Timestamps

00:00 Dopey intro
01:09 Dave opens with gratitude, sobriety, Dopey Nation, and the team behind the show
03:10 Vacation scramble, House of the Dragon, and crying over the Knicks finals mini movie
04:30 Dave talks revenge, resentment, recovery, and praying for people he resents
06:18 Scottish Dopey listener leaves a voicemail about coming off opiates
07:38 Buying a house, snorting heroin, and trying to get ready for move-in day
09:53 Coke, champagne, Ritalin, moving furniture, and crashing the moving van
12:23 Dave responds to the Scottish listener and introduces Michael Todd
14:43 Josh Eppard, Coheed and Cambria, DopeyCon rap dreams, and old Podbean comments
16:00 Michael Todd joins Dopey
20:49 Michael’s addiction begins with prescription pills on tour
24:29 Kicking pills without knowing he was dope sick
26:19 OxyContin enters the picture and becomes recreational
28:37 Touring, pain, free time, and addiction slowly taking over
30:48 Leaving Coheed, blowing through money, shooting coke and dope
33:12 Heroin, needles, detox, and early recovery
35:24 Rejoining the band clean and dealing with fame
37:46 Selling out big rooms while addiction shadows the dream
40:06 The best years of Coheed and the guilt of losing it
42:12 Lou Reed, the “big decision,” and becoming the rock-and-roll junkie
46:17 Shooting coke, bell ringers, shame, and performance
48:15 Soundgarden tour, music idols, and life trouble
50:35 Recovery, relapses, meetings, and having a sober minder on tour
54:58 Xanax blackout, car crash, and county jail in California
57:25 Jail violence, getting “pretzeled up,” and fear inside
59:49 Moving heroin from New York to California in Gobstopper boxes
01:02:10 Massachusetts, pain, the hospital, and the pharmacy robbery
01:04:33 Michael robs the pharmacy, gets caught, and loses the band
01:07:15 Court, house arrest, probation, restitution, and cancer
01:09:37 Relapse after surgery and unfinished legal consequences
01:12:02 Losing the dream, shame, Suboxone, and survival
01:14:22 Dave and Michael talk shame, recovery, and getting through it
01:16:43 Michael’s suicide attempt and overdose
01:18:31 Recovery meetings, power dynamics, and disillusionment
01:20:51 Rehab as summer camp, early morning meetings, and Dopey Zooms
01:23:12 Feeling like a child, fear, work, school, and finding purpose
01:25:29 Running into Claudio, drinking after, and unresolved grief over the band
01:27:25 Dave and Michael connect over suicidal using and surviving
01:29:18 Dave closes with radical gratitude
01:30:35 “So Good So Bad” outro song