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Part of the Traumatized Motherfuckers' Research Project: What you need to know about CPTSD, in bitesized summaries of our in-depth research efforts. Peer-reviewed research and irreverent dark humor meet trauma recovery, without the "bright sides." Let's talk about the complicated experience of rectifying a life built on trauma, relearning how to have relationships, and re-imagining your future... in micro chunks. (When you're ready, jump into the deep end, detailed below.)

You aren't alone, damaged, doomed, or dead yet. But with all the grit and gumption necessary to keep growing, you might be a real MF.

For the full project (400+ "research meets real life" episodes, hour+ deep dives & multipart series, videos, transcripts, workbooks, private community, and beyond go to: Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Not ready yet? Subscribe to get all recent releases right on Spotify: Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers on Spotify. For more info on the project go to: t-mfrs.com.

Help support the project here! <3

Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

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Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamics","310-chronic-deprivation-self-sabotage-psychosomatic-illness-and-abuse-dynamics","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/d5e1d455-6c7b-4969-b000-d10d094c3ef8/media.mp3",30728777,1920,"2023-10-20T11:47:00Z",{"_61":355,"_46":356,"_48":357,"_44":358,"_75":76,"_77":359,"_79":360,"_81":361,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":126},"de8d9fd0-8fcc-4d40-9bff-d2b634d25a04","3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication","39b-ending-deprivation-and-rehabbing-yer-brain-with-nonviolent-communication","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/ff44b62c-f5cf-4e95-adf9-cd16ebf36bd7/media.mp3",26258285,1641,"2023-09-29T10:54:00Z",{"_61":363,"_46":364,"_48":365,"_44":366,"_75":76,"_77":367,"_79":368,"_81":369,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":126},"39478abd-b5e6-4c19-a07f-d74d35d0a7bf","3.9a NonViolent (Effective) Communication","39a-nonviolent-effective-communication","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/71c16d97-fa3f-4cd7-b6b6-64164a9fc4bf/media.mp3",34848600,2177,"2023-09-15T10:18:00Z",{"_61":371,"_46":372,"_48":373,"_44":374,"_75":76,"_77":375,"_79":376,"_81":377,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":135},"5f51f3ba-ec39-41af-87fe-79c1e381ce94","3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)","38b-shitpologies-aka-non-apology-apologies","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/54b4703f-cb82-4328-a7cc-131363e9d833/media.mp3",22765818,1422,"2023-09-01T16:28:58Z",{"_61":379,"_46":380,"_48":381,"_44":382,"_75":76,"_77":383,"_79":384,"_81":385,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":135},"02b0db4c-6d92-4f7c-80f4-2646db0a37ec","3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)","38a-the-key-to-healing-relational-ruptures-and-two-people","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/2c553af4-c469-4c89-9732-5b23058364a6/media.mp3",16931944,1058,"2023-08-16T18:34:52Z",{"_61":387,"_46":388,"_48":389,"_44":390,"_75":76,"_77":391,"_79":392,"_81":393,"_83":188},"4eede93f-6c32-4779-8b60-81d6f73ac183","Extra \"survival Fs\" to give in relationship; Fronting and Feigning","extra-survival-fs-to-give-in-relationship-fronting-and-feigning","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/7eff3c1e-3d43-4727-8ce0-55a37e87ce0c/media.mp3",27619160,1726,"2023-07-27T11:24:22Z",{"_61":395,"_46":396,"_48":397,"_44":398,"_75":76,"_77":399,"_79":400,"_81":401,"_83":84,"_124":6,"_125":144},"b1883291-29e3-4c00-9345-3f6eabe52251","3.7. Determining \"Are they a good relational partner?\" before committing","37-determining-are-they-a-good-relational-partner-before-committing","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/ed9cc0ef-717a-4eb8-9171-ce5c86a70c4f/media.mp3",32249730,2015,"2023-07-15T16:29:31Z",{"_61":403,"_46":404,"_48":405,"_44":406,"_75":76,"_77":407,"_79":408,"_81":409,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":153},"d7d4baba-0907-4a0a-b3d1-f51e9822b501","3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationships","36b-overcoming-spiraling-conflicts-in-trauma-impacted-relationships","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/9633a1bd-2326-4017-8b59-28f0bc273c4f/media.mp3",26188068,1636,"2023-06-16T12:56:44Z",{"_61":411,"_46":412,"_48":413,"_44":414,"_75":76,"_77":415,"_79":416,"_81":417,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":153},"56e32330-35fb-4857-a358-8135dd18468b","3.6a. Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanation","36a-lost-love-and-authentic-connection-the-fragmented-brain-explanation","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/0bd3fe02-a4e3-4a47-9b08-910f1b247929/media.mp3",27215412,1700,"2023-06-05T11:41:03Z",{"_61":419,"_46":420,"_48":421,"_44":422,"_75":76,"_77":423,"_79":424,"_81":425,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":37},"2cbf30ac-6482-4164-8556-d5f16ff13152","3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections","35-shadow-parts-vs-successful-relationships-internal-vit-for-healthy-connections","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/8a672514-80bf-439f-ab7e-02a3a56e0afd/media.mp3",20483343,1280,"2023-05-05T10:52:16Z",{"_61":427,"_46":428,"_48":429,"_44":430,"_75":76,"_77":431,"_79":432,"_81":433,"_83":188},"6c93e827-3c7f-4b8f-b134-6161f965a924","Special release | \"Ah Hell Naw\" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships","special-release-ah-hell-naw-learned-obstacles-to-forming-close-relationships","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/595fc62a-3b37-46ac-9f0f-41d173c71fa8/media.mp3",38954631,2434,"2023-04-21T10:21:48Z",{"_61":435,"_46":436,"_48":437,"_44":438,"_75":76,"_77":439,"_79":440,"_81":441,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":170},"7d61e22b-e132-4c57-a3a0-465da9b38e36","3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship","34-vulnerability-intimacy-and-trust-issues-in-relationship","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/279c24e2-c768-4c74-adea-c6fc6903ea4d/media.mp3",21591771,1349,"2023-04-07T13:46:43Z",{"_61":443,"_46":444,"_48":445,"_44":446,"_75":76,"_77":447,"_79":448,"_81":449,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":179},"8800faea-4893-4ddb-9355-f50fdd9d5315","3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing","33-subconscious-self-loathing","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/a7918905-1e07-4ea2-bd55-bae43a87e36b/media.mp3",20305293,1269,"2023-03-10T15:42:19Z",{"_61":451,"_46":452,"_48":453,"_44":454,"_75":76,"_77":455,"_79":456,"_81":457,"_83":84},"46cfa0ea-5fe5-44be-9ac4-fbaeb0ce2ada","Hardening versus Healing","hardening-versus-healing","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/8bd126df-920a-45e0-9f1a-2adffe96efd7/media.mp3",20773407,1298,"2023-02-24T09:24:33Z",{"_61":459,"_46":460,"_48":461,"_44":462,"_75":76,"_77":463,"_79":464,"_81":465,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":197},"f0a45ba5-44d6-4c76-ac44-e734a8492372","3.2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy","32-healing-self-contradicting-brains-with-internal-family-systems-ifs-therapy","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/ffd69c48-3300-414b-8617-2bf782c45b94/media.mp3",28478902,1779,"2023-02-10T15:00:45Z",{"_61":467,"_46":468,"_48":469,"_44":470,"_75":76,"_77":471,"_79":472,"_81":473,"_83":84,"_124":179,"_125":206},"498b1aa1-25fa-4a8c-beca-6818b761185f","3.1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD","31-loneliness-and-isolation-in-cptsd","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/fcd2ec72-34f1-42b5-96a4-c67afbbd1dbd/media.mp3",18298253,1140,"2023-01-25T18:25:35Z",{"_61":475,"_46":476,"_48":477,"_44":478,"_75":76,"_77":479,"_79":480,"_81":481,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":215},"df57ffd1-adfa-43bd-b4bb-4ae9e4fe0b95","2.12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world","212-challenges-of-breaking-the-cycle-aka-generational-upset-nc-a-new-world","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/ee106862-35e8-458f-be64-1ec803e5a50d/media.mp3",32297795,2060,"2022-12-20T17:27:36Z",{"_61":483,"_46":484,"_48":485,"_44":486,"_75":76,"_77":487,"_79":488,"_81":489,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":224},"f5867636-5457-473b-95de-e9ac6f11f34d","2.11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change","211-forming-new-lives-aka-reintegration-efforts-for-lasting-change","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/33c1c615-e17b-42ec-a7f4-3035c5dcbcbb/media.mp3",26639882,1706,"2022-12-20T17:27:17Z",{"_61":491,"_46":492,"_48":493,"_44":494,"_75":76,"_77":495,"_79":496,"_81":497,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":241},"8a675100-9dd5-48dc-a44e-8b6dc2302693","2.10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectives","210-the-resources-needed-for-brain-recovery-aka-mediums-for-new-perspectives","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/39243332-3a25-4158-809a-f580fcf4345b/media.mp3",17375399,1127,"2022-12-20T17:27:07Z",{"_61":499,"_46":500,"_48":501,"_44":502,"_75":76,"_77":503,"_79":504,"_81":505,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":126},"fcddd431-1dfd-457d-989b-c4eb7910d8ae","2.9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistence","29-loss-of-functionality-aka-overcompensation-collapse-resisilence-not-resistence","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/fdf9e7a5-c308-433c-9c38-fb34dc51ee3a/media.mp3",14282501,934,"2022-12-20T17:26:56Z",{"_61":507,"_46":508,"_48":509,"_44":510,"_75":76,"_77":511,"_79":512,"_81":513,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":135},"7426889b-73ca-485d-af58-b60b470d97dc","2.8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brain","28-internal-battles-aka-healing-your-disintegrated-brain","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/fc3ab616-6620-4069-aabc-3462fbc4d626/media.mp3",14942458,975,"2022-12-20T17:26:40Z",{"_61":515,"_46":516,"_48":517,"_44":518,"_75":76,"_77":519,"_79":520,"_81":521,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":144},"febfbf33-3619-4834-9cc6-0e59cdcc39cb","2.7. Self-limiting modes of existence | AKA - life halting programs and parts battles","27-self-limiting-modes-of-existence-aka-life-halting-programs-and-parts-battles","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/5529f6b9-383d-449a-81e7-5b42ccc3461c/media.mp3",14968790,977,"2022-12-20T17:26:30Z",{"_61":523,"_46":524,"_48":525,"_44":526,"_75":76,"_77":527,"_79":528,"_81":529,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":153},"cc0ce99b-1456-4941-a557-293cae686c04","2.6. Default Mode Network (DMN) | AKA - memory throwbacks, bodily disconnection, and sub-sensory fear","26-default-mode-network-dmn-aka-memory-throwbacks-bodily-disconnection-and-sub-sensory-fear","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/bf648821-075c-4f6a-8ede-222308bc75df/media.mp3",15128032,987,"2022-12-20T17:26:14Z",{"_61":531,"_46":532,"_48":533,"_44":534,"_75":76,"_77":535,"_79":536,"_81":537,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":37},"aa326dc9-5f3d-45d9-ada9-ecba4179ca39","2.5. Entrapment, defeat, suicidality, and relationships | AKA - it's not worth your whole life","25-entrapment-defeat-suicidality-and-relationships-aka-its-not-worth-your-whole-life","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/4affc2bf-8cce-4fed-afd7-27b134b425fe/media.mp3",14670785,958,"2022-12-20T17:26:06Z",{"_61":539,"_46":540,"_48":541,"_44":542,"_75":76,"_77":543,"_79":544,"_81":545,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":170},"85a6cf53-043c-4f10-b786-80a7d6cb0f92","2.4. Filial obligation and family re-immersion | AKA - the family system trap","24-filial-obligation-and-family-re-immersion-aka-the-family-system-trap","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/82e6208e-1330-4dc9-8148-629bb136430b/media.mp3",19119124,1236,"2022-12-20T17:25:45Z",{"_61":547,"_46":548,"_48":549,"_44":550,"_75":76,"_77":551,"_79":552,"_81":553,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":179},"dff90c49-2048-45c1-b9a3-b4f01609face","2.3. “Perspective” | AKA - gaslighting, cognitive self-corruption, time distortions","23-perspective-aka-gaslighting-cognitive-self-corruption-time-distortions","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/99d26248-e523-4d13-90b9-d16f48b553f9/media.mp3",18044551,1169,"2022-12-20T17:25:21Z",{"_61":555,"_46":556,"_48":557,"_44":558,"_75":76,"_77":559,"_79":560,"_81":561,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":197},"e801146b-43be-48c7-afe4-ee3b53f2bdd7","2.2. Retraumatization, backslides, and non-linear progress | AKA - current cult.ural triggerings","22-retraumatization-backslides-and-non-linear-progress-aka-current-cultural-triggerings","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/2c91393c-397d-4cea-9783-0eeec1d90937/media.mp3",17196094,1116,"2022-12-20T17:25:04Z",{"_61":563,"_46":564,"_48":565,"_44":566,"_75":76,"_77":567,"_79":568,"_81":569,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":206},"26031e0a-454c-4acc-82c2-68151768926d","2.1. “Not bad enough to be trauma” | AKA - the aftermath is what matters","21-not-bad-enough-to-be-trauma-aka-the-aftermath-is-what-matters","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/6cbb7ed5-71a6-421a-93d1-cec362602c7f/media.mp3",16887222,1097,"2022-12-20T17:24:39Z",{"_61":571,"_46":572,"_48":573,"_44":574,"_75":76,"_77":575,"_79":576,"_81":577,"_83":84,"_124":197,"_125":6},"ee7013ce-cdae-4223-a260-7a130e0610fb","Intro to Season Two","intro-to-season-two","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/0de90abf-6401-4c3e-8ebc-445f8ce59484/media.mp3",7189042,444,"2022-12-20T17:24:09Z",{"_61":579,"_46":580,"_48":581,"_44":582,"_75":76,"_77":583,"_79":584,"_81":585,"_83":84,"_124":206,"_125":586},"8c772ede-f5b8-4d13-ad2d-79534124eab9","1.13. Recovery","113-recovery","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/45831345-e436-4e00-89ab-2f939e813a3a/media.mp3",36815934,2294,"2022-01-21T14:04:15Z",13,{"_61":588,"_46":589,"_48":590,"_44":591,"_75":76,"_77":592,"_79":593,"_81":594,"_83":84,"_124":206,"_125":215},"5d65804d-a256-443c-be1f-bafce003fc71","1.12. Loss of \"Self,\" Learned Helplessness, and Executive Functioning","112-loss-of-self-learned-helplessness-and-executive-functioning","https://sphinx.acast.com/p/open/s/65e0afa0dd3dcf001649c9ee/e/45a7143c-e215-4d8e-8a97-a0d49131195c/media.mp3",23482618,1633,"2022-01-13T12:12:50Z",{"_61":596,"_46":597,"_48":598,"_44":599,"_75":76,"_77":600,"_79":601,"_81":602,"_83":84,"_124":206,"_125":224},"afea332f-6568-4a85-9d77-a28ef04077aa","1.11. 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5.12.2 Top 5 Life Lessons of 2025

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Never lose your place, on any device