There's a woman in Bangkok who's been selling noodles from the same corner for 43 years. She turned down Bon Appétit. Not because she's shy. Because she didn't want to cook for strangers with expectations.

This episode started with a voicemail from Jason, a listener in North Carolina who shoots photos of his kids and has no interest in going pro. He called me out for ignoring non-professionals. And he was right.

What I didn't expect was how much his email would make me confront something I've been avoiding: I'm envious of amateur photographers. Not because they're bad at what they do. Because they still have the thing I traded away.

This is about the cost of professionalization. About the difference between making work because you have to versus making work because the work demands to be made. About freedom, money, and what happens when you refuse to let the transaction define the craft.

If you've ever felt like you're not a "real" photographer because you don't charge... this one's for you.

And if you're a pro who's forgotten why you started... this one's for you too.

Key Themes:

• Transactional Legitimacy (the belief that payment equals worth)
• The cost of going professional vs. staying amateur
• Creative envy and what it reveals
• Being "unowned" in a world where everything is for sale
• The difference between a career and a practice

Episode Timestamps:

0:00 - Cold Open: The Noodle Queen of Bangkok
1:15 - Handshake & Episode Intro
2:00 - Jason's Voicemail (Part 1): "I'm not a professional nor do I want to be"
3:00 - Confession: Why I avoid amateur photographers (and the envy underneath)
4:30 - Bellingham, 2012: When I was Jason
6:00 - Jason's Voicemail (Part 2): "We doubt our abilities because we are not getting paid"
6:30 - Alison's Story: The physical therapist photographing her mother's Alzheimer's
16:00 - Naming The Enemy: Transactional Legitimacy
19:00 - The Pivot: What professionals can't do (that amateurs can)
22:30 - The Resolution: Neither path is pure. Both cost something.
28:00 - The Restoration: What the professional world needs from non-professionals
30:30 - The Light Leak: Being unowned

Mentioned in This Episode:

• Episode 39: Creative directing your own life (referenced when discussing overthinking)
• Lake Padden, Bellingham WA
• Fairhaven, Bellingham WA
• Mount Baker, WA

Key Quote:

"You are not beneath professionals. You are adjacent to freedom they lost."

For Jason:

Thank you for the email. Thank you for the voicemail. Thank you for calling me out. This episode wouldn't exist without you.

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CREDITS:

Podcast written, produced, and hosted by Patrick Fore
 Music licensed through Epidemic Sound
Intro Song: Free Spirit by Max Volante
 Episode photography from lucas.george.wendt
Recorded in my garage in San Diego, California

A NOTE FOR NON-PROFESSIONALS (Amatures):

If you're listening to this and you don't charge for your work—if you shoot because you love it, not because you're building a business—please know this:

Your work matters.
 Your perspective matters.
 Your freedom matters.

You're not less than. You're not waiting to become real.

You're already real.

And some of us wish we still had what you have.

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