In this week’s episode I sat down with Lillian Carrier. Lillian is an autistic actress and advocate from Los Angeles, best known for her breakout role in Freeform’s Everything’s Gonna Be Okay. In 2025, Lillian starred in her first leading film role in HorseGirls, which premiered at the Tribeca Film Festival. Directed by Lauren Meyering and co-starring Tony Hale and Gretchen Mol, the film follows Margarita, an autistic 22-year-old who finds unlikely belonging in a quirky community of hobby horse riders.

After sharing her journey towards becoming an actor we discuss role in the film, the importance of not just authentic disability representation but also in telling disabled stories that are grounded in truth and so much more.

This episode was edited and produced by Ben Curwin.

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