Complex PTSD doesn't show up like a broken arm - nobody opens doors for you when your nervous system is on fire. Meghan Judge shares how losing her sister at age two, then her father at twelve, then her best friend in her twenties created a lifetime of hypervigilance that looked like "something wrong with her" instead of what it actually was: a body that learned too early that people disappear without warning. The conversation gets raw about female friendships turning vicious (women can smile while destroying you), parenting teenagers when your trauma tells you everyone you love will die, and why meditation advice feels like trying to light a wet match when your brain writes disaster scripts at 2 AM. There's real talk about the years of misdiagnosis - depression, ADHD, bipolar - before finally understanding this is your nervous system and brain trying to protect you. The relief of finding the right therapist after years of bad fits, permission to need continuous support instead of white-knuckling independence, and why you can't unlearn trauma but you can retrain your system to feel safe again.

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