Timestamps

00:00:15 – “Dopey Afternoon”
00:01:29 – Oro Recovery
00:02:53 – Dave’s loose crown and ongoing dental nightmare
00:05:18 – September Iron Maiden shirt and DopeyCon
00:06:40 – A dog eats weed, chocolate and espresso beans
00:10:07 – Mountainside
00:12:30 – Braeburn and Reframe and Reclaim
00:14:53 – Lauren’s bell-ringer and “dragon’s breath” voicemail
00:19:41 – Zach on grief, suicidal addiction and an ordinary sober birthday
00:22:02 – Long Island Center for Recovery
00:23:20 – Patreon reactions to Hunter Biden
00:26:42 – Workit Health
00:27:30 – Meth psychosis, owls and a bizarre marriage proposal
00:31:22 – Recovery Unplugged
00:33:18 – Leah joins the show
00:35:33 – Brian and the lost Shakedown Screet memorial page
00:40:20 – Growing up with a police-officer father
00:42:46 – Taking acid at Tool and getting lost in Camden
00:49:45 – Weed, hippie culture and hiding red eyes with pool water
00:54:11 – School drug tests and learning to deceive her parents
00:58:31 – Failing out of college and discovering psychedelics
01:00:46 – Are the Grateful Dead a jam band?
01:03:05 – Dave’s complicated relationship with Phish and Trey Anastasio
01:07:43 – Acid, college and the beginning of opioid use
01:10:00 – Four oxycodone pills as a birthday present
01:14:32 – Perc 30 addiction and her first recovery meeting
01:19:06 – Two pregnancies, abortions and using opioids for emotional pain
01:23:53 – Breaking up, Suboxone withdrawal and selling cocaine
01:28:29 – Joining the “magnificent hippies” and going on tour
01:33:09 – Fake Molly and surviving tour by selling water
01:35:27 – Living in Golden Gate Park and trimming weed
01:39:58 – Culinary school, restaurant work and returning to opioids
01:42:21 – Moving from Perc 30s to heroin
01:44:17 – Treatment at Caron and four years sober
01:48:41 – Meeting Brian through the recovery community
01:51:03 – Moving to Atlantic City and experimenting with psychedelics
01:58:05 – Kratom, LSD and the thinking that preceded relapse
02:00:25 – Drinking again after four years sober
02:05:06 – COVID shutdown, pressed fentanyl pills and daily use
02:09:51 – Atlantic City heroin, crack and the Chicken Man
02:12:04 – Reversing each other’s overdoses with Narcan
02:14:27 – Smoking crack while driving and getting arrested
02:16:50 – Slipping the handcuffs and stealing back the crack
02:19:05 – Seven felonies, eight misdemeanors and returning to treatment
02:21:24 – A final summer with Brian
02:23:44 – Leah finds Brian dead after her own overdose
02:25:54 – Crack, shock and arranging Brian’s funeral
02:30:37 – Brainspotting therapy and processing traumatic grief
02:33:03 – Bedbugs, housing instability and another relapse
02:35:27 – Another overdose death and getting sober again
02:37:41 – The relapsing sponsor and another dead roommate
02:40:07 – Leah’s recovery today
02:42:27 – Farming, sober friends and becoming a grief facilitator
02:46:44 – How Brian’s death transformed Leah
02:50:20 – SafeSpot overdose-prevention hotline
02:51:18 – Spotify reactions to Hunter Biden
02:58:31 – Closing and “Good So Bad”