa saw her sister cope with the separation.

She was fragile, you know, definitely wanted it to work and did not want to be moving on and becoming a single parent to two little kids.

I remember her crying a lot, but.

At the same time she was strong.

She got herself an apartment, she networked with her friends, she found her resilience.

I was really proud of her.

Here's soasky again.

I didn't wait very long after splitting up getting my own apartment before I started looking for somebody.

I definitely wish that I would have healed from.

My first marriage, but I think that there was just so much work to do that I had no idea I had to do that.

I felt like I would find the answers in another person.

Marisa could see how important it was to her sister to find a partner.

Companionship is part of what gives solus through tard times, you know what I mean, not social interaction and being loved by somebody.

It's like souvin so I feel like she's always wanted that in her life.

But Saskia knew if she wanted a real partner, she might have to go for something different, to look beyond her usual bad boys.

So my sister helped me make a profile a match.

Marisa pushed her to look for someone driven, established in their career.

I was encouraging her to be choosy.

She's always had professional careers, and she's always been really great at her job because of her empathy and her compassion and her you know, all of those strengths that she has.

Saska gave match her best shot.

She went on a few dates, but no one impressed her.

I was about to throw in the towel and just say I don't feel like doing us anymore.

And that's when she found Mike.

His pictures seemed really sweet.

There was one of them with a dog, which of course tugs at my heart, and then he had a picture of him with his two daughters.

He was in the midst of a divorce too.

He was a single parent, a girl dad, and he had a good job.

He worked for Bank of America.

He was a vice president of marketing.

Mike was the quintessential good guy, the safe choice, and safe was exactly what Saskia was looking for.

My wish in life was to have true love and to have someone to be a good step dad to my kids, and Mike seemed like the perfect guy.

Saskia was ready to give up on dating when one profile caught her eye.

Mike looked Jennle.

He was a girl dad with a kind smile and kind eyes.

So I think I waved winked whatever you do, and he responded back, and then we started communicating and he asked for a date pretty quickly.

The first date was casual.

They met at a.

Brewery and we were going to have a couple drinks at the.

Bar, but that night the bar was packed, so they sat us at the most uncomfortable, awkward twosome spot in the restaurant.

Immediately, one thing was clear the.

Type of person that I usually go for at all.

He was a little bit nerdy.

He had a glass of wine and he was like stirring his wine, which.

I thought was weird.

He talked a lot about his job and things like that.

Just wasn't as joky as I'm.

Used to Saskia.

Was used to guys who would crush a few beers in the first hour, guys who would have one eye on the game the whole date.

Mike in his button down shirt and skinny jeans swirling his wine was anything.

But I just kind of wanted to get through the date.

And I remember afterwards telling my sister like, he was nice, he's successful.

Everything on paper sounds good, but I'm not sure if it was there And I remember my sister saying, if he's not your usual type, that could be a good thing.

I actually encouraged her to go on a second date with him.

I said, some guys are more second date material.

Maybe him being timid on the first date means he's a regular guy, you know, not everybody has to be a huge personality off the gate.

Saskia gave him another shot, and in round two, Mike started to grow on her.

We were going to meet for a second date, and I think I had something come up with the kids.

So he suggested that we.

Have a phone date and grab a glass of wine and we can talk.

I'm not a phone person and it wasn't something that I thought that I would enjoy, but I thought it was really cute and endearing.

By their third date, they both were a little more at ease.

They got sushi, and the date went well enough that Saskia brought him out with her coworkers.

My friend was having a little birthday get together, and we drove over to the bar and everyone's just having fun drinking and taking shots.

And after the party, Saskia took my call.

He slept over.

In the morning.

We ended up being intimate and I was like, I can get with this.

I could do this.

He was in really good shape.

It felt like we had really good chemistry.

It wasn't wild, it wasn't crazy.

It just felt good.

She started to see Mike in a new light.

He made her feel safe and.

Comfortable, and then it just kind of picked up after that.

After a month of dating, it was time for Mike to meet Saski's friend group.

This wasn't an easy crowd to jump into, after all, they've known each other forever.

Here's another one of Saskia's friends, Bridget.

We just keep it real.

We've known each other so long that we're not going to sugarcoat anything.

If we see a red flag, we're going to be like, what are you doing?

You're an idiot, Like, let me.

Tell you what I see.

Bridget's a tough critic, and knowing all that Saskia had been through, she wasn't sure if she was going to like Mike.

When she just got out of this one marriage.

I was very protective and I thought the world of him.

I thought he was great, and I was like, finally, she deserves this, she deserves to be happy.

Here's another friend, Heather.

I liked him right away.

I thought he was really nice.

He seemed kind, he seemed gentle.

I just thought he was put together.

Marisa, Saska's sister, liked him too.

Normal.

Guy seems even keeled.

He's not overly showy trying to impress us.

He's being polite, he's being respectful.

Okay, you know, maybe this guy will work.

With her friends and sister's approval, any doubt Saskia had about Mike went away.

Everybody from the get go thought that he was just a catch.

Mike was a great boyfriend.

He took Saskia on nice dates, basketball games, fancy dinners, massages.

He had plenty of money for us to do nice things.

And I made me feel really special and important.

He wanted to do these fun things with me and that I was worth that to him.

But right as Mike started to get serious, Saskia pulled away.

She was still in the middle of her custody battle.

She didn't have room for one more thing on her plate.

There was one time where I was having like a breakdown about stuff with the kid's dad, and I just said, I can't deal with you right now, like I'm going through too much.

And he was like, no, I'm coming over, let me help you through this.

That night he went over.

He wanted to be there.

He said, I will never hurt you.

I will always be here for you.

Don't run away.

Let me help you.

He showed up for her.

She'd never had that before.

From then on out, Mike was team Saskia, a teammate, a partner, someone that was on her side.

He helped me to feel like my life was going to go on and that I could have a future despite what happened with my ex.

As friends and family got to know Mike, they saw just how much he had to offer.

Here's her friend, Meghan.

He was like a knight and shining armor.

I mean, she dated guys with it a job, and then you get Mike and he's like vice president at the bank and he was just like this stand up guy with a great job and two kids.

I mean, it looked great at the time.

Megan was actually married to one of Saskia's older brothers, and her brothers didn't really get Mike.

They thought he was like a dork.

You know.

They watched football, play cards, drink beer, and Mike was like this, you know, yoga guy who ate granola.

The nerdy corporate type stuck out in this crowd.

I mean, he was just different, and that's what every one of us thought was a good thing.

Saskia needed different.

Slowly, Mike was integrating into her world and she liked that.

He was everything that I thought would be good for me, good for my kids.

And I did fall in love with him.

It wasn't like the boom you get hit with this love from the beginning, right.

It grew when a pace that I felt like was a healthy pace.

As their love grew, so did Saski's comfort level.

She could let her guard down.

There was one time where we played strip bowling or something, I.

Mean something like that.

It sounded fun at the time, and it was kind of fun, especially because I never had that with my first husband.

I didn't think he desired me at all.

So here this was and it felt like, wow, like this person that I'm gonna be with, Like we do like desire each other and we can have fun and it is sexual, and like that's good because it shouldn't be just a roommate situation.

When he tried to spice things up, he was respectful of her boundaries.

I remember one time he took a picture of me and showed me how good my butt looked or something like that, And I explicitly asked him, what are you doing with that picture?

And he's like, well, of course, I'm going to erase it.

I would never show it to anybody.

She had every reason to trust him.

They loved each other.

When he would go to work in the morning, he would always leave me like a note on my pillow.

Saskias shared some of those notes with us.

Here's a voice actor reading one half.

Of me wishes that we would have met ten plus years ago, just because I think of all the time we would have had.

But then I realized it just wasn't meant to happen back then.

I am finally at a place in my life where I can embrace who I am, and I just feel like you are the other half, the one who makes me complete.

It is not easy to open up so much, because you open yourself up to being hurt.

But I don't care.

I will do anything for you to know how I feel.

After years of feeling alone in her first marriage, Mike's words meant a lot.

He made it clear how much he loved her.

Whenever he traveled for work.

We always had a nice sweet kiss before he left and a big hug, and we would talk every night, and he would always bring me something from his trips, like a bracelet or a little trinket.

But there was one final test the relationship had to pass, introducing their kids.

At the time, Mike's daughters were eleven and seven, Saskia's daughter was five and her son was three.

They set aside a whole Saturday for the kids to finally meet.

We met at Dave and Busters in the mall.

I brought my kids, he brought his kids, and his daughter grabbed my daughter's hand and they were walking around together and just so excited to show each other their favorite games, and we had them pick out prizes at the end.

And that was their first meeting and they basically were best friends after that.

From that point on, they began hanging out more and more, all six of them.

Shortly after that, we were at my apartment and we had a power outage, no electricity, and didn't know when we were to get electricity turned on, so we all made a trip to Mike's apartment and so we had a little like a family bonding.

There and it was really cute.

We had to like figure out who's going to sleep wear in this little two bedroom apartment.

It turned into a really fun time.

Mike's daughters started to feel like her own.

As co parents, Mike and Saskia made a good team.

They balanced each other.

He was kind of more the organized, practical one.

I was more the social coordinator and the nurturing, fun mom, and so he relied on me for that, and I relied on him for saying like, Okay, it's time to go to bed, or those kinds of things.

Saskia always loved motherhood, and she loved having a packed house.

I liked having the four kids together.

It was like your breakfast is like a little conveyor belt.

I liked it.

I liked being a mom of feign we were a family.

I wish I could say that we had a happy end to our story, but that wasn't reality.

A year into dating, Mike was staying at Saska's apartment most nights.

And then my lease was getting ready to be up, and Mike and I both felt like it was just the natural progression to rent a place together.

So we started looking and was really exciting.

They moved into a townhouse his daughters started sleeping over too, whenever they weren't with their mom.

Marisa felt like her sister had found the one.

With him and her balance.

She did seem to be like kind of becoming her best self.

They seemed like a partners.

She brought the energy and the fawn and he brought stability, and you know, it was a good match.

At the time, Marisa was going through a lot.

She and her husband, Ronnie were trying to get pregnant, and Saska could see it was weighing on her.

It was a lot of.

Hope and disappointment regarding my sister's journey to have a child.

She had so many almosts where they were trying to do IVF.

She would be so excited, and a few weeks down the line, you know, they get the bad news, and I could just see that my sister was not going to be fulfilled without having her own family and having her own kids.

So then, after the last time that they told her she didn't have any more tries with the IVF, I just said, you know, I would love to give it a try.

Saskia offered to carry Marisa's child for Marisa.

Accepting this offer felt like giving up her dream of carrying a baby herself, but then again, this could be her only option.

Here's Marisa.

One of the things to ask you said to me was you're comparing the wrong things.

You're comparing carrying your own child with what is possible, and carrying your own child is not possible.

She knew what to push me, and that was a big eye opener, like, oh yeah, I'm still mourning a loss instead of looking at what I can gain here.

After a lot of conversations, Marisa was in and Saskia was excited to carry her baby.

Of course, it was a big decision.

It would mean carrying another man's child and it would change her body significantly.

So Saskia brought it to Mike.

I discussed it with him.

He said that he was on board and that he thought it was a really loving, special thing to do.

I also talked with the.

Kids about it, you know, told them we were trying to have a baby for Marisa.

The baby might be in my tummy, and we had this whole Kangaroo book that we read to them, and I don't know that they totally understood, But once everybody was kind of on board, we started the.

I think It made her happy to be able to do it, and everybody was still amazed by what she was doing.

So, you know, you're getting a ton of positive feedback and you're pregnant.

Everybody loves pregnant people.

I think it was a good, happy phase for her.

Still, pregnancy isn't all smiles, and Mike was there every step of the way making things as comfortable as possible.

For Saskia, having a baby at thirty six as opposed to twenty nine was different, so I'd have more like aches and paints.

He would give me massages every night.

He was there by my side for whatever was important to me and my family also, and I think it brought him closer to my family.

They thought, what a great guy that he's not worried about how this would affect him, that he's going to be there for you.

Seeing him step up during the pregnancy deepened Maura's respect for Mike.

I was grateful for Mike when they were together and he agreed to anticipate in that process.

I thought that was amazing.

I didn't think a lot of men would do that, and he was very supportive.

Yeah, we called him one on the team.

When Saskia gave birth.

Mike was right by her side.

He was there at the end of the delivery room bed, so he was like the perfect partner to go through this with.

The nurses handed the baby to Marisa.

Saskia watched with love her sister was finally a mom.

I just thought he was so beautiful, and I was so proud, and I could just see my sister like so proud, like this is my baby.

She gave me the greatest gift in the world.

And I think she did that because of who she is, not because of any kind of sense of obligation or like I need to offer this.

I think she just felt my pain and wanted to step up for me, and I think that is a beautiful thing.

The pregnancy, Marisa and Saskia were closer than ever, and Saskia fell closer to Mike too.

The care he'd given her confirmed what she already knew.

Mike was a real partner.

At this point, they'd been together for three years, but the two of them never talked about getting married.

Neither of us were like gung ho looking to this relationship for a marriage.

We didn't know if that was like the end result that we were looking for.

We knew we wanted to be together, but as our families got really close, it didn't feel right to say this is my boyfriend.

So Saskia told Mike how she was feeling.

I was like, you know, it would really it would be nice to be engaged.

It would be nice to be able to say.

This is my fiance.

We don't have to get married anytime soon, but it would be nice.

And Mike thought it would be nice too.

With engagement on the brain, Saskia and Mike took a trip to Amsterdam.

They wanted to visit Saskia's relatives.

Her mom's side is Dutch, and a vacation felt like the perfect way to celebrate the end of the pregnancy.

We went to the Heineken Brewery, walked around, got nutella coffees, and went to the smoke shops.

And I loved it because there was like cats in some of those smoke shops.

Just walking around.

I was like, this is my happy place.

This is the best.

They even went at the Red Light District.

It felt like something that we were doing just because we were like, went in room, went to this one place.

They give you like a ticket and there's a hole that you look through in a wall.

So I looked, and he's looking at a different hole and it was two people having sex.

It was the least exciting.

They had zero anything on their faces, like they were just like having sex.

And I was like, what the hell, who wants to watch that?

The trip came and went, and despite conversations they had in the lead up to the trip, Saskia returned home without a ring.

There was a lot of really cool moments or I'm like, oh, that could have been a nice engagement opportunity.

So after we got back, everyone was just where's her ring?

Like my brother was like, what's going on?

What's going on?

Mike kind of teasing him about it, and so I think that put in his in his head.

Shortly after that came Saska's birthday.

We went to this restaurant with a bunch of my friends and we were sitting outside and I remember I was like talking with Bridget and she asked me about the trip or something.

I said, look, I am about ready to just be pissed off because he knows.

We wanted to get engaged, and she was.

Like, Saskia, just don't bring it up today, just give it another month or something.

Just be patient.

Later that night, we were in the bedroom and I was like getting ready to go to bed, and he gives me this little book and it's saying like all these things about our relationship, all the stuff that he likes about me, and like he personalized it.

And on the last page of the book it said, will you marry me?

And I was like what?

And then I looked up and he had the ring and it was a ring that I wanted.

It was a tanza night.

I didn't want a diamond.

It was beautiful, you know.

We hugged and kissed.

And I said it about time.

Yeah, And so it was really exciting.

Sasaki and Mike were happy to be engaged, but they didn't feel a need to rush to the altar or even get to the altar at all.

They'd both already been married once before being engaged was enough.

I would have kept him my forever fiance.

There was no like, okay, now, let's plan in a wedding.

We were okay with taking our time, and it was that way for about six months, maybe a year even, and then it seemed like all of a sudden he was in a hurry to have.

Us pick a place, pick a date.

He was very insistent upon it.

Once he set that in motion, we started going to like different venues and that started happening pretty quickly, and then we decided on the Waverley Mansion and it was just a really beautiful venue.

With most of the money going towards the venue, Saskia tried to save wherever she could.

Heather was making cookie favors for are there like two love birds?

Or she's really good at making fancy cookies.

I borrowed Bridget's dress, which she was happy about because she spent way too much money on it and only got to wear it once.

Finally, the wedding day arrived.

I got up, went to Nordstrom to have my makeup done, bought some makeup, you know how you have to do that.

My sister's friend did my hair, all the girl's hair, and then we all trucked to the Waverley Mansion and had the bride's suite there.

The day was as much about the four kids as it was Mike and Saskia.

Mike had this idea to do a sand ceremony where basically everybody picks a color of sand.

My son pick blue, the girls picked purple, and pink.

Mike and I each had a color, and everybody pours sand into this glass vase and just symbolizes the family coming together, merging into one family.

Megan, her sister in law, remembers it as a beautiful wedding.

She seems so happy, and we were all happy for her, and we were happy for the kids that they had two new step sisters and we had new nieces.

We were just so happy to integrate them into our family and they was official now, so it was just.

A great day for everyone.

But that wasn't how everyone felt.

Here's Heather.

The entire night, she seemed off.

Sitting in her chair watching Saskia at the altar.

Heather wanted to be happy for her friend, but to her, Saskia didn't seem happy at all.

The entire time that Sasa is up and they're doing the ceremony there far apart.

There was no handholding, no loving gaze.

She looked so uncomfortable.

The thing is, Heather knew something the other friends didn't.

The night before the wedding, Saskia had gone over to Heather's house to pick something up, but Sasa didn't seem like herself.

She seemed unnerved, and I said, what's going on?

And I thought maybe she was just nervous about the wedding, she said, and I can't remember.

It was like the very night before or some night previous to the night she came over.

She said that her and Mike had been out drinking and they went back to the house and they started having sex, and she saw the laptop.

Was open and there were people on the screen.

For Saskia, the incident was blurry.

We were in bed.

I can't tell you what was happening before after, but it was literally like a snapshot in time.

In a fog.

She saw Mike on his laptop and on his screen there were two people, and.

I didn't know if it was like a movie or whether he knew them.

And I remember being really confused and saying, like, what's going on.

He turned to her for a moment, and just for a moment, she slipped into a different reality, and he said, oh, say hi.

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Betrayal is the production of Glass Podcasts, a division of Glass Entertainment Group, in partnership with iHeart Podcasts.

The show is executive produced by Nancy Glass and Jennifer Fason, hosted and produced by me Andrea Gunning.

Written and produced by Caitlin Golden.

Our supervising producer is Carrie Hartman.

Our story editor is Monique Leboord.

Also produced by Ben Fetterman.

Associate producers are Olivia Hewitt and Leah Jablow.

Production management by Kristin Melcurrie, additional support by Curry Richmond.

Our iHeart team is Ali Perry and Jessica Crincheck.

Voice acting by Steve Lelinsky, Audio editing by Tanner Robbins, with additional editing and mixing by Matt Delvecchio.

Special thanks to Saskia, her friends and family, and special thanks to Will Pearson and Carrie Lieberman.

Betrayal's theme is composed by Oliver Bains.

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