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“I Should Be Dead”: A STAR Group Officer’s Fight Back | Derrick McManus

Dec 16, 2025
49 mins

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Episode Description

In 1994, Derrick was shot 14 times in under five seconds during an attempted arrest, sparking a 41-hour siege and a lifelong exploration into human durability. Derrick takes us inside the moment time stood still, the three hours he lay bleeding under constant gunfire, and the mental conditioning that kept him alive. 

Adam and Derrick also unpack the hidden psychological toll on police, the failures and victories of trauma management and the uncomfortable truths about guilt, responsibility and recovery.

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