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Right, Hey, y'all, what's up.

It's Lauren L.

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Now we are checking in behind the scenes of the grind.

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Today, honestly is very cold outside in New York City, but we are literally days away from Christmas.

I have yet to do any Christmas shopping, but I am really excited about just being able.

I told you guys about a week ago that I am counting down the days until I'm able to just be at home, not leaving my home, and I don't choose to not having to wake up at four o'clock in the morning, but also just being with my family.

Thanksgiving was a bit short because it was also my birthday, so I went over to the Bahamas.

But just those couple of days I was home, it was good to just be home.

And then Christmas will be the same.

Like Christmas, I'll get to really just chill, just spend time with the family.

So I'm excited about that.

Max'ally about to head on over to our Christmas party for iHeartMedia, the annual Christmas party that we do, which honestly just reminds me of like the progression of my journey here at iHeart because my very first Christmas party that I ever attended with iHeart was two years ago and I wasn't even working here.

I didn't even have a badge like anything like whatsoever.

I was just here guest hosting and was like, I'm going to the Christmas party, and I was like, the running joke was like, you don't even work here, why are you and the Christmas party?

And now fast forward two years later, I'm working here, headed to the Christmas party real quick to say hello to everybody.

And today is a good day to just be thinking about progress here with iHeartMedia and with you know, Black Effect and Breakfast Club and just all of the people that I've come into this with.

Because we're going into a new year and in this year.

One of the things that I've been thinking a lot about going into this year is things that I want to send Tanto's down on, like claiming it has been my thought process.

I think as much as you guys hear me talk about things I want to do and like you know, all of that energy, there is still a very real, real I wouldn't call it fear, because I don't claim fear, but there is still a very real new sense of hesitance that I feel sometimes when I am wanting to do things or you know, wanting to just trust my instinct in the way that I did prior to you know, being with all five million plus of my low riders here and just you know, on the Breakfast Club platform, just because I feel like there's a different sense of responsibility like I do, and going into twenty twenty six, I want to make sure, of course I.

Am always leaning in.

And honoring that sense of responsibility, but also too, I don't want to get in my own way and allow my fears I hate that word, and allow my new this is what it is.

I don't want to allow my new found, not even new found.

I don't want to allow the fact that I am focused on substance and longevity and purpose getting the way of trying things that might not align with you know, where I'm going long term, but you got to try it to know you gotta throw things at the wall onto sticks, and that's been something that I've been battling with a lot this year, to be honest, as like, Okay, as things grow, you want to keep the main thing the main thing, and you don't want to mess up like I'm always just like I don't want to mess up and not wanting to mess up.

I never want to bring in.

I never want to put too much on myself to the point where like I'm getting it in my own way and the main thing is not the main thing anymore.

And Kay Sanat just posted a video that he recorded on his birthday not too long after speaking out at the Streamer Awards about his mental health and some of the new things he wanted to try.

He says he wants to go into fashion design, and he wants to direct and do a ton of things in the creative space, but he talked about just where his mental has been around that.

Let's sake, come listen to Kay Sanat.

Hello, everybody.

I'm currently on my laptop right now, and I appreciate everybody who's been sending me birthday wishes as today is my birthday, so I felt like it was a perfect day to be transparent and honest with you guys.

A few days ago, I spread awareness on mental health and how important it is to take care of yourself, and honestly, for the past few months, I've been struggling with mental health out of self doubt and fright of pursuing goals that I really want to achieve.

And the reason I've really been in my head is because I just wanted to do more.

I've gained to realize that I'm a true creator and I'm very passionate about creating, and i have other goals and things that I just want to achieve and do more of.

And I would love to show you guys what I've been working on for the past few months through my more personal page, which is Casey three Hidden.

I am going to go private soon on that page, so whoever gets in gets in.

But I just want to let you guys know that sometimes it is important to take care of your mental health.

And honestly, it's been getting better.

It has, but out of frustration and fear, I've just been in my head for some reason.

I've never had this feeling before, but I want it to be known that I truly want to create and I don't know if I'm getting mature or I'm just looking at looking things at a broad point of but I am so passionate about creating in general, and I'm excited to show you guys what's going on.

And I think that this is a very vulnerable and real place for any person to admit that they are at.

But it's also one of those things that I think you never stop running into.

So I think to identify it early to understand, you know, what resources you need to put around yourself to be able to get through that, work through that, stay consistent through that, and keep the main thing the main thing through that is important.

But this is also why I love like this new era of like media.

And content creators.

I feel like there And I said this when I sat down with Gabe p from on the Radar, not even just in journalism, but just in the media and digital space in general.

I think we're going to start seeing like the cream of the crop is going to rise.

I think that you're going to see people who are actually very passionate about what they're doing, who are passionate about doing it well, doing it of quality of substance, creating longevity around it.

Doing it in a way.

That's purposeful, rise to the top and kind of quiet out a lot of the noise.

But that can get kind of heavy sometimes, it can.

It definitely can get kind of heavy sometimes when you're figuring that out.

So Constat's conversation just made me kind of think about all of that as I go into this new year, Like, I want to honestly shed that heaviness, because when I think about it, it's a blessing to be able to even be in the space.

To explore these things.

I want to shed that heaviness, But I also don't want to ignore, you know, Like mentally some of the it's almost like an anxious feeling, like an anti feeling that happens whenever you are trying to figure out am I doing this and am I doing it right?

Versus just trusting your instinct and doing what you know to do.

And the more people relying on you, the more eyes watching you, it changes your thought process around that.

Now, speaking of a lot of eyes watching my.

Girl, Coco Jones.

Okay, I recently got a chance to sit down with Coco Jones for an episode.

No actually the final episode that I shot with Beet talks which is a sit down conversation over at b T or was anyway the season and the show ended where they bring on different guests and you have a conversation just about their careers and new music and everything that they have happening.

And we're going to get to that because there's one clip that I'm going to close the show with that I.

Think will be in line with how I opened the show.

But in the midst of that, Coco Jones is working with Apple Music, and you know, she's doing a sit down show very similar to this, almost like a podcast or radio show, and she's giving tips, you know, on this certain episode of the show on dealing with the why are you still single?

Question during the holidays, and y'all know Coco is far from single, honey.

She's engaged.

She is happy.

She got engaged with Donovan Mitchell, who plays basketball, back in July July of twenty twenty five, and baby been living her best fairytale life ever since.

I love to see it for her, and I know that Sierra and Russell Wilson were a part of the planning phase for that engagement.

They've talked about that a bit.

But she's giving out some advice to the girls who ain't taking their fiance home this year for Thanksgiving.

Let's take a listen, Brandy from New Jersey.

So every holiday, my aunt drills me with the same questions about why I'm still single and when I'm going to get married and have kids.

No matter how hard I try to change the subject, she keeps pressing me.

How can I handle her this year without losing my cool or turning the family gathering into a scene.

Oh my god, now that right there is MESSI girl, and I do have to chuckle just a touch, just a touch.

Because why does every aunt want to be in the business.

I even in my song, my was in my business I had and I had to call her out respectfully.

Girl.

You know I love you.

On to Kim anyway, here's what I think.

I actually have been very into nice nasty reads, have you?

You know what I'm saying.

I've been watching a lot of Real housewives and they just love a nice nasty read.

It's still like cut, but it was like, you said that really cute and you gotta like you gotta listen to it twice, you know what I'm saying.

So I would honestly prep since you know that this happens every year.

Coco talk to me a bit about that too, just kind of you know, her journey with therapy and you know, figuring out and finding her voice, and I thought it was really powerful.

She said that she because she went through a downtime in her career where she had to really be still, like she was not working at all.

She said that that time actually helped her find her voice.

So take a listen to Cocon.

You've been very vocal at starting posting your career with like your vlogs and your videos and telling what you were going through.

What was the turning point for you where you realize, Okay, I really don't have it all together and I need to take this break to figure it out.

The break took me, honestly, the break took.

The space in between was not my choice.

Yeah, but now you know, hindsight and looking back, the silence is where I could even hear my voice, you know, be like, oh this is who I am.

Oh this is important to me.

Oh I do talk like this and I don't talk like that, you know.

So finding my voice was really kind of what happened in the meantime in the between Honestly, I was super happy with how everything happened with the EP.

Even though I didn't make the final say, I still was doing what I loved.

I was making songs.

I loved doing music videos.

Again, there was a budget.

Again, Yes, I was up.

Hello.

I guess people from that section of my life dropped off because you know, when you go higher, people act weird dot com.

And so when people started to drop off, that's when I was like, Okay, I think I'm gonna be the only one that I know for sure is not going anywhere.

So I need to be the voice.

I need to be the through line because now they gone and who am I again?

Kind of took me shedding that skin to be like what do I really look like?

And what do I want to look like in the future.

Now it's up to me.

And that made me ask her, like, what does purpose look like for you?

Like, you know, I think when you're young and you're creative and you just want to, you know, be successful because people are depending on you, or because you have these goals you want to reach, and then you get to a point where you start achieving these things.

There is that conversation about.

Like, well wait, hold on this is happening and and then I don't know about anybody listening, but for me, once I achieved something goal wise, I'm a very goal oriented person.

But you know, now at this phase in my life when I achieve something, I'm always looking around and like wondering, like, how is this impact to people?

I've talked about that here on the podcast, but I ask that question all the time to myself, like what was the impact in that?

What did that do for somebody?

Did that do anything for somebody?

And if not, what else have you done?

You know that that will or that can or you know, how can you be of service to other people?

And the purpose conversation was one of my favorite parts of the conversation with Coco, because you know, with Coco Jones being this Disney star at one point or this child star at one point and having to kind of take a step back and figure it out all over again.

A lot of times people will tell you who you are and honestly who you're not.

Okay, Auntie at at the Christmas dinner will make you feel like you are not a person.

That is you're not doing You could have everything else lined up, hit every other goal for twenty twenty five.

But you show up to that dinner without yellow boo thang, and now you are not any of those you know, good things you felt about yourself before you walk through that door because of this one thing that someone is identifying that you haven't succeeded at.

No, we're not doing that over here.

We're not doing that because when you understand purpose, I think you understand that even what hasn't fell in line with you or for you yet, it doesn't mean it's not happening.

It just hasn't happened yet.

You're being prepared, you know what I mean, preheated like the oven at that Christmas dinner.

Let's say, listen to Coco talk about purpose.

Does Coco Jones think about like her purpose of her art?

Like what is your purpose of your art?

Yes?

I do think about my purpose, I mean not just of my art, but like why do I get to be here with this platform?

And why did I make it?

Even after that time and there was so many years of nothing, Why what.

Do I do with this?

And I hope I ain't doing another wrong, but sorry, I.

Mom live man.

Seriously, I do think about my purpose all the time, and I'm trying to just do the best I can with what I got and hope that inspires someone.

I do try to be very transparent about the journey, the time that it took, the self doubt, the things that I had to work on to be who I am now, to live the life that I live now.

It was only because I drilled in my head that I did deserve it, because for a while I was like, I don't know, I don't know.

I feel like when you don't know, nobody knows, right.

I love Coco.

That conversation you guys can listen to and full over on a bet YouTube channel was a great convo between me and my girl Coco, and definitely some things to think about.

I mean, we're all maneuvering, we're moving, grooving, and the holidays are coming up and you will have time to sit still, you know, hopefully outside of providing dinner and all the things for your family or whatever it is that you do every holiday season around this time.

But when you have that time to sit still with the people that.

Really love you and really, you know, really love you start to think about everything that feels like, okay, this is in linement for me that's been my mantra.

For the last like a week or two.

Charlotmae has been talking a lot about this being the Year of the Snake and just shutting things internally and people and in me doing that because I went and bought a book all about claiming and shedding things.

I'm writing down things that I want to shed, things that I want to claim.

I begin thinking about, like what feels in alignment in my life, Like what feels in alignment in my life, Like what feels like it's flowing and it's not forced.

What things am I doing that may make those things feel forced?

Because those are things I need to shut for myself, like my thought processes sometimes, you know, like my defens Like there's a lot of things I'm working through.

This is a therapy session.

Lord God, hallelujah.

Won't you do it?

But yes, get you a notebook join me.

These next couple of weeks, I am writing down lit This is what I did.

I got a notebook, and in front of the notebook, I wrote down everything that I am letting go of or I'm shutting.

In the back of the notebook, I'm going to put everything that I'm claiming.

The two are going to meet in the middle at some point in twenty twenty six, and we'll be okay.

We will be released, we will be free.

At the end of the day.

There's always a lot to talk about your host, Lawn Rosa, and this is the layest with Lawn Rosa, and every single time you guys are here with me to talk about it, my low writers, I appreciate y'all.

I really do.

I'll see you guys in my next episode.