What if the reason you feel "off" isn't anxiety or stress—but because you're living as someone you were never meant to be?

How many people can truly answer the question: Who am I?

Not your job.
Not your roles.
Not your trauma.
Not the identity you were given.

But who are you underneath everything you were taught to be?

In Episode 10 of Spades & Spirits Podcast, we sit down with Kawanis Ellison—author, medicine woman, oracle, spiritual coach, and pattern disruptor—for a powerful conversation about identity, awareness, spiritual awakening, ancestral healing, and reconnecting with your authentic self.

Kawanis challenges us to look at the "programs" we have been living through and asks us to become aware of the patterns, beliefs, fears, and identities that may be shaping our lives without us even realizing it.

One of the biggest questions of this conversation is:

What if the version of you that you think is "you" is actually just a program you've been running your entire life?

And if that's true...

Who are you without the programming?

Here are the chapters for this episode:
0:00 Intro
0:50 Welcome Kawanis Ellison
2:00 What is a Pattern Disruptor?
3:40 Most people are living a program
5:50 The True Self
11:20 Feeling everything / Misconception about peace
12:55 Disconnection from the body
15:15 Intuition vs. Fear
20:45 The cost of alignment
23:35 Age of Aquarius / Collective fear
26:45 Reconnecting to yourself / Boundaries
33:30 Ancestral healing
36:00 Ancestor libations / Naughty Bites wine
37:30 Collective identity crisis or awakening?
38:40 The process of labor / Death of identity
43:30 What would the world look like?
48:10 How to reach Kawanis

This is a conversation about breaking patterns, questioning identity, embracing awareness, and finding the courage to live as your authentic self.

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ABOUT THE GUEST

Kawanis Ellison is an author, medicine woman, oracle, spiritual coach, and pattern disruptor whose work focuses on helping people recognize and break free from repetitive patterns, subconscious programming, and inherited cycles.

Through her work, Kawanis explores spiritual transformation, ancestral healing, conscious choice, nervous-system awareness, and the journey toward authentic self-realization.

Connect With Kawanis Ellison:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kawanis.ellison/
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Hosted By:
🏛️ Misty Reign, The Spiritual Attorney
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Co-Host:
✨ Christian Nicole, The Intuitive Development Coach
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LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/christian-nicole-72253b1bb

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