It was a wolf moon that night she died.

Emotions were all over the place.

For you.

For him , for me.

Astrology couldn't have been worse for her that night.

A lot of things , especially with alcohol , get really screwed up.

This is one right here.

A picture of an address where she's happy , smiling and obviously drinking.

You know , her blood alcohol was high , but it was New Year's Eve.

How is she ?

Dead.

Two hours later.

New Year's Day 2018 , San Diego police officer Sierra Estrada was found dead.

And man , talked about your stomach just dropping to the floor.

Service gun in her lap.

They just said she was shot.

She shot herself.

That's all they said.

She shot herself.

A bullet wound between her eyes.

Was it possible ?

Yes.

Is it probable ?

No.

I says , look , something's never been right here.

Something doesn't settle , right.

STD investigated her death themselves.

You don't take care of your own.

You don't handle cases of a police officer.

There's too much conflict of interest here.

Almost immediately , they called it a suicide.

They were dead set that she committed suicide that night.

And they were going to wrap the shit up that night.

But years later , people who knew Sierra are still divided.

I will tell you flat out to your face and anybody that my daughter did not kill herself.

She did not kill herself.

She was suicidal.

100%.

There was no doubt in my head.

There's just too many red flags where you're.

I'm just never going to believe that she killed herself.

How ?

She died.

Gunshot to the head does not explain why she died.

If you believe it was suicide , or if you believe it was homicide , it doesn't matter.

It never should have happened.

She should be alive today.

Her family doesn't think the department investigated thoroughly enough.

You don't know what Sierra went through the week before she died.

I want to know more about that night.

I still have so many questions.

I don't even know what to ask.

They're destroying evidence.

Even though.

Or maybe because Sierra was one of their own.

It's been six years , and I still want proof that my daughter killed herself.

I don't believe she did.

And I want proof.

To.

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