Hi.

I am Kate Hudson and my name is Oliver Hudson.

We wanted to do something that highlighted our relationship.

And what it's like to be siblings.

We are a sibling.

Railvalry, No, no, sibling, don't do that with your mouth, revelry.

That's good.

Oliver relis Hudson here reporting live from my own mind.

I'm on a solo mission.

It's just me.

You're only going to be hearing my voice for as long as I choose to stay on this podcast episode.

I'm sitting my room.

I'm looking at my chandelier, which is not in line with the table underneath, and it hasn't been for ten years yet I refuse to move.

The table outside my window is the inside of the fence that when the kids were into graffitiing and doing pieces, as they call them, they used the back of this fence to create their artwork.

And I like it.

And that's where I am right now.

I'm alone in my house.

My family is in Colorado.

I just finished a job.

I can't say what it is.

Well, it's not like that big of a deal, but I'm hosting a baking competition.

I'll just say that first time being a host of something.

I really like it.

I think it suits me because I get to talk like I am right now and dive into people's lives and make attempts at being funny, hamming it up for the camera, just being authentically Oliver Rutledge Hudson.

So it was fun.

Though, it was very, very fun.

I had a great time, and then, of course I wasn't happy Gilmore too.

I guess this is just a podcast of me just ripping off my credits and what I've been up too lately.

But no, I was in Gilmore too, and it was so much fun.

I spent a month there.

I haven't talked about it yet, just because I haven't.

I got to work with Scotti, Shuffler and Rory McElroy and Brooks Kepka and Bryson de Shambeau.

You know, it's the top golfers in the world, and I'm a golfer myself, so it was just a treat.

I was there for a month.

It was so much fun.

You know, Sandler's one of the greats.

I've known him for a long time.

Drop name drop, you know, relationship drop.

And I got to play a character that well not even a character.

I got to do something as an actor that I've never gotten to do before, which is play a weird ass character.

His name is Harley if you haven't seen the movie, and he's a golfer that is basically genetically modified and could hit the ball a thousand yards.

I had no idea what I was getting into.

When Sandler says, you know, I want you to be in a movie, you just say, yeah, you know, do you want to read the script?

Whatever?

Sure I can, but I don't care if you say that you want me to be in something, I'm in.

And I got lucky enough that it was Happy Gilmore too, which of course is an iconic you know, the first one is iconic so much of my childhood and lines from that movie, you know, and uh so yeah it was.

I didn't know what the hell I was doing.

I get I get to work the first day, and you know, looking through costumes, I'm like, holy shit, Okay, this is real leather skull cap with like a cutoff biker vest and like chains and leather pants.

And then I shaved a goatee.

And then they when I got into the makeup chair, they just started putting makeup on me.

This this stainer.

It's like a tan to make you tan, but it's like it stains your skin.

And they kept going darker and darker until I started to turn orange and I'm like, oh shit, I is this how far we're going?

And then I turned I turned into like an orange bite Harley my name was Harley in the show An Orange Biker, which turned out to be perfect for it because it was just so over the top and so crazy.

But it made such a splash that movie.

It's just so crazy.

It's unbelievable the amount of people that streamed it and watched it.

But yeah, I had I had an awesome time.

Lucky.

I'm a lucky man to have been in that piece of history.

I say, that's what I say.

Who needs Scorsese, Who needs David Fincher, Who needs Spielberg?

Come on, you know what I mean?

Like, who needs awards?

Who needs Emmy's Academy Awards, Golden Globes?

I have Happy Gilmore too.

You know that's worth all that's worth, all of it.

Wouldn't trade it, would not trade it.

So that was nice.

And then the other thing is Summer's just coming to an end and it's time to get back into school mode.

Even though we're no longer in school.

I always treat summer as I did when I was a kid and going to school, you know, as an adult, I'm like with summertime, like, why are we working?

It's summer?

Yeah, so what, I'm almost fifty years old, I'm forty eight, forty ninety be forty nine in September.

Yeah, so what Like it's summer, We're not supposed to be working.

I'm not supposed to call anyone back during the summer.

I've got arrested development when it comes to the summer.

And now it's coming to an end, it all starts up again.

It all starts up again.

And then Wilder, my oldest, he's gonna be a senior, and so we're in the whole college mode.

And that's hell for me because I feel like now I'm going back and doing the applications again.

You know, I'm like, oh, fuck, man, like what this prompt we gotta do?

I have the anxiety that I'm having to do it again, and it's much more difficult than it was now, or at least there's more pressure on it.

You know, before you do your applications, remember being helped for my parents or anyone I maybe they did, you know, but it was all write in.

Of course, was nineteen ninety four.

So I feel like I just wrote it my essays and fill out the applications and I sent them in and it was very simple.

You know.

Now, I guess it's so competitive, but these you know, it's like, oh, you need you need someone to you know, you need a counselor oh cool, no, this school has one.

No, no, no, you need an outside counselor you know that that really knows the ropes and it's going to do this and that it's going to help you.

And then you have an essay writer, a guy who's gonna someone who's gonna help you with your essay, you know, and help craft it and this this and that, and I'm like, damn, really can't we just can't you just write the essay.

But I will say that it does take some pressure off.

But the real issue is is, honestly the expense of some of this, Like, no way, it's not happening.

Sorry, you know, I did it this way.

You can do it this way too, you know what I mean, Like you can write your own essay.

I'll help you.

Oliver Hudson is one of the great American novelists.

In case you listening to this podcast didn't know that I am.

I have not written a book yet.

But if I were to write a book, everyone is already saying that you will be the next great American novelist.

So that might come later in my life.

But anyway, that whole college experience, we'll get through it.

It'll be great.

You know.

The kid is deciding onto the whether he wants a college experience or if he wants like a city experience.

But aside from all that, here's the sad part.

One, well not one.

My firstborn is not going to be in this house anymore.

And that's crazy to me.

I'm very family connected.

It is my number one priority in my life.

I have molded my entire life and career around my family.

Yes, you have to make sacrifices, as we all do in our work, you know.

And I'm lucky because I get to be home for extended periods of time and be very present.

But then I'm gone for extended periods of time.

So there are certain jobs that I wouldn't even consider doing because it would just take me too far away For too long from my family, and now this boy is not going to be here in a year, and that is crazy.

Just the idea of walking past his room and it being empty, you know, the nostalgia that has been built up for seventeen eighteen years.

It just lingers.

You can smell it, literally, there's a scent.

And when they leave, and some of you listening, I'm sure I have already experienced this.

That's heart wrenching.

It's gonna take some time to get used to, I think, because it's just another piece of energy, of life force that is no longer you know, in this in this house that makes it all run.

And he's gonna be off doing his own thing as he should.

He's an amazing child.

And it's gonna hurt though.

It's gonna it's crazy, you know, definitely gonna be shedding a thousand tiers.

I'm an emotional person, so every time I walk by that room, I'm probably just gonna be like, oh God, Aaron's gonna have to get me straight.

It's like, hey, Oliver, okay, look just FaceTime him.

He's right there.

Everything's gonna be okay.

But now it's crazy, man, it's crazy.

And then of course it shows your own age, you know what I mean, You're like, holy shit, this guy was a little butterball just a second ago, and now he's gone.

He's an adult.

He's in the world making a life for himself without us, which, of course we'll get a thousand phone calls.

And you know that umbilical cord stretches, stretches across the globe.

Really, so that's what we're preparing for this year, counting the days.

But at least I still have my other two babies.

They'll be here to console me and take care of me.

So another thing that I wanted to talk about, and I haven't tried it yet.

I had a brain scan and it was with this guy, his name is doctor Amon Incredible, and I went on his podcast, my sister and I did, and so we got to have our brains scanned and then we got to go on his podcast and sort of a fun little thing, and it was really interesting.

The process was really interesting.

It was over three days, and there was an injections and there was imaging, and it was a whole thing and questionnaire and an intake form and so after all of this, you look at your brain and it's really beautiful and incredible.

The images are amazing and through trauma, well because of trauma, you can see certain parts of your brain that have been affected.

I mean, if you were a drug addict, or if you were an alcohol abuser or some something like that, you can see that.

And it really is.

It can detect add or ADHD, whatever you want to say.

Very well.

Anyway, it turns out like I have it.

I mean I kind of suspected that I did, you know what I mean, never paid any mind to it.

I just kind of went about my life, but knew that there were certain things holding me back.

So talking with my psychiatrist, I have a patch, a new patch, and I don't know what the hell it is.

I've yet to try it yet, but this is going to be something new.

Maybe it's going to turn me into just an on fire superstar who can't stop working.

But I don't know.

It's interesting.

You know, we've had some really cool people on our show, experts who talk about it as a superpower and not really a deficiency.

I think it's about how you look at it.

So I'm excited to give it a shot.

I'm excited to try that patch.

Let's see if it changes anything.

I'm sure a lot of these listeners that I'm talking to have dealt with their own ad D eighth And now that I discovered AI, which I know, I'm crazy late to the game, which I just I've been resisted it.

But you know that's where the add kind of can kick in pretty good because I'm like, oh my gosh, like I can learn anything, and then i go down the rabbit hole of AI.

But I'm so late to the game.

I resisted it.

It scares me.

And it scared me not meaning I go a robot's can infiltrate my brain and take over the world, which probably will happen at some point, but it was more of like, oh god, I just kind of railing against the technology.

It's just I feel like I like analog, you know, I want to be in nature on my boat or in the ocean or in the woods.

But I gave it a shot, and I'm like, uh, oh, like I like this.

This is pretty cool.

And I know I sound like an old man right now, but you know, my mom is way more AI than I am.

She's like, honey, GPT said this, only oh if you nicknamed him now or her?

You know, sometimes it'll be like, well, Chat said that.

I'm like, oh, now it's chat, you know, And then my sons and my kids come up to me and like, yeah, no, I asked, I asked Chat and they said that, you know, blah blah blah x y Z.

And I'm like, imagine if you just replaced that with Paul or some sort of a name.

You know, I asked Paul about you know, this bruise on my leg, and you know, Paul said that it was not a big deal.

I mean, we're now speaking about chat GPT as if it is human, and uh, it's it's wild.

It's nutty.

And I know I sound like an old man.

I know this is old news.

But anyway, my point is is, since it's just me solo and I am an AI wizard, now let let's ask chat gptwise for podcasts prompts.

What is a great conversational podcast prompt?

Give me four of them to start a great conversation.

See what it says.

Here are four strong podcast style conversational prompts designed to spark great discussion, whether you're hosting show or just kicking off a deep talk.

Okay, here we go.

Number one, what's a belief you held ten years ago that you no longer believe and what changed your mind?

Ooh gosh, No, pass number two.

If someone gave you a million dollars to create something that could help the world, what would you build?

Ah?

That?

No.

Number three.

What's something you've never told anyone publicly before but you wish more people knew about you?

Well, that is something that the public doesn't need to know.

If you could live one random day of your life over again, not to change anything, just to re experiencing it, what day would you pick?

Well, it probably wouldn't be my birth because actually my birth was traumatic.

My Mom's talked about it a bunch.

I think I've even talked about it a bunch.

But I was baking in mom's belly for three weeks after my due date back in nineteen seventy six.

I guess the idea was, eh, you know, just the baby's not right a, just let it pop out when it pops out.

Well, unfortunately, I basically ate shit and almost died, meaning I'm aconium aspirated For those of you who don't know what that is.

We are fed through an umbilical cord as a as when we're in you row and you got to take a dump.

And that's exactly what I did.

But it's in the amniotic fluid.

Of course, that's what we breathe when we're little, and boom in it goes deep into my lungs and maconium is a very tarry substance.

And I came out, oh my god, it's a boy.

Because my mom didn't know, and boom.

I was rushed off into nick you and I was there for three weeks or a month, and I had a slim chance of living.

I don't know the percentage.

I think it was like not slim, but maybe I got thirty percent chance of survival.

You know, there's needles in my head and da da da da.

But I made it.

I made it.

I did.

In case anyone's wondering, I did it, like I pulled through.

So that's a day that I do not want to relive.

But when you're that little, you're newborn, the question is does something like that affect you?

Your first breath and in my case, smelled like shit is being whisked away your first moments of life.

Needles put in your head, you're not near your mother, you have no skin to skin there is no love there there is you know, you can't be confused as a kid, but it's just probably doesn't feel good.

So has this fucked me up from the beginning?

I forget who I was talking to, but someone in the field of psychology or was it these astrologers maybe I I can't remember, but yes, the answer was that, yeah, it does.

So basically, my birth could be the root of all my problems, which is weird because my birth is what gave me life to even be here.

Yet it's the root of all my problems.

This is a conundrum.

I'm a conundrum.

It's not really something you can work through.

You know, you don't remember it.

You can't go to a psychologist and being like, yeah, I really really, I want to really dig I want to go back, oh, like your childhood, you know when when you're having issues with your father.

No, no, no, like way back like my birth.

Okay, well, how do you tap into that anyway?

So I'm not gonna go I'm not going to relive that day.

What part of your life looks fine on the outside but secretly feels broken.

That's interesting because I'm somewhat of a public figure, you know, I guess It's always weird when I say that, because I don't feel like I'm like famous really and I'm not really, so, you know, I guess people look at a life, not just mine, but even celebrity life and think, oh man, that looks great.

Everything looks great.

But I don't think that's the case with most people.

We're all a bit broken.

We can't not be perfect doesn't exist.

That word should not even be in the dictionary.

What is perfect?

Nothing.

Life is definitely not perfect.

We're all a little damaged, you know.

It's just the extremes of it.

But what part of your life looks fine on the outside but secretly feels broken.

I'd say my security in myself.

I think from the outside perspective, I look extremely confident, extremely secure, unafraid.

We'll say anything, don't care what people think, And that is not necessarily true.

I am socially confident, I guess, you know, but I do care what people think, and I just pretend that I don't.

I'll say outlandish things, but I know it's safe, you know.

Strangely, I know the things that I can kind of get away with and say and it be safe.

But I do care what people think, and I think it's to the detriment of my creativity, you know, because instead of just throwing it all out there, I'm so worried about how it's going to be perceived that you get smaller a little, but you try to.

You don't want to take a risk or push an envelope for fear of someone saying, what the hell is he doing?

You know what take was that he did?

That That scene was ridiculous, you know, so, Oh my god, I just want to make sure that you know I don't rock a boat and that people like me, you know, so I do care, and I do have that problem that I want to be liked too much.

I think I think that's an issue, you know, that I'll go out of my way so people don't dislike me, you know.

Yeah, so that's something.

And I don't know if I ever talked about that on this crazy podcast.

If you had to relive one moment of shame every day for the rest of your life, what moment would haunt you the most?

Oh god, I can't even talk about that one.

I'm not going to talk about that one.

There are things we say and then there are things we don't, but shame, shame is powerful.

Shame is dangerous, man, Shame is shame hurts, even if you've caused the shame.

You have to give yourself grace.

You know, even if you are wrong.

You know, even if you are complicit and you are the cause of your own shame.

At some point in order to sort of heal and get over that, because shame can destroy you, you have to forgive yourself.

You have to put things into a larger perspective and say, we have one life here, So, yes, did I fuck up?

Did I cause this?

Did I cause that?

Am I taking this on?

Am I feeling shame that I shouldn't be feeling?

Whatever it is, you got to take that moment, give yourself some grace, look at look from thirty thousand feet and forgive yourself because you don't want to be walking around for your entire life feeling that shame.

Free yourself of that shame.

That would be my advice, because you know it's in all of us.

Everyone knows we all have a little shame.

If the version of you from ten years ago could see your life now, what would disappoint them the most?

Ooh, it's interesting, I'm forty eight.

I'll be forty nine in September, so thirty eight thirty nine.

My production company is called slow Burn Productions for a reason.

I've always been a slow burn.

You know.

Kate burned hot bang.

You know, she worked her ass off to get where she is, but you know, boom, almost famous bang on the scene.

I've always been a slow burn, you know.

And it's like boom, a little pop here, and then kind of like what's going on?

Then boom a little pop here, and oh that's a good one, and hey, I'm kind of on my way, and then oh, wait, no, I'm not on my way.

So that being said, to answer this question, if the version of you from ten years ago could see your life now, what would disappoint them the most?

I'd probably say that I'm not further along than I could be.

I haven't really reached the potential that I know I have that I thought I would probably have reached by now.

Not to say you can't keep striving, which you should, but it's double edged.

I've taked my time.

You know, luck plays a factory.

You have to work hard to get lucky, and sometimes I don't work hard enough.

I enjoy my life, I enjoy my family, I enjoy the fun things, and sometimes that takes precedent when maybe it shouldn't.

So that's what I would, you know, Why aren't you further along?

You know?

Why aren't you you know, I don't scratch that, but it's less about further along, And why aren't you doing the things that you know you can do?

Why aren't you focusing on the creativity that you have inside of you, that you know you can shine in.

Being an actor is great.

I love being an actor, but it wasn't the first thing that I wanted to do.

I wanted to make movies, direct movies.

I have a vision in my head of just life and I've always felt like I've had sort of an odd look at life, and I want to tell stories through my lens, you know, And I have yet to do that, you know, because I think I'm afraid.

I think there's fear there somehow, And yeah, so there it is, and wrap it all up to book end it all.

Maybe we want to get this add patch on.

Maybe all that will change, and then in another ten years, when I can answer that question again, things will be different.

Anyway.

Thanks for listening to me, just bullshit and rant for however long.

Twenty minutes or so, and uh, we'll be back next week.

Let me know if you like this shit, because if we'd like if you if we like it, I can keep doing it, you know, I keep talking and do these solo apps.

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