Do you realize just how patient God has been with you. During your wandering, he has been steady. Through your silence, he has stood ready to speak. When you have been unfaithful, he has remained faithful. He has always held the power to come through for you, but sometimes you’ve failed to come to him. Time and time again, he has been patient offering grace and mercy even when it was undeserved.

While God isn’t giving up on you, what are you giving up in your delayed surrender and obedience? Really – what are you missing out on as you fight for your own way?

My great-grandpa was a tiny little man with the brightest blue eyes. Cecil was a brilliant business man, owning the country store in a small farming community every local family came to for supplies in the 1940’s, 50’s and 60’s. He was much like Mr. Oleson on the show ‘Little House on the Prairie’. And interestingly enough, his wife Beulah (my great-grandmother) was much like Mrs. Oleson on the show, a sharp tongued, harsh woman. But Cecil was kind. He was hard-working. But, his heart was hard towards God.

He refused to surrender to the Lord. He spent his whole life refusing God’s way over his own. He built his wealth and his success and kept God at arms length. Every Sunday he would go to the church to build the fire, but refuse to stay and hear God’s word. He didn’t have time for God or a need for God. At 90 years old, coming to the end of his life, he called the family into his bedroom and wept. He regretted an entire lifetime spent without God. And that night, he finally gave his life to Jesus.

God had never given up on him. He was patient for 90 years awaiting the full heart of my great-grandpa, Cecil, and now he finally had it. As a fragile little old man, he was baptized by the local pastor with the help of my Daddy. He spent the final weeks of his life leading our family in prayer. It was beautiful. But it could have been beautiful for decades instead of just weeks. He had forfeited a lifetime of God’s goodness in his stubbornness and resistance. Oh how he wished he could go back and do it all again. He would do it right. He would surrender to God sooner. Life would have been so much better for him and for our entire family.

I wonder where you might be holding back on God and one day you’ll wish you would have surrendered sooner. One day you’ll see how much better life could have been if you would have given it all to him. Well you can’t go back and change what has already passed, but starting today, you can do this different. Today can be your day. This is your opportunity to change every future day with your decision to seek and obey God fully.

But here’s what we often do – We wait for things to get so bad that we can’t fix them on our own, so we cry out to God. God comes through and saves us, carries us through those hard times, but then as soon as life gets better we forget God. We hit our knees when God is our only option, but on the other side of the problem our knees aren’t on the floor. We pray to God when times are hard, but when it’s easy we withhold our heart.

And what are we forfeiting in our stubbornness? What good plans of God are we sacrificing as our temporary surrender is replaced with self-will and forced timing?

In our study of Exodus, we see what happens when we are stubborn to the will of God. We see what temporary surrender leads to – it leads to temporary relief followed by destruction. In God’s great mercy he gives us chance after chance to turn to him fully, but when we refuse, he allows things to get worse – wayyyyy worse!

Pharaoh, the King of Egypt, has seen the mighty hand of God. He has heard the words of God through Moses. He’s experienced destruction because of his disobedience and hardened heart. And through the process of 9 plagues by the hand of God against Egypt, we see a pattern. The pattern of seeking God’s relief in the hardest of times, but as soon as relief comes, a hardened heart leads right back to disobedience.

The plague of frogs is brought to Egypt by God as a sign of his power. The Egyptians are miserable and desperate because of these frogs everywhere. So here’s what Pharaoh does – Exodus 8:8, “Pharaoh summoned Moses and Aaron and begged, ‘Plead with the Lord to take the frogs away from me and my people. I will let your people go, so they can offer sacrifices to the Lord.’”

Great. Pharaoh is miserable and desperate so he surrenders to God’s will. And with that, it could all be over. The Israelites could have walked out of Egypt into their freedom and peace could have filled the land. It could be that easy. But it was never easy because the moment Pharaoh felt a bit of relief from the plague of frogs, he went right back to his old ways. Verse 15, “But when Pharaoh saw that relief had come, he became stubborn. He refused to listen to Moses and Aaron.”

So guess what, things get worse. More plagues. More destruction. More problems. Now the Egyptians are facing a plague of flies.

Have you ever been bothered by a fly? A single annoying fly that won’t leave you alone can drive you crazy. If that’s a biting fly it can turn paradise into torment. Now imagine your home being filled by flies. Imagine swarms of flies covering the ground. When Pharaoh once again becomes miserable and desperate, he surrenders to God’s will. Verse 25, “Pharaoh called for Moses and Aaron. ‘All right! Go ahead and offer sacrifices to your God.”

Moses prays to the Lord for the flies to disappear and the next day, the flies are gone. Not a single fly remained. Then guess what – in the absence of misery and desperation, “Pharaoh again became stubborn and refused to let the people go.”

And this continues as a pattern of plagues followed by seeking God’s relief, and the moment relief would come, that hardened heart would take over and disobedience would follow. Every disobedience directed by that hardened heart would bring the next plague of worse conditions and the hand of God would once again be sought. The moment relief would come, that hardened heart would once again take over.

It’s easy to read the story of Pharaoh and shake our head in disbelief, but my friends, we do it too. We pray to God when times are hard, but when it’s easy we withhold our heart. And what peace, what blessings, what good plans of the Lord are we forfeiting in the process?

When will we stop this? When will we no longer require desperate circumstances to realize we are always desperate for God?

You have the biopsy and await the results and you’re on your face begging for God’s touch. The biopsy returns and it’s benign, no cancer. You’re overcome with gratitude because God came through for you. But how quickly does life just return to normal? How quickly do you get busy and no longer have time for your knees to be on the floor in search of God? Without threat, you’re no longer desperate for God.

It’s not just a biopsy – it’s the missed paycheck, it’s the threatened relationship, it’s the car problems, it’s the forecasted storm. We seek God desperately when there’s a threat, but the moment the threat passes, we’re no longer desperate for God.

What we don’t realize is every moment of our lives is totally dependent on God. Without his breath, we don’t take our next breath. Without his hand of provision, we don’t eat. Without his light, we cease to exist. We’re desperate for God, but we’re living as if we’re not. What would life look like if you lived every moment in awareness of your desperation for God?

There’s a great song by Jamie McDonald called ’Desperate’. It says:
Oh God, Im desperate
Down on my knees
Send help from heaven
‘Cause that’s what I need
I’m not asking, I’m begging
Lord, come through for me
I need heaven and I’m desperate

How bad would things have to get before you call out to God in desperation? You’re desperate for God whether you realize it or not. And God is his infinite wisdom and divine mercy will allow things to get as bad as they need to get for you to realize your desperation for him. He’s more concerned about your character than your comfort.

With each relief offered by God, Pharaoh would quickly return to his hardened heart and disobedience. The plague of hail comes in chapter 9. Everything is destroyed. People, animals and crops are destroyed by the hail. Verses 27-28, “Then Pharaoh quickly summoned Moses and Aaron. ‘This time I have sinned,’ he confessed. ‘The Lord is the righteous one, and my people and I are wrong. Please beg the Lord to end this terrifying thunder and hail. We’ve had enough. I will let you go; you don’t need to stay any longer.’”

Guess what happens next. You’re right – God comes through with relief and Pharaoh goes right back to his old ways. Verses 34-35, “But when Pharaoh saw that the rain, hail and thunder had stopped, he and his officials sinned again, and Pharaoh again became stubborn. Because his heart was hard, Pharaoh refused to let the people leave, just as the Lord had predicted through Moses.”

So, things continue to get worse. Don’t let that be you, my sister. Don’t waste more time. Don’t go back to old ways when God brings relief. Stay desperate.

Psalm 63:1, “O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you.”

This is desperation. God desires our hearts to remain desperate for him even when the problem is resolved, even when the threat is removed, even when the misery is lifted. Don’t go back to your old ways. Don’t return to your busy distracted ways of living. Don’t start living like you don’t desperately need God just because life is easier again – No, girl, you desperately need him for every breath in every day.

Let’s stay desperate. Let’s realize our dependence on God and live in full surrender to him, his way, his timing, and his word. Then, we can come to the end of our days without the regret of wasted days and missed opportunities. Desperation leads to surrender. Surrender leads to obedience. Obediences leads to blessings. Now, don’t let your blessings take you out of desperation for God.

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